Sulit's thoughts

When I first met my new owner, I was so uncertain of this tanned man with the scarred face. He was new, and looked so much like the one that saved me, but not quite. I didn't know how to react around him, first... But then the first time I heard his laugh. The first time I felt his hesitant, gentle touches. The way he knew exactly WHERE to scratch, found that RIGHT spot that made me just flop down and BASK in the attention.

The way he looked after us all.

Oh, oh he was no saint. I knew that much. I was not blind to the blood. I had not been blind to HER either. I just wished I hadn't been so hesitant to tell him that she felt like bad news back then. Kuebiko always kept blaming herself for not REALIZING it before. For actually liking her. But she had been a very convincing actress, even having fooled my trainer.

And it got bad, we all knew it got bad... We all knew how reckless he had started to become. As if he WANTED death to catch up with him. As if he WANTED anything to keep out of the clutches of his father. His father, I had found out one day when he got assaulted by goons that worked for him, was not a nice man. I had the scars to prove it. And so did he.

A breaking point. I knew after I heard him murmuring with some ex-ciphers, that there was a chance I would not see him again. I would not be able to protect him again. He had kept us all in our balls. He had moved us away. He had only brought Zenosyne with him. And he only did that when things were dire. He only did that when there was no way out.

I thought I would never see him again and it broke my heart...

But then he returned. He returned for us, we were not sent to his twin brother Zemar. And we left Orre. We left HOME behind. It made me feel uneasy at first, the place I had known as home all my life... But as the days slipped into weeks, and the weeks into months. I saw something change within my friend...

I saw him smile again. I saw him laugh. It wasn't cruel, it wasn't to MOCK, it was genuine. It was warm. It made me so happy. I had spent so many nights talking with Kuebiko and Felicity, so many nights offering my warmth to the room, making sure the two were not without heat. I would protect that which he treasured. That which made a smile bloom on his face again. That which gave him a new breath of life.

I wished it would've lasted...

I really wish it had.

But then that day happened. I shouldn't have been nearby. I shouldn't have been with him. He had put me on guard, ensured there would be no more then the one person currently with them. The one so bravely standing against so many. I should not have been there. But I was.

And even as the blast hit me, even as I felt the pain SEAR into my skin, even as lost the sight in one of my eyes...

I still was so happy when I saw he was alive...

I could go in peace...

Oh my friend, my family...

Be h a p p y ...