iv -- the genesis
an excerpt from dr monroe's mysteriously unpublished autobiography ,,,
linked to OUTCASTS , my main oc wip
"..This was the moment I had been training for. My endless days of study were finally about to come to fruition. I would write hastily in my journals in preparation for the experiment, I would feel the sense of pride (even if my moral grounding felt a bit uneasy) bloom with each passing day. I was worried, of course, but as a scientist I am always trained to improvise.
An excerpt from one of my journals reads as such:
"Success is impossibly close to my hold, yet its tail still lingers in the air with its identical twin of death by its side. I must choose between this child and the state of humanity up until this point-- a daunting choice that taunts me, teases me to no end. Things will never be the same again.
At the present moment I sit in my study with the silence of midnight impending ever closer. I must work quickly, and I must work to document it all in such little time. I must tread my tightrope using all the skills of a circus act; I must not fall, for if I do all my work is undone.
On my desk I have a strew of compounds, a beaker and my own sense of self-assuredness that I shall conquer the possible risk of accident. I pray to God, dear as He is in my heart, that He lets me make the right choice. Just this once."
That moment would go down in history as the genesis of a new and exciting field of study: the manipulation of human genetics.
Unfortunately, as I speak, the very first test subject remained... uncommunicative. She had regressed mentally past even the level of an infant with barely any motor skills.
No, I am being too generous.
I fear that, in her psychological condition, the personality formed was… somewhat warped. Rather than a human, what was constructed was feral. I had inadvertently created something more animalistic than human. It was rather a blow, that my creation was not what I had intended but as I say, it has proven to be very interesting as a case study.
Perhaps I feel guilt, but it is not productive or helpful to my cause. Every experiment is valuable, and this was no exception. I would not undo it, even with the undesirable consequences. I have not allowed what happened to my patient to dissuade from my pursuit of knowledge; my study continues, and even now the incident has taught me much. One must learn from their mistakes..."