Dying and Dying
Rowan hadn't thought anything of it, at first. Kalmar's requests were a refreshing blip in his days; they got him money, got him out of the house, and they were, generally speaking, things he already enjoyed doing. Kalmar got tequila; Rowan got whiskey. Kalmar got weedkiller and a lighter; Rowan got cigarettes and the knowledge Red was making bad decisions. They both enjoyed blowing up some cars. So Kalmar would get a fresh dye job, and Rowan would get Kal to pay for his.
But when Rowan found himself standing before the dye display, a strange feeling wormed in his chest. He glanced at the purples and the pinks. A brief, flittering idea--no. He still hadn't even talked to Nat yet, and at this point, he suspected they were avoiding him as much as he were them. They had been asleep when he--during Red's brief overnight visit--came down to check their room for stray plants.
He'd shaken off the feeling by the time he got back--opening the door with a slam and a grin, "Ready bitch?"--and was plenty spirited shooting jabs at Kal while they got him moved into the bathroom and made him wait while they applied bleach to their own roots.
But the time had finally come. They sat perched on the bathroom counter as they pulled his wheelchair as close as it could get, but the handles meant he was still a solid six inches away--not ideal with a bastard this tall. "Brakes on?" They didn't wait for an answer as they hooked a leg over his shoulder. There, that would give them the maneuverability they needed. "Stay still."
With that, he set to work, but he had scarcely begun when that uncomfortable, worming feeling returned. This time, he could pinpoint its origin far faster. It was the familiarity of it all. The crinkle of the cheap plastic gloves, the tingling of the bleach on his scalp, the scent of the dye, the meticulous search for virgin roots, the warmth of the body beneath him--all of it. He remembered the last time he had done this.
Golden afternoon light danced across the pavement. All they'd been able to find was the public pool--outdoor showers--after hours. It was enough. She sat on a bench with her legs wrapped around them--the only thing keeping them from wiggling--and they looked up at her and said something. (Their lips moved silently. Why couldn't he remember?) She answered (what was it?) and they laughed, a bright sound like sparkles on the water.
But, no. As much as they wanted to believe it, that wasn't the last time. A bathroom, dark and dirty. Dripping water. Cold hands. Silence. Silence. Silence.
Rowan had stopped applying dye and hadn't noticed. He began again, silently hoping Kal would keep any comments about the pause to himself. What were they even doing here, anyway? Why hadn't Kalmar asked Nil to do this, or that boyfriend of his? Surely, there was nothing about hair dye in his health plans. Evidently, he was starting to trust them, but Rowan knew better than to believe that being a reliable errand boy ever meant anything more than that.
"Hey. Turn on some music. It's too quiet in here."