Featuring Kiel

- Who I was -
Origin Prompt 1: Show us who your esk was before they were transformed.

I did not know how big the world was before I had become what the others call an 'Esk'. Of course, as a small tiny moth the world was grand and full of life and experience I would never be able to reach-- but now that I can explore it without worry it is much like another world. I am bigger then I was before... and can fly for a lot longer without getting tired. In a way it is a blessing to be able to venture the world with such a care free attitude...

... but sometimes it can be a little bit too big and I find myself in places I would never go before. Lakes, volcanos, oceans... anywhere I would go was like a playground for me. It was hard to force myself to try to make the journey back to my boundary-- the place I was reborn into an 'Esk'. Everything else was so exciting that the thought of going back to an empty old field was not as wondrous as I once would have thought as a moth; I could go and do anything I wanted, why would I want to go back? 

Yet... there was a pull.
A longing for the old.
I needed to go back and see what happened to my land.

My home.

I watched humans do similar things one day on my travels, they would go visit old homes and feel soft-- sometimes even sad. I never thought that it could happen to me. I was so happy wandering and this strange foreign entity to a human, how could I ever feel this feeling of 'nostalgia'? But coming back, much like clock work, I moved to the lone tree in this clearing like I wasn't in control of my body. The immediate feeling was the warmth that flowed through me like it had in the beginning, I was just a small thing after all.

I only vaguely remember the life of the moth because I was only the tiny piece of it-- the wing. I don't have real memories of being that creature but there is a lot my mind must have imagined and planted in for it to make more sense to me. Being small, fragile and light so I would get blown away in the wind. I don't remember how I was separated from the body, it must have been hard on them... I try to avoid these thoughts in fear I might think of something that would make me upset.

As I look around the space, I realize it has been awhile since I been here. The trees have grown bushier, the grass a lot taller but the sun was shining brighter then ever... how long was I gone? Thinking of the years past made me recall some of the friends I met when I was first born and needed the help to understand the world. Now that I don't need that help I wonder where they all have gone-- hell, they could have gone anywhere, the whole world was under their belt.

I wonder if they all miss me...?
... how unfortunate....
It was hard to remember them at all.

Spreading my wings to stretch them, I started to move around the area to see if any other memories of my old life would snap back at me. It was possible they would never come to me, and I knew that but I tried desperately anyways. The thought of having all those 'Esk' be missing and forgotten forever was unnerving but almost hard to care about. How could I be sad about something I don't remember feeling? I ask this to myself and find a small pinch at my chest despite it all; was this what the humans call regret? Maybe I should have come back a lot sooner then I had.

I don't even remember who created me.
Another more painful pinch hit my chest.
Ah...

I looked down into the blades of grass and see a water droplet hit the ground, was it raining? Looking up to the sky it was bright as it ever would be and I notice that maybe it was me. I was crying. For a reason I did not know or feel, water fell off my face as I suddenly feel tired. I lay in the grass and rest my head. It was cooler in the tall grass and eased the warmth that my face felt from the tears that streamed down it. As the awful feeling crept into my skin, the thought of being separated came back into my mind like some disease. Was it possible that they didn't want me anymore? Moths can't do anything without their wings but how else does the world explain what happened... there was no body nearby. 

I sat and grew cold as the night came, hours passing without warning.
Maybe I could be saved again?