CoffeeBreak_BossJin

We’re out of coffee but we still took a break;

The once warm blend

Well, now, it depends

On who sips the sizzling cup first. 

Whether it’s you or I

We both can’t deny

An addiction is what occurred.

I drank the elixir

As a problem fixer

But ended up with more than I could swallow,

And who knew 

That your faithful hand

Would be the next to follow. 

Another sip, another cup

Another lover I wanted to give up.

And you too drank

And let me be frank

Indirectly, but even so, a true kiss

Is what I imagined

Or maybe you planned

Because now I feel a guilty bliss

I realize now why I bottled down the coffee

Instead some other poison

Because I’m not allowed to devour down

A shot of something you enjoy in.

While I wish so hard and so many times

For my empty soul to be whisked away 

The raw truth and fact of the matter

Is that your arms are where I would rather stay.

When I want to deny

And I tell and I try

To my myself and to those around

It ends up being 

Not my voice

But yours, I recognize, is the only sound. 

And I remember the coffee

On rainy days

How the color of skin has warmed me

And the musky scent

As I wail and vent

Covered me in safety, totally. 

And in my dishes of plates and pans

Broke in the worst times when I could hardly stand

But by my side there always was

An awaiting table just for us; 

Spread in luxury

Spread in preparation

And now I realize in devastation

That I’ve become hooked

And it’s an addicting factor

It’s more than mere comfort that I am after

It’s beyond adrenaline 

It’s beyond a must

It’s become more than just convenient trust

It’s aside from the time I’ve taken to drink

How I grounded and measured and took time to think

No matter how much sugar I try to hide

No matter the creamer that I provide

This love was never saturated

Never could I have tried

And often days I sat by myself and sighed

I restocked the coffee

All the cans and goods

And I even put labels on them like I originally should.

I made more than usual

To keep me awake

And I know in my heart this wasn’t a mistake.

I’m sorry for the last cup and how I brewed it in an outbreak

But please won’t you try more

Since I know this cup will not break.