Is this therapy

Man: Are you sitting quite comfortably? I'd like to remind you that what you see is very much all there is. Me, you and whatever burdens you may carry. We'll start with your name, what is it?

Fausto: Yes I am, thank you. -he looks around with dissimulation- Okeeey… My name is Fausto VI Gustavsen.

Man: Do you think your name suits you? Do you perhaps plan on changing it or do you feel that it has helped define you as a person? Could you imagine yourself with any other name?

Fausto: -He is silent for a moment- Well, yes, I think it does suit me. I wouldn’t change my name ever, I mean… It’s a family name, and while all my other brothers have basically the same name, no one else is the “sixth” Fausto. -laughs- There are other suitable names, but Fausto speaks to me, and I wouldn’t change it.

Man: How old are you, if you don't mind my asking?

Fausto: I’m 24, does that surprise you?

Man: No, not at all.

Fausto: Good, some people tell me that I look older, but the true is: I don’t mind.

Man: -coughs- Well.. When is your birthday? Do you know your astrological sign? Do you believe that it's accurate to your personality?

Fausto: Yesyesyes -he’s very excited.- My birthday is february 6. I know I’m Aquarius. And ehm… I don’t know. I think as an air sign, the typical aquarius people tend to be more imaginative, altruistic and other stuff that I don’t relate to. But it’s a long topic. I do belive in the zodiac, because it’s fun, even if it can be inaccurate many times.

Man: Say you're a third person who is describing you here to someone who's never met you before. What key traits would you mention? Why those in particular?

Fausto: Ok, I have this-- Fausto is very charming, charismatic and a bit of an asshole. -Laughs- Well, I could say handsome instead of charming, BUT I know that the charm goes beyond the physical aspect. Not everyone will find me handsome, but I know I can charm  their hearts. Or something like that. And while I say all this, I think it shows that I'm a very charismatic guy, and a bit of an asshole because ... Simply because people have told me, and I think that people have the right to say those things if they think that. And I know I can be one. That's it.

Man: Are there many traits you wish you didn't have? Or perhaps any that you feel you wouldn't be you without them?

Fausto: Ufff… I don’t know. If I didn’t have a particular trait of mine, I wouldn’t be me, you know? Exactly! That’s exactly what I think. I’m fine the way I am. I know I can be a better version of myself, but that doesn’t eliminates an aspect per se, you know?

Man: What are your favourite, simple things? Perhaps when a stranger smiles at you, or your favourite song comes up on the radio?

Fausto: I love the two things you just mentioned. Also when I see that I have more money in my bank account, I mean. More than I thought I would -smirks- and when a dear friend of mine tells me he has a great day. A good meal too!

Man: Do you listen to music? If you do, which genres do you find yourself most attracted to honestly? Why is this? If not, why is that?

Fausto: HOW ON EARTH WOULD I NOT LISTEN TO MUSIC? I freaking love Jazz, is one of the coolest genres of all times. Blues too, and R&B is a more comercial version I guess. I love the classics, you know? Also I’m not a rock fan but there are some good bands. I mean, mother of god, QUEEN? ELVIS? I’m not joking on this, music is the best.

Man: Have you ever heard that, if you listen to the lyrics of someone's favourite song, you'll hear the words they can't say? Meaning, in the nutshell, that the people being spoken of listen to music they can relate to and that's often that they're hurting in some way. Do you listen to music that you can relate to especially?

Fausto: I think I’ve read it somewhere, maybe on buzzfeed? I think it’s kind of sad, but on the other hand it must be nice to find that someone relate to you in a way, and you are able to listen to what they want to say. I mean, the autor of the song, or the person who love that specifically song… I’m confusing myself a bit right now, sorry man. And the last question! Yes, of course I do, it’s quite catartic.

Man: If ever, when do you listen to music? When you're sad, happy, angry, lonesome, excited?

Fausto: When I’m relaxed, when I’m happy, sad, lonesome. Excited depends, am I alone? If I am then yes, I would listen to music. I like listening to music when I am having things with people, too. I find it very stimulating-- I’m joking, I’ve never listen to an specific song just to have sex, but it would be very interesting to try that. But out of jokes, I always listen to music when I’m working.

Man: And why do you listen to music when you are working?

Fausto: I believe I’m more productive that way, and it’s like, a fact that a good bar NEEDS to have music playing to be a good bar.

Man: Do you ever feel blissful one minute and then depressed the next?

Fausto: I don’t think so. I think I’m pretty stable emotionally, if that would happen it would be for a solid reason, like, a friend was just killed or something tragic like that.

Man: How often do you notice your moods change? How does this affect those around you?

Fausto: As I’ve said before, I am stable. If there would be something like a mood swing, then believe me. I would know, and I would be fucking scary about that. I like being chill, or happy in the best case scenario. If my mood varies is because something happened, like I just said before. But I don’t know, the worst mood I am tends... to be stressed and it’s because of money most of times.

Man: How do you feel you communicate with other people? Do you feel you lack the proper skills to hold onto friendships?

Fausto: Oh I think this is my mother ducking gift. The gift to talk with the others! I just hope it doesn’t include dead ones, I’m not ready to have a “Sixth Sense” experience now. -jokes- I don’t think I have lots of friends, but that’s because I’m not a person that’s usually.. there for them. I tend to be working most of the times, I have a very good friend, and we have great communication, but I need to be on the mood or I need to like the person really much to be able to be for them. Like, a real friend. I have tons of fake friends or people I just know, it’s more like I don’t have the energy to have lots of friendships, I’m ok with just one.

Man: What is your oldest friend's name and what are they like? Do you remember how you met? Have you ever fought physically or otherwise?

Fausto: Her name is Penelope Ruiz I think..? No no, it’s Rosario. I think in spanish is something like… “Crucifijio”- Is that correct? I don’t know spanish. She isn’t even from spain! Well no, actually she is. -he seems a bit lost- She’s super cool and calm. I know I would look like the mature one in any relationship, but she is the one in ours. And we actually met when I was doing a not very legal work, she helped me out, and we became close eventually. We had have fights, yes, but only verbally. And honestly, just a very few times comparing the time we have been best friends.

Man: Are you currently in a romantic relationship? Do you think that you two will stay together for much longer? If you aren't currently dating anyone, think about the last time you did.

Fausto: Oh god no-- Well, my last partner was a boy. I am flirty, and I seduced him, I guess. He worked with me as a musician, on my bar of course. Oh!! he IS really skillful, I shit you not. But things happens. I wasn’t in love with him as he was with me, and I tought that it was unfair, so I prefered to cut it right there. He was a really cool guy and I hope that he can be happy… I kinda miss him, but I hope someday I can be truly in love with a person and the person happens to be truly in love with me too. Also I miss having sex. I’m sorry -laughs-

Man: How do you feel since they aren't around? Feel free to go into detail, I don't mind hearing it

Fausto: I was sad, now I’m not. But it is as it has to be, I can date someone because I like them, but if the other person is thinking about marriage and childs and all that stuff, don’t get me wrong, I wanna get married someday and I want to have lots of children, but I need to feel the same as the other person. And I didn’t. So… I think is more fair to be alone than to be a selfish prick that just want to have someone to sleep with, not in a sexy way. I mean, I really miss to feel a warm hug, a good morning kiss and all that nice stuff, but it is what it is. Just that. ALSO HE DIDN’T LIKED MY MAGIC TRICKS AS I DO. I mean, come on! Get some curiosity and sense of humor, man! -jokes-

Man: Tell me about your parents, what were they like? In what ways did they influence you most, do you think?

Fausto: My parents are ok, they love eachother a lot and that’s why they have like a fuckton of children. But actually, they were a bit distant and I think that’s because both of them worked and have a lot of kids to feed. I’m ok with that, I am the way I am partially because of that. I think that the way I see the world is because of them, and my brothers and sisters. Money is the centre of everything in my family, and that’s because we come from a poor house, but we grew and now every member of my family is pretty ok talking economicaly.

Man: Are/Were there any other significant people in your life? Any aunts or uncles who took care of you as a child, perhaps?

Fausto: ...Hm, I don’t think so. Other than Penelope and my ex, nope, not really. I’m not very close to any aunt, uncle or cousin.

Man: Do you think that the person you are now has changed all that much from when you were a child?

Fausto: OF COURSE. I was this dorky child that got no friends, I was nice tho. I would be my own friend if I could, but I can’t. And I wouldn’t change anything, again. I have a soft spot for my old self. And it’s ok because I am still that person in a way, but I'm upgraded, hah.

Man: How about your teenage years? Did you enjoy them?

Fausto: Uhm, I was in “transition” in those years. I fucked a lot, and I was dumped a lot, too. It was necessary I guess. But I don’t particularly miss those days.


Man: What are some things that you just can't stand? Not people, not places, just things.

Fausto: Bad hygiene, that extreme position ... the shit of the social justice warriors? I mean, I cannot stand THAT people, but it's because of that idiology, they're so closed minded. Not everything is black and white. I hate that kind of perspective. Also meat, I literally can not stand meat, it's bad for my health.

Man: What are your opinions on individuality? I'm open minded, don't worry.

Fausto: I mean, we are born alone and are gonna die alone etc. But as humans, we live in a society and it’s okey if we want to feel some kind of partnership. That doesn’t mean that we will lose the sense of ourselves. I don’t even know if what I’m saying is even correct.

Man: How do you feel when someone opposes you? Verbally or otherwise? How do you react instantly?

Fausto: It’s freaking funny. Specialy if the other person get angry about that, I mean, it’s my point of view, it doesn’t have to be the same of yours, chill a bit. But I usually tend to joke about that, because I like to see the limits of the others. So, basicaly I will tease the other person.

Man: Could you be described as a violent person? Would you say you're a violent person?

Fausto: I am not, I don’t like to fight at all. It’s weird to me to be like, really angry. But I have the capacity of punch or react violently if the situation demands that. Example: Someone punchs my bestfriend. Would I laught? Oh no, I would kick that person in their butt.

Man: Is it ever okay to harm or kill someone?

Fausto: No? Why would that be ok? Unless the “someone” we are talking here is like a pedo, or a rapist. Then maybe I would consider it.

Man: Do you agree that it's a "hunt or be hunted/eat or be eaten" world?

Fausto: I think that’s really edgy, I don’t share that point of view.

Man: Which would you say you were more likely to be viewed as? Hunted or hunter?

Fausto: Well I think that I can be consider as a hunted by the stupid fact that I am a fucking vegan. But economically talking, I would be the hunter. Hah.

Man: If you were the hunter, would you ever befriend or help someone who could be called the (almost-) hunted? Would you aid them in becoming a fellow hunter, perhaps?

Fausto: I hate these questions because they are sooo eeeedgyyyy. But yeah, I would befriend someone who is hunted. Why would I judge them because of that stupid condition? Are they gross, evil or some kind of shit? If yes, then I wouldn’t befriend them, if not, then why not? Can we stop talking about this? I find it quite dummy, sorry if that offends you. -he isn’t sorry.-

Man: What do you do when you pass someone on the streets who looks lost or looks like someone in need of help?

Fausto: If I am aware that they seem lost, then I will ask them if they really are, and then, help. I guess.

Man: I know we've been doing this for a while now, but how do you feel when you express your feelings? Do you perhaps feel like a weight has been lifted from your shoulders or a claw has released your chest or do you "vent" so often to people that it's become a normal sensation?

Fausto: It’s nice! You should try it sometimes -smiles- But yes, it feels nice. But I’m not that secretive about my life or feelings, it’s just that I don’t tend to feel bad enough to not want to talk about it.

Man: How often do you find yourself ranting about issues that bother you to your significant partner/friend? Do they (unconsciously) make you feel like you're just being a burden or are they constantly telling you that you can tell them anything that worries you?

Fausto: Hah. Well, I usually rant about my economical problems if I have them, but Penny is a very strong gal, and very smart, let me tell you. So if she doesn’t have the time to deal with my shit, she will tell me, and if she’s in the mood, she will help me. That’s it, so simple. She doesn’t make me feel like a burden, and I’m not constantly in the kind of trouble that I need to ask for her help. So if I ever became a burden, she would tell me, and I guess I would feel a bit sad but that hasn’t happened yet.

Man: I know we're both busy people so I'll close up this meeting now. It's been lovely talking to you and I hope you feel like that claw has let go or the weight has vanished now? I hope we can do this again sometime and I'm always here if you need me. Goodbye!

Fausto: I already told you that I didn’t feel any claw on my cheeest ha ha. But yeah, I think I’m fine by myself. It has been pretty fun, though. Goodbye!