Fenin's Links
Holy shit I saw him back in the heavenly realm after he inadvertently broke my friggin palace and just. I never expected him to come back like that. I genuinely thought he was lost. But he wasn’t Lost! He really did fight his way back in! And even though things were really awkward for a bit, and I snuck around about it because I was too nervous to outright step in right away, going out and standing by his side again- it’s great. I didn’t realize how much I missed it. Missed him. His arrival even got Tou to sort out his shit finally. It feels like.. well not like before but.. equal. I’ll keep on supporting jianli however I can.
I always felt bad about sending Fenin away like that. It hit him really hard. But he’s also made himself into quite the impressive god!! I wonder how he ascended, I always sort of knew he had the potential to, but he didn’t ever go after it like me and Tou did… Neither of them have changed much ultimately, they still set each other off so easily, I’m not too surprised they ended up as counterparts to each other. I also inadvertently dug up things about Fenin’s past that really hurt him. It's taken awhile to get that storted out, but we managed! And now he and Tou are REALLY sorted and comfortable with eachother, which is great. Things feel really good now.
Tou’s pretty much been around my whole life at this point, for what it’s worth and- we’ve been through a lot together. We’ve fought constantly for years and years because Tou never lets ANYTHING go and I get angry too quickly over things- But when it comes down to it I want- I care about him a lot. A whole lot. He’s actually moved forwards, and sorted out some of his shit and it’s.. good. it’s a lot better now. ….comfortable mostly? I’m a bit nervous about.. well… it might be better if I just. let him do what he wants in that regard; safer at least.
He’s basically, the most important person to me right now, and I care about him too much. Basically. yeah.
It's really hard for me to open up about things, especially in a situation like this. Expressing things is hard and I not only suck at it, but have used my cultivation as an excuse for keeping my distance from things like that for hundreds of years. I really care about this man. Him being happy is important to me. It was way easier to yell and fight before, since it meant I didn't have to let myself think about how I felt or how he felt or just- anything. I'm not going to let myself hide away like before. Things don't have to be stupid and twisted. I can accept that I love him, and that he loves me for some stupid reason. It's not easy or anything but it just- it's so- maybe. Maybe it's ok to want to be happy and want nice things and to be with a hot man just because that's what I want. Maybe things don't have to always be complicated and tangled up. I'll figure out a better way to put it sometime. The important thing is, just- he makes me happy. Annoyed, yes, but also happy.
Not my master technically but kinda always felt like it. By proxy. He’s way older than I figured, and there’s a lot of baggage there. Is it just that the older you get the worse off in general you get? I hope not
Never expected to see him again, I’ll be real, but no. Seems these two are hell bent on sticking by his highness no matter what. He’s grown a lot, I feel. Wrangled that demon spawn of his pretty good.
Fuuuck this guy. Hated him when he was alive and he's still a shitstain of a person when he's dead. It's like he gets off on causing problems.
I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY LET YOU BE A GOD. WHAT A TITLE TO GET, TOO. AS IF IT'S EVEN TRUE. As if someone like YOU has a big dick, what the fuck! OH, AND. I'm STILL MAD ABOUT WHAT YOU DID TO MY ARM. FILTH LIKE YOU SHOULDN'T GET CLOSE TO PEOPLE LIKE ME.
Please leave me alone?????;;
Why is he so freaked out by me? I don't get it. I also don't get why he doesn't use a sword, like Tou. He definitely looks stronger and tougher on the surface. Still, he's definitely likeable enough on the surface. He seems loyal, and that's something I've gotten sick of *not* seeing.
Yori kind of dumped it on me to uh. Cope. I guess. I don’t know if it helped, but the sword likes me a lot now. It’s.. maybe it’s helped? I’ve kept up spending time with it. It’s really enthusiastic about everything…
Smoke is really fun to play with!! Sometimes, I get to go out and play with him on a mountain with a whole lot of rocks and trees!! One time, I found a snake and Smoke showed me where to put it down so it got back to its home. I like Smoke!!
The ghost that actively torments the heavens! Terrifying. Also just. The whole thing with Jianli is just- I can’t believe he’s ok with all THAT. ….he’s pulled Jianli back up though in a way he really needed… and I guess my worries about him hurting Jianli were misplaced. He’s proven that pretty well.
I’m not sure how his sword is better at social stuff than he is, but that’s absolutely a thing….
I spent a while hating this one. Turns out there wasn't much of a point to that. I am trying very hard to get along with him now. It's not that it's hard to do, it's just that it's very, very awkward. Mostly because I have no idea how to actually get along naturally with other people. I like that Jiji has a good time with him. I like that he does well with Ignem. ...He is. Good?
This is Tou's mirror and I. uh. .......is that my fault? that this happened? I'm not sure how that works, but I'm. not going to pick anything like this up anymore; or just. in general. I don't want to cause...more;
Okitsu is cute though. very polite. has good judgement- which. you know, makes sense with it's original title.
I ...I think I became really aware once he picked me up. But I was always aware just not.. as actively? I'm not sure how that's supposed to work. I think I scared him.
I like Fenin. I feel like.. he's unsure what's ok to do with me sometimes, but he's trying.
Tou’s saber is friggin huge and he uses it as a statement more than anything. I think it’s from the festival? And he restored it and infused it with enough energy to bind it to him. He’s always holding things from the past honestly, but this one is really both personal to him and really generally useful, so… he’s very good with it, but at the cost of atrophying his skill with literally any other weapon. We’re working on it
We want to impress the dragon of truth EVEN MORE. Fenin's VERY important and can do all kinds of tricks with arrows. I can do a few tricks with Toumilosc, but not THAT many! Fenin fought with Toumilosc a lot, but they were never serious fights. I can tell because I wasn't involved. And Fenin came and rescued him when that wicked ghost used me against him! We were so glad he showed up then! And after that, things kept getting better. Well, except for when they got worse when the unappreciative candle baby showed up and made a mess of EVERYTHING, but, after that! And after the magma... but eventually, they got good again! And it's because of him!
Uh she’s. Kind. Very stubborn kind. But maybe less- intimidating? How do I explain this uhm… I like her, but she needs to be protected. …..she kind of reminds me of jianli, a little, and I think that’s why I’m so drawn to help her. I managed to teach her archery, so she has some skills to defend herself with.
Acacia is… is… very determined. She’s good though, I… people don’t normally try and get to know me or tou and I wonder if it was just the proximity or if it was something she really wanted, but.. she’s helped me out a lot in her own way.
It took awhile for him to warm up to me, he has a bit of hang ups regarding ladies, which I had to work around. He’s such a good person though. Fiercely loyal. The mountain lord fights very hard, even for things he doesn’t need to!// ….