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Everything's been very complicated for a long time... I think. We're finally getting somewhere really good now, even after all the trouble we've caused for each other. ...Mostly me. Mostly that I've caused for us. I think- Uh... I think we're in a better place than we've ever been before, despite everything that's happened. I’ve started going to him to talk about things again which feels nice. I missed having someone like him around. We can just sort of. Talk. About things. But he has a terrible sense of humor. It’s awful. The worst part is how funny Fenin thinks he is. The two of them set each other off and then I’m stuck there, trapped, listening to them.
Tou.. we’ve all been through so much, but Tou held onto and internalized a lot of things while me and Fenin more so just let things go. It’s been so long, I’m not mad anymore! Clearing everything out honestly has been the best thing, and we’ve really managed to take a positive step forwards and I just. Tou is one of my oldest friends. He’s been there for me in so many ways. I appreciate him a lot.
It's really hard for me to open up about things, especially in a situation like this. Expressing things is hard and I not only suck at it, but have used my cultivation as an excuse for keeping my distance from things like that for hundreds of years. I really care about this man. Him being happy is important to me. It was way easier to yell and fight before, since it meant I didn't have to let myself think about how I felt or how he felt or just- anything. I'm not going to let myself hide away like before. Things don't have to be stupid and twisted. I can accept that I love him, and that he loves me for some stupid reason. It's not easy or anything but it just- it's so- maybe. Maybe it's ok to want to be happy and want nice things and to be with a hot man just because that's what I want. Maybe things don't have to always be complicated and tangled up. I'll figure out a better way to put it sometime. The important thing is, just- he makes me happy. Annoyed, yes, but also happy.
Tou’s pretty much been around my whole life at this point, for what it’s worth and- we’ve been through a lot together. We’ve fought constantly for years and years because Tou never lets ANYTHING go and I get angry too quickly over things- But when it comes down to it I want- I care about him a lot. A whole lot. He’s actually moved forwards, and sorted out some of his shit and it’s.. good. it’s a lot better now. ….comfortable mostly? I’m a bit nervous about.. well… it might be better if I just. let him do what he wants in that regard; safer at least.
He’s basically, the most important person to me right now, and I care about him too much. Basically. yeah.
He's Jianli's husband and one of the most terrifying people I've ever met. It's so weird seeing him all domestic at his manor when all I've seen for hundreds or years is this terrifying, nightmarish force of a ghost.
One of the more annoying people I have to get better at dealing with recently. I guess it's for the best. Brooms don't work on him anymore and Jiji will be upset if I seriously hurt him.
He's honestly the closest thing I have to a father figure in my life. I. Would like to impress him and have him feel that I'm making something of myself. I'm still trying to do that, too. I am not sure I've accomplished this yet, but maybe someday.
Certainly didn't expect him to ascend, but I suppose he always had good potential to so it’s not as much of a shock as the other one is. Seems he turned out well enough, that’s all I could hope for of him.
...I thought we were done dealing with him after he died. Apparently not. Apparently, he just had to make us remember every second we've had to put up with him in the past.
I don't even KNOW how you ended up training with and serving my cousin. Trash like you should stay on the streets where you BELONG. AND WHO THE FUCK THOUGHT IT WAS OK TO LET SOMEONE LIKE YOU ASCEND? YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN JEALOUS OF MY COUSIN. I BET YOU LOVED HAVING A CHANCE TO BE HIGHER THAN HIM FOR ONCE. I BET THAT REALLY GOT YOU OFF, HUH?
Jianli's spiritual tool. It has a lot more personality than I first expected from it. I can't tell if it's always been like that or if it's because Red Rain and Ignem have started making it more involved in things. Whatever the case is, I'm fond of it. It's graceful, talented and strong.
Good! Fixed me. Gentle hands. Soft voice.
I found Fini a long time ago while looking for that stupid earring. They were a much more important find, even before I realized they could still be activated and used as a spiritual weapon. I probably said way too much in front of them, but. That's just how things are, I guess. They are one of the most thoughtful kids I've ever met and are really cute. I want to help them find out as much about their past as they want to know and figure out how to use them effectively. It's nice having them around right now.
My current weilder. He’s very good!! I like him very much. He needs many hugs and I like.. that I can give him them now. I feel like that’s important. He said he wants to help me, and I want to help him too…
A lot of people tell me Saozhou is unnecessarily large for me and, yes, that may be the case. However, I've gotten used to it and I like the advantage it gives me when my opponents underestimate the two of us. They see some dumb pretty-boy with a big sword and think it's all for show. That's where the cutting comes in.
Toumilosc!! Toumilosc!! This is my Toumilosc. He gets nervous in front of big crowds but we worked so hard and overcame that together! He still doesn't like them but he can deal with it because he's worked hard and come a really long way. Toumilosc loves to help people and he likes showing off fancy things, too, especially when they're still practical. He's very precise and likes to make sure he has control over situations he enters. Otherwise he starts getting nervous since there's so many possible outcomes. He was really sad when he found me again. I didn't know what happened exactly, but he didn't talk like he used to. I think he missed the crown prince and the dragon of truth a whole lot, even though he never said it. Now he has BOTH of them back and he's started to smile more!
I was so glad when I found Taochi and Saozhou hidden away in the ruins years and years ago. I know everyone teases me for holding onto the past, but these two were really important. I was honestly holding onto this one more for sentimentality's sake, but when, uh. Jianli's husband asked me about it, something kind of clicked. A lot has changed since he first used it, but there's something very poetic about him making it his spiritual weapon. He's grown enough that he can take the ideals and beliefs he used to hold and rework them into a philosophy that's more in line with his current life and the way he's grown to see the world.
Acacia is- hard to describe. She's clever and resourceful but has that same optimistic way of viewing others and the world that he did. It's strange, meeting someone like her. I have no idea what she wants from me. She always laughs and brushes it off when I ask, so I really don't know. It's- nice. It's nice to have her around.
He’s so silly. The saying ‘thou doth protest too much’ fits him so well! He’s sweet under that though, and cares a lot more than he wants others to see. Or notice. But I notice! My dear dear desert lord.// ….
She doesn't spend much time in the heavens. If she needs help, she'll ask for it.