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perennialvixen
a freakishly small femm-presenting agender japanese bobtail with feathery long black and 5% white bicolor fur and owlish, bright, marigold yellow eyes. lame back leg. wobbly cat syndrome.
"i deserve it. i'll stay in the water and let the salt pour into my wounds."
| nomenclature
perennial - like flowers return every year; she returns from death.
vixen - owls and foxes are mutual predators; owleyes namesake.
| age
10 moons
| birth season
newleaf
| gender
agender | she / her
| orientation
aromantic asexual
| story
the tale continues
| loyalty
foxclan
| rank
warrior
| theme
about
death was meant to be permanent. with one friend's gentle pleas, and the agreeance of the ever-fickle court, rueshade was granted a chance live again. donning the name perennialvixen, this dark forest demon found far away from anything that had ever existed in her lifetime, with hardly anyone alive who would know of who she had been in her life. unable let the truth of her lineage and the burdened sins of her past let her go- her kinship to the one cat she swore she'd learn to live without has ignited their song and dance once again, tugging at the relationships of her previous life, faltering between her second chance and the chance to run into the soft, unforgiving paws of owleyes and his legacy again.
"i love you, and if you want, i'll call you "king", but why do i lie awake each night thinking: "instead of you, it should be me?""
personality
a fragmented piece of a fate that was once left to die, perennialvixen finds herself in a position to do things over again. to make a change in the destiny that drove her into the shadows once before. however, it is a startling place to be in, tethered between your new life and the life you spent so long catering and caring for. This has left perennialvixen in a position that is outwardly frightening to those who exhibit within her presence, as she spends so much of her time toiling over what has been and what will be. perennialvixen is much more content watching and observing the life she charedes in.
[ read more ]
few words are spoken from the molly, but almost every word she says seems so above her age, as if someone was speaking through her little, bobtailed body. this distant, empty demeanor continues into the molly's overall appearance, as she appears as this apathetic, uncaring cat who feels little concern for those around her, and even for herself. Her emotions are layered under the presence of alexithymia, creating a disconnect between what is being felt inside, and how these emotions are outwardly displayed.
the thought of forming relationships in this lifetime is one that murmurs quietly and conflicting in the life of perennialvixen. for as much as she is told that her siblings and parents are hers to claim, it is hard not to associate her existence with the cats who brought her into this world, all those moons ago. her heart settles on her lovers of a life long dead, and her ability to make new friends died with the likes of echostar, lightharvester, and wispfrost, many moons ago. while she knows how to be friendly to these cats, perennialpaw finds it incredibly hard to make bonds that are worth keeping around. afterall, when she dies, won't she simply return to that life of darkness and hatred, as the spirit she was from the start? this body will not outlast her soul, and the spirit that is perennialvixen won't exist, not in life or in death- which heads the question: is there any point? with an ability to feel that inevitable reality, perennialvixen hesitantly plays the game of friendship with those around her, until her eventual truths destroy any semblance of what she's trying to keep afloat.
it would be foolish to say perennialvixen was devoid of emotion; that would hardly be so. the pressure points that made up rueshade boil deep within perennialvixen's blood, and have created this feline who burns with rage. not even in a second life could she escape the talons she tried so hard to keep off her back. his destiny that should not have been hers to bear carries her with such an intensity that when she is poked just right, lashes out with righteous fear and anger. it would appear to be unnecessary anger, brought up from an unsown shore, but perennialvixen sees it as vengeance. if she has to bear the mark of the owl for another 100 moons, then someone will see the truth of the matter. somebody will pay at her expense. although owleyes may be long dead, his legacy lingers and fills the ears of those who seek it true. and in his audience of one, perennialvixen seeks to make this show their last- burning the feathers of their design to the ground, so that nobody dares to seek owleyes and his lifetime out again. this devotion to her own self-destruction is a dangerous path to walk, but perennialvixen is willing to set her paws on fire for the lives who deserve her act of revenge.
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likes
- the water
- being alone
- destiny
- hunting
- personal space
- storms
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dislikes
- social situations
- ignorance
- starclan
- being told what to do
- dishonesty
- complacency
stats
core
atk
int
spd
con
cha
devot
utility
fight
swim
climb
hunt
comm
herb
bloodline
- father: harepool
- mother: tulipbreeze
- siblings: snappervow, sowthrash, stellarpaw, salmonbrook, stoatsun
- mate: n/a
- kits: unkindnesskit
history
never once had rueshade wished to live again. content with her place among the empty stars, she had softened her persona and demeanor, distanced from the life that had wracked the loving she-cat within her mortality. there was no reason to hold on to the grudges of what was once hers. at least, that's what she believed. nobody could have prepared rueshade for the shock that was waking up from her wasteful sleep, into a living, breathing body once again. [ read more ]
{ kithood }
this story does not settle with perennialvixen; she has helped to set fire to the lives of her parents, after all. the shared borders between foxclan and adderclan are bound to bring forth some kind of story, but instead of clan-hoppers and spats, come six bundles of joy. a past offender, former medicine cat harepool; the paranoia of unique exclusion under the benevolent. in contrast, angelstar gnaws on tulipbreeze. under the cover of night, she flees, settling outside the clans to rear her litter in near secrecy. her private nursery is only known to herself, her granddaughter, and perennialvixens father. this small illusion of a family, a whole one, a new one, tugs on both parents' heartstrings. but with a deep commitment to their natal clans, they know these fantasies will never come to be. so, a compromise is made. by the morning, tulipbreeze will be safely recovered and relieved to foxclans's nursery. however, her six has gone down by nearly half, and with how grievous tulipbreeze turns when the topic is brought up- it's clear something horrific happened. That is what perennialvixen is told during most of her kit-hood, or rather, inferring. it's rude to pry into such grief. perennnialkit however, fails to understand that it is impolite to pry, and she asks. she learns of harepool and her other halfs in adderclan. desperate to get to the truth of why she was placed back on this earth, perennialkit awaited her apprenticeship with an unmatched vigor, in hopes of meeting her father when the day came.
{ apprenticeship }
not mere moments after being apprenticed to blackthistle, newly named perennialpaw takes off from foxclan's camp, tearing the world apart to get a chance to meet with those whomst she knew were still alive. first, came harepool. just hours before his execution, perennialvixen would get to speak to her father for the first and last time, in search of hope and in search of answers. (awaited thread completion). lightharvester- wolfclan's medicine cat, would be the second cat she would uncover this day, a friend from her days as rueshade. recognizing the demon underneith this mortal form almost instantly, perennialvixen confided in her friend, begging him to speak her name, and know who she was. although she wished so dearly to go home with lightarvester, where she could be her- she could not leave foxclan behind. their meeting would be bittersweet, with promises to return, a promise perennialvixen would keep for the rest of her life. when wolfclan's life was in jeopardy, perennialpaw was the loudest, strongest voice for their remains when nobody else in foxclan would be- and her soul focus would lay heavy on the urge to protect the cats she held close.
relations
foxclan
home is where the heart is, but this heart isn't home.
although perennialvixen would consider herself loyal to foxclan until the bitter end, something about this version of foxclan makes her feel anything but at home. far away from the rivers and creeks which made up foxclan's territory at it's founding, the salty seas and unfamiliar paths leave perennialvixen longing for the world that used to be hers. she feels like an outsider unto her own clan, unable to connect completely to the coastal lifestyle they have adapted. the crashing waves call her close no matter the case, and she hesitantly welcomes the sea into her life.
lightharvester . [ best friend ] originally met in the depths of the dark forest, perennialvixen wants to spend the rest of her life in the safe, secure arms of wolfclan's medicine cat. the only cat upon this life who is willing to call perennialvixen rueshade, she idolizes lightharvester and truly believes that he is the only thing she has in this life that is worth fighting for. they have a very motherly bond, taking care of eachother until death's end. perennialvixen wants nothing more to protect ligtharvester from all that is bad in this world, and shelter him from the cat she used to be, if that means keeping her light forever in her view.
snappervow . [ brother ] the only member of tulipbreeze and harepool's family which she would truly be willing to call her family, perennialvixen finds herself drawn to the tom she calls her brother, seeing the legacy of which they posses deep within him. reminiscent of the sibling she used to have, perennialvixen finds herself caring for snappervow, and taking an interest in finding companionship in him. she isn't sure why he allures her so much, but having one ally her age doesn't hold her back too much, and perhaps having a cat to ground her in this modern day foxclan isn't such a bad thing.
blazingpaw . [ friend ] a strange, rather unique tom; something about blazingpaw makes perennialvixen's mind ache. she aspires to know him, know his friends, and know how his life is to turn. perennialvixen has found the cruel similarities of fate in them, and it has created a bond that she is hesitant to persue- as his position as a medicine cat is a threat to who she is, but it also...could be of great help to her. having a medicine cat...a friend who was willing to defy starclan for her...it makes her wonder. he reminds her so dearly of ryesnare and their relationship...but she can't have that again. she wouldn't dare betray him. so a friend blazingpaw will be, and friends, they will remain.
trivia
- her voice claim is english singer-songwriter kate nash.
- despite knowing that she is a reincarnation, perennialvixen is unable to directly tell people this, as something subconcious stops her from being able to speak of it.
- designed as a perfect mirror of her grandfather owleyes, the two are almost identical when put side by side. when she sees her own reflection in the water, she recognizes it as him, and not her.
- perennialvixen wears many accessories, those being: a floral wreath of rue and gossypium raimondii cotton flowers, black velvet petunias and white hydrangea flowers which grow within her pelt, and a chimeric lunar / death-head's hawkmoth which rests at the base of her tail.
- perennialvixen is plagued with shadows from the dark forest which cloud her vision, that she can not determine if they are real or merely hallucinations.
- whenever her mind wanders, perennialvixen is bombarded with visions of lifetimes and timelines of a world that could have been. she does not know how to make them stop, and they make her restless.
- she is followed by a melanistic blackiston's fish owl, who is nameless. paranoia has her beleiving that this owl is a form of owleyes haunting her, but it is just an owl who has bonded to her after perennialvixen healed one of it's damaged wings.
- genetics: Ll RR Rere lplp whwh Bb XoXo Dd dmdm aa mcmc spsp tata bmbm ii wbwb EE Ccs Wsw acac sfsf jbjb mm mkmk pdpd. Small. Marigold eyes. Watery blue eyes. Muscular. Bobtail. Freak Mutation. Chylomicronemia B. Tremor. Withering. Twisted paw: Back. | Lean frame. Small face. Conical teeth. Massive ears.
