Mai Honda's Links
[ Frustration / Guilt ]
Mai never met their other older brother- only knowing him at an age too young to remember now. Being left to grow up with a broken family, they wonder if it was somehow their own fault that Hideki went missing. They feel frustrated, too; why did he have to cause their family to be like this?
But they know it wasn't his fault- but they don't have a way to cope with their own frustration.
[ Confusion / Guilt ]
Hideki hardly knew his little sister, really- he had gone missing when they were only 2 years old. He feels guilty for not being there for them while they grew up- for not being there for everyone in that house.
But, he wonders, what good will lamenting about it do?
[ Grief ]
Mai can hardly remember Katsu anymore, but with how much they resemble him, they feel even more like a ghost; an echo of the past. An echo of what could've been.
[ Guilt ]
Katsu didn't even get to see his baby Mai grow up- if he could say something now, it would be full of regret. He tried his best, he did, but all it's left is mourning.
[ Guilt / Grief ]
Mai hasn't spoken to their brother in a while. They wish they had the courage to even knock on his door, but they know it won't change anything. They don't think anything could reverse this mess.
.. They wish it was possible, though. They miss their brother.
[ Despair ]
He wants to talk to them again. He wants to read to them like they used to, to sit up in bed telling them stories about the nightlights, playing in the yard. Everything they should've had, everything Hideki took from them, everything Ami stole from them- everything he deprived them of. But was it better to abandon them and let them grow by themselves, or hold them dear, shelter them so gently, and then let them feel that freefall and impalement of the realization that you're not what you should've been? Who you should've been?.. He doesn't know. He was too young to know. He shouldn't have had to have known, not then.
[ Guilt / Frustration ]
' How could you just let this happen? ' is what Mai wants to say- they don't even know the extent of what happened, and they just feel so frustrated. How come they were left the short end of the stick? Why did everything have to fall apart just like that? Why can't they even feel justified in their own anger?
Mai isn't sure how to feel anymore.
[ Familial Love / Regret ]
How could she let this happen, indeed? How could she drop everything- everyone- for only one? How could she let her children.. deteriorate like this? Decay before her own unseeing eyes? Should she apologize? Would it do.. anything? Could she even begin to apologize for everything she's done? The misery she's caused? How.. how could she ever, ever being to even fathom what she's done to them?
[ Fear / Confusion ]
Just what has their brother been doing?
[ Uncertainty ]
A ghost in the same home he never was supposed to be in. Are they a memory of the past, like him?.. or do they still belong, like he never will? After all, ghosts still haunt houses they, at some point, belonged in.