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"You were so close to me despite who I am. I did not deserve your kindness. Even with knowing all the hope you had in me, I've failed you. I failed at the only thing you wanted from me. Being with you. I left you and when I was back, I could not find you. I should have at least tell you my secret, to not abandon you like this. To let you know what was happening. That I WOULD be back... I miss you...
I regret my actions every single day. It happened so long time ago yet I feel like it happened today. It hurts to remember our happy life, but at the same time, I do not want you to be forgotten."
Journal entry at xx.xx.xxx :
"My love, I cannot stop thinking about you. Since you got... taken... I feel nothing but hollowness in my life. Waking up in the morning no longer makes me happy. Hearing birds outside no longer cheers me up. Seeing roses no longer brings a smile into my face.
Everything that surrounds me reminds me of you. I cannot enter a room without hope you'd be inside. Fides sometimes confides to me he heard or saw you. I know it's impossible and even so, I am a bit jealous of him. I feel like you've never left though you are not here anymore. I cannot force myself to leave, my memories keep me here. You keep me here.
I do not know how long I will last. Our children are the only reason for me to not give up but when they will start their own lives and their mother no longer will be needed... I am scared I will not be strong enough...
I cannot wait to see you again."