Destiel 🔥

Before you ask yes, he was named after the ship Dean x Castiel from the show Supernatural. His parents loved the two so much he was named afterthe twos favorite couple and ship name. Of course growing up he was always asked and it drove him insane at first as a child. It was not something he wanted to be asked or made fun of. Due to it he was called gay behind his back and he didn't know what it meant until he was older. though by then he just didn't care but to prove a point he dated girls. It went horribly though and it always lead to him being told he just didn't care enough. He never felt that way at all but then again he really didn't feel like he had any feelings for the other person.

It's not like he wanted to hurt anyones feelings. He saw his parents relationship he thought it be a lot like that but dating for him was just never like that. He was at the beach with his family for the summer at ther time share house. His parents had it for as long as he could remember and they went every year to spend the summer at the beach. He was sitting on his surf board as he watched his dad catch some waves and his mom was on the beach tanning. He was sitting there on his surf board just letting the waves slowly take him as he thought about his life. soon he would be moving out, he would be working as a small interview reporter and his love life was shit. His parents had so many hopes for him too and here he was feeling like he was always letting them down. he saw his dad yelling something and he was trying to read his lips when suddenly he was hit from behind by a large wave that took him under. He had drifted to far out so when the wave pushed forward he didn't hit the ocean floor but more water and got stuck under the water in its currents. His life flashed before his eyes and but it wasn't the water that had him scared but the water reminded him of all the pressures of life and it was just closing on him and swallowing him whole. He was drowing and the waves were to strong. The last Thing he remebered was the suns rays hitting his face one last time before his eyes closed and the next thing he knew he was on the beach and his dad was preforming CPR on him. The life gaurd was soon there and there was an ambulance in the background, the paramedics were yelling at people to move and they asked him what was his name. He remembered his response because he just laughed and asked 'Whats the ship name of Dean and Castiel" his parents burst out laughing along with some others that also knew the answer. From that point on though he became scared of open bodies of water that was any deeper then his knees. It wasn't so much water that scared him but the water felt like all the pressures of life was pushing him down and surrounding him.

After moving out and another failed relationship he really as ready to just give up. It happened suddenly and it was only a dare but a guy in his class was dared to kiss him. He over heard it but he didn't think the guy would actually go through with it until.... his name was called and he turned his head to look and then suddenly he was kissed. He was caught off gaurd and he punched the guy in the face. He was sent home and the other guy was suspended from school for three days for sexual harrassment. He had never though about liking men at all until then but it didn't mean he didnt want it to at least be mutual. He returned to school the next day and thats when he met Him. The man that would be apart of his life even after collage and a man that had the key to his apartment, the key to his heart but it was only something temporary. This man became a big part of his life and yet no matter what the guy always made it clear they weren't dating and they would never be dating. Of course love was for people that hadn't screwed up somewhere. He had screwed with life so hard this was what he derseved. No this was what he deserevd for breaking all those poor girls hearts. Smoking became a big part of his life to help him get through his stress and no matter as many times as he tries to quit he just can't. Not as long as He is still apart of his life and no matter how many times he tries to break it off he gets sucked right back in. Just like smoking, he can't stop even though he knows its killing him from the inside out.

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