Also "Craving" or "Thirst" in English. Theo's elf obsession with Noe, maybe you can apply this to canon too??? teehee

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I want it, I want it, I want you. I don't need anything else, so...

It's not enough, more. It won't be ever enough. I'm dry and unfulfilled

So I won't let you go, alright? Let's be together until death do us apart, okay?

At first, right, only getting called by my name is good enough.

Even though that single word you said supposed to save my everything,

I wonder when did these feelings start?

It's not enough.

Every night when I think of you,

There's a deep, deep scar that feels like it'll stay there forever.

The number of pains I have is proof of this love and it shines brightly.

I shouldn't have any reason for being alive

Everything is your's, it's all your fault

Ah, please don't sober me up with those proper words

Ah, dear justice, kneel down in front of the evil

The dawn of a day that cries as it's about to die

The light, I found the light

A very dazzling light, a very, very gentle light

As if it was clinging for it, this hand, this hand stretches out to it

Hey, this body is hot as if it's being burned

But, this is what happiness is, surely, my happiness!

Hey, my figure only forms on the places that you touched

This is paradise, it's our own promise

Let's be together forever and ever, darling.

THEO @ NOEEEEEEEEEE THEO @ NYOOOEEEEEEEE

LIKE??? There's some wanting to be saved, he can't exactly express it under influence though, and it becomes an acception of what he is and is reluctant to change. OUU. OUU OU.

Though not really all lines can be seen as from Theo, some would make more sense coming out of Noe!!!

translation by twintongues

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don't go

play with me a little longer

even when the red sun spills down

dance with me dizzingly

the night is cold

bleed a little more for me

spit at me

infect me with your sickness

your speech and motions

i try to mimic without fail

in this way i become lighter

i feel at ease

but when i turn around, unconsciously

there is no shadow

it's terrifying

save me

the weather is bad here

the water keeps rising

rescue me before anyone else

your habits and practices

keep suffocating me

it's hard to breathe so tonight

i'll choose to sleep alone

but when i turn around, unconsciously

who are you, exactly?

it's terrifying

in the end everyone on this earth is alone

words like "save me" are all just nonsense

a game of beasts devouring each other

despite knowing this i keep going, i'm an idiot

over there, on your own, you drift away

raising your hand high, you say something

i can understand you, vaguely, but

i'll choose not to save you

over there, you, having reached the other side

tremble and say something

but no matter what you say now

you and me is all that we've become

huffing copium

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I’ll hold you, I’ll hold you

Stopped to hide, done grieving

Because someday they’ll run out

Love me

Broken shadow, layered upon a black stain

I can’t (show) you my real face

Light steps swaying

A satin ribbon is wavering

You always find me

In the first paragraph of this novel

I’ll hold you, I’ll hold you

Enough to crush me

I want to throw it all away

If it’s for you

So hold me, just hold me

I seems I can’t go back anymore

I’m the only one who gets to hurt you

Hey, kiss me

A broken lipstick, crimson layered lips

A voice and persona gone hoarse

Traces secretly left on the glass

That I want to stain you with

Get me drunk and take me on a winding trip

When the wine we’ve spilled starts to smell

I can just throw the away

This red-stained dress

Burn into me, burn into me

Fill me with you

Someday it will come to an end

So I want to feel it now

Let’s keep boasting, let’s keep boasting that

“We’ll love each other until the day we die”

You’re always the one who comes to my mind

Hey, kiss me

It’s about to break

We’ve kept betraying one another

With decorative words

It looks like this is the end

I’ll hold you, I’ll hold you

Enough to crush you

I want to throw it all away

If it’s for you

So hold me, just hold me

I can’t go back anymore

In the end, I’ll give you something real

So close your eyes and be stained in red

Hey, kiss me

Yeah....... also this whole lasah album is kinda just them too. yeah

A call for help, but some... comfort knowing there's someone there for you [Nyoe...].

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(in the night, in the shadows of the concrete, I can hear the noises of the radio

it hurts, it still hurts, it really really hurts, she says

we're all just running after the traces of delusion, tired, tired of everything

and as I caressed her hair, I thought to myself,

maybe there's no meaning, not a single hope in this helpless truth.)

light, you're in my slightest breath

you're in my brightest death

light, you're in my endless nothingness.

I see you there.

(as the searchlight danced,

we were like pigs in a slaughterhouse waiting to be dressed

so hurry, hurry, before everything is too late, I said

but it's okay, it'll be okay, the enormous love of destruction

will convict everything for us in the end

until then, we'll fall endlessly into the dark, just you and I together,

two humans, together.)

light, you're in my blindest dreams

you're in my vainest screams

light, you're in my shameful loneliness

I see you there.

(and I stopped thinking

because words don't mean anything, because words aren't worth anything

"don't leave me", I thought I heard her say,

but there was just an awaken corpse lying there

goodnight, goodnight, goodnight.)

Noe @ Theo

Like, probably Noe's conflicted state in wanting to help him; like "why am I doing so, when there's nothing to gain-- wait, am I gaining something from this?" omg now thinking writing journal entries as AU Noe would be so fun.

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every time i think of you, I hear the sounds of vanity

like a snake that hisses in my tiny heart of honesty

in your words of "I love you", I smell the scents of tragedy

let me be a victim too, I'm tired of hypocrisy

dear mr.so-and-so, your nonsense is a charm

tell me why, tell me why you're always filling in the blanks

in the night, in the night I see the embers of my heart

losing light, losing light you're almost tearing me apart

today, I'm waiting for a love that never ever dies

tonight, I'm waiting for a tomorrow I could never buy

today, I'm waiting for a forever that would never lie

tonight, I'm leaving you so goodbye and goodnight sayonara!

every time I think of you, I taste the flavor of fantasy

like a leech that crawls and creeps but takes me back to reality

in your words of "I need you", I feel the touch of fallacy

let me be a virgin too, I've fallen for philosophy

dear mr.so-and-so, our secret is a crime

tell me why, tell me why you'r always filling in the blanks

in the night, in the night I hear the rainbows in my heart

burning bright, burning bright you're almost tearing me apart

today, I'm waiting for a love that never ever dies

tonight, I'm waiting for a tomorrow I could never buy

today, I'm waiting for a forever that would never lie

tonight, I'm leaving you so goodbye and goodnight sayonara!

noe.... mmhm. this link goes to itoki hana's cover, but multiple arranges + the original are scattered in the playlist

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Say

Where is my shame,

When I call your name?

So, please don't set me free

I'm as heavy as can be

I will do you harm

I will break my arm

I am a victim of your charms

I want to be dead

When I'm in bed

I can be so mean

You can beat me

I would like to shame you

I would like to blame you

Just because of my love to you

And

Love itself is just as innocent as roses in May

I know nothing can drive it away

Though

Love itself is just as brief as a candle in the wind

But it's greedy just like sin

Alone but sane

I am a love suicide

'Cause

Love itself is just as brief as a candle in the wind

It is pure white just like sin

Alone but sane

I am a love suicide

'Cause

Love itself is just as brief as a candle in the wind

It is pure white just like sin

this is it, the noe "i'm gonna save theo" anthem. fuck

Y'KNOW HOW THAT VERSE: "WE ARE THE ENDLESS, DRAWN OUT SINGLE SEASON" FUCK OFF this fits the Winter theme attachment too hard. fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

translation by twintongues

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not wanting to do anything

we sought shade

without ever being touched by the sun

we were burnt halfway

those who fall asleep at night

are four spinning seasons

we are the endless,

drawn out single season

atop the boiling earth

nameless flowers

bloom

instead of spewing cooled words

say nothing at all.

in any case, don't run away.

survive the day, today.

days of our wandering blue spring

still at the heart

don't stop. struggle and crawl towards it

the blue sky, pouring down,

and the distant road, growing faraway

have i come too far?

can't i go back?

at moment of hesitation

atop the scorching earth

i became a black dot

dazed

don't graze on withered dreams.

don't waver.

in case, don't run away.

survive the day, today.

the days of our wandering blue spring

are still at the heart.

don't stop, struggle and crawl towards it

blue sky, pouring down,

the distant road, growing faraway

we want to speak only with

the temperature of the bright red blood

which flows in this body

please don't mock me with your cold tongue.

the day we endured with our teeth clenched

and the road stretching out as though it might snap

the days of our wandering blue spring

are still at the heart

don't stop. struggle and crawl towards it

blue sky, pouring down,

the distant road, growing faraway

"It is ok if it is with you" this is the song where noe finally solidifies he luvs theo and then they FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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You know me well

Over and over

Let me savor this sweetness

Warm fingers

You do me so good I want more

Affectionate voice Melting nights

Our love still gets deeper

The indulgent two

Stains in a deeper shade

Being just the way I am

It is okay if it is with you.

Passionate nights

And swelling love

Falling deep

It is okay if it is with you.

Slowly the gear starts to shift

Heading for climax

Getting deeper and deeper

As time goes by

That face, only for this moment

Frail but so more in love

The indulgent two

Stains in a deeper shade

Being just the way I am

It is okay if it is with you.

Passionate nights

And swelling love

Falling deep

It is okay if it is with you.

It feels so right to be with you.

The ending to this AU, presumably Noe and Theo having spent all of their time together, yet Theo is still a half-elf with a shorter life span, so Noe continues to live on. This is only assuming they've survived and settled down at some point lol, as if either don't die from something than old age.

OBVIOUSLY their main season I attached onto them is winter, cause that's just the Windrose vibes lol. Also their first convo in canon.............. oue oue oue (soung of crying)

Also some insight on Noe's thoughts on love, with his longer lifespan, and well at least for this Noe. Lyrics could be interpretted literally as if Noe kinda just "forgets" and moves on, and yeah. He would. He doesn't linger something he can't get back anymore. He'd rather, like, y'know continue living for the sake of it. But it's not out of a lack of faith or ignorance, but... your partner would rather see you happier, right? So sure, there may be instances in his life he would just. Forget about them. But remembering them... it comes back hurting.

And the way death is handled in fantasy land, I feel they can always just be out there! In spirit. Compared to real life, if you only look at the scientifics and biological logistics, the existence of a "soul" is a difficult topic. Here in a fantasy... they all feel alive elsewhere. On different planes, sure, but still existing, and Noe is accepting of that fact. Of course, being alive is much preferrable. To feel and to talk to them, take it over anything. But when you live for so long... so long... it's not a suicidal thought, but something of "I can pass on without regrets".

And the main message of my AU playlist: "I wouldn't mind dying if we live in each other's memories"

translation by shion

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By the time my love for you will end

Spring will slowly find its colors back

And before I could even realize it

My eyes are captivated by an invisible blink of light

Even if I'll forget everything about you

All of it will be resurrected by the cold winter

And I won't probably even notice

All the radiant memories snatching my heart away

I could smell a nostalgic scent

Even though that scenery isn't the same as now

You were laughing and crying

And I'm sure you were living that moment

The light of Spring drives me insane

The heat of Summer drives me insane

The scent of Autumn drives me insane

But the loneliness of Winter, I can meet you

A new season returns

And its scenery breaks my heart

But

You were smiling for me

And I know for sure, that moment I was alive

I could smell a nostalgic scent

Even though that scenery isn't the same as now

You were laughing and crying

And I'm sure you were living that moment