I miss you nappy!! (Its me, bittenpeach/verykitty)
I would love to know your new username should you happen to see this one day, I know we talked on FA some time ago as well. Love you friend ♡
Kunmao
i dont know if you got my reply... since it seems you blocked me.. but ill just put some of the important parts
i guess the important parts to me are sorry if i sounded aggressive before, i really didnt mean to, you dont deserve it, i could tell even when we were only aquainted and only occasionally said hi to each other that youre a nice person. you dont deserve someone yelling at you
i am a POC, a lot of people i know are POC, my fiance is hispanic, i dated a black man in the past who was a great friend, and i have a few trans friends who know about the callout, have read it, and dismissed it as me having a cringey edgy bad comedy day. (which is what i always wanted. i know im a loser.)
another important thing is just. your art is good and you were always so sweet and chill to talk to back in the day, youre the brown star dog who also drew mouths sometimes too yeah? keep it up and try to stay healthy, i dont know what about my callout irked you so bad but i promise whatever it was, i really didnt mean harm and no one was supposed to see it. and i know i keep saying "no one was supposed to see it", but its true. i wouldnt ever say those things to people who have suffered from transphobia or racism. not out of fear of retaliation or whatever, but i just..dont fucking want to open anyones wounds. i dont want that. i really dont. i get so pissed off when i realize something stupid or abrasive i said actually hurt someone. i dont expect anybody to take me seriously or care about what i have to say. and honestly, i still dont want anyone to take me seriously. i dont claim to be a great person or a role model or claim to know jack shit, i dont.
the context for those things you pointed out is:
i know im an idiot and no one should take anything i said seriously because i was so mentally ill and troubled back then. its not an excuse, but you shouldnt listen to the crazy patient that has dementia. its not good for you
i know i was an edgelord back then and sure, my messages were leaked, but i am just not a racist or a transphobe. people can be whatever they want to be, and be whatever they feel they identify with. its really no big deal, and honestly none of my business.
id feel genuinely bad if i truly knew random people saw my old cropped up messages and got genuinely upset. i would feel terrible. i have had people be really fucked-up-racist towards me and it hurts.
and also, back then i didnt really understand some basic things about trans people. for one, i was like, "why come out? why come out to your family if they are obviously christian and very anti-gay? why not move to greener pastures where you can be fairly certain you will be accepted and not be put at risk?" i used to think that was so, so, so,... stupid. but, a friend told me they do that so they can feel accepted, and not like theyre hiding something major or hiding their relationship with someone or some other such thing. seems like a dumb thing to not know; that people wanna be accepted. but, i didnt know. i didnt, and dont feel the need to be accepted by anybody when it comes to basic things about me. for one, im bi. im a girl whos dated girls. no one needs to know that. no one needs to know who i date. i dont answer to anybody. ive never been accepted as a person IRL, ive always been a black sheep, and my family never really liked me much either. never had much friends or kept any very long, either. and i dont mind that.
BUT. that being said, i do know that other people -do- answer to other people; and really wish to be accepted in their societies, whether it be their family or a community. furthermore, people dont want to have to be abandoned or excluded from those societies, obviously. seems obvious, but it wasnt to me at the time. so, i get that part now at least. just a lot of things have happened. i was very different back then. much angier and much more in pain.
another important thing; thank you for admitting that meatcord was terrible. you dont understand the importance of this but seeing that was extremely healing for me. i know you didnt intend that to happen,. but, yeah... for what its worth, thanks anyway
lol oh yeah and meatcord also said in the description of the callout "i didnt know it was wrong, the internet groomed me"
most laughable part of that entire thing. my friends and i still get a kick out of that to this day.
tell me, was your dog also telling you it was okay to assault it when you pinned it down, molested it, and took sick pictures of it? oh, did you "not know it was wrong" because your dog told you so? lol
yeah, sure, and that person who you and every other worthless fuck were trying to mob, dox, and harass me and my friends with? yeah, that person was a zoophiliac, and is likely a pedo as well.
evidence:
they were also being "abused" by this person for.. years? if you can call it abuse when this person was perfectly fine at the time with doing the fucked up stuff fletcher wanted. they were always old enough to know that all this shit was wrong, i dont know why anyone would post this literal confession to bestiality and willingly roleplaying out these fucked up things.
with this logic, you support a REAL zoophiliac. not much better LMAO
i really dont know how most people didnt realize this person cropped up a bunch of out-of-context shit and labeled it as something fueled by malicious intent when really, there was none. they were taking this shit out ON ME while being in a relationship with this "fletcher" person. i NEVER approved of it.
most of the things we talked about were literally COMPLETE jokes, all the racism were all dark JOKES that were never meant to be shared, and this person knew that. they literally succeeded in manipulating everyone who looked at their stupid and badly-written post.
and the transphobia BS? i didnt understand transgenderism, and didnt care for it. i still dont care for it. people can do whatever they fucking want, i really dont fucking care. that was always my beliefs on that. people can do whatever they want when it comes to their own identities and life, i DONT CARE WHAT YOU DO. if you think youre a boy or a girl or just an object, go for it. if you want me to call you a she, a he, or an it? cool.
i -still- dont see how that is "transphobic".
no one questions anything anymore, they literally just believe what they wanna hear; the latest drama. thats all i was at the time. not a person, just the new cancel culture candidate of the week.
so, no one gets to see my art anymore. thats my final wish out of this username, and i will have it. goodbye.
ok, so the person who called you out is also a shitty person, is that supposed to change all the violently racist and transphobic shit you said and won't apologize for? I'm not sure how throwing slurs around can be "taken out of context" and what context could possibly make "I've come to terms with the fact that I'm a bit racist towards black people" and "I will never ever like trans people ever" okay???? you're absolutely delusional if you think any of that is excusable purely because the person who made the callout ALSO sucks
actually i just realized that toyhouse doesnt have messages.... i think?
just message me on fA i still dont know how toyhouse works
hey idk i rebranded/went under a new name
i had a highly unhinged stalker for a while so i just kinda disappeared under a new name and deleted my dA so that this person couldnt have the pleasure of even seeing most of my art anymore
they went under meatcord and musteiid and a few other usernames i dont remember fully anymore
if anyones looked for me for art related purposes i also have an archive of alllllll my art i had on dA so if you need that again if you bought an adoptable from me there, then message me and i might try to get to it (theres so much to go through)
ill note those of you who want to know my new name
but ill be picky with who i let in on it
no empty accounts with little info on them
and ill probably only allow people who i know arent gross
such as those of you who comm'd me before
or people i talked to a bunch when i was present under this name
dont take it personally if i dont give it to you
just trying to avoid a fucked up stalker thats all
love you
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