01 | Sonas
SONAS : This folder contains all of NoireNambu's various sonas.
Each of my sonas are a representation of myself, in one form or another. For the sake of perspicuity, I have organized them into primary, secondary, tertiary, and quaternary subcategories. My sonas become increasingly more-abstract from my person the further down they are placed in the overall hierarchy.
Although I was initially tentative about the creation of multiple sonas, after going to therapy though, I've changed my mind: As it turns out, it has been incredibly therapeutic to dissect various elements of my person apart, and label them with their own names & distinctive designs.
Some of these sonas are entirely for fun [namely those found in folders 03 & 04], while others are also deeply personal. But regardless of where they fall, each one is precious to me.
PLEASE NOTE : All characters found within this folder will absolutely NEVER be up for sale or trade, unless I have moved them into a trade/sell folder. They are forever homed. So please, don't ask.
PRIMARIES : My primary sonas, Noire & Nambu! Both are intended to be literal representations of myself.
Noire is a literal avatar for the artist behind the screen; He's intended serve as an actual depiction, whenever I insert myself into an illustrated work. For that reason, he isn't used all that frequently.
Nambu is my main boy! He is very personal and dear to me. He is what the kids these days are calling a "true sona" - He is meant to be an anthropomorphized version of myself as I actually I am, hipster hair-do, chonky bara bod, perpetual eyebags, and all!
SECONDARIES : My secondary sonas are meant to represent a facet, rather than the whole. They are also all inspired by pre-existing characters from various IPs;
Most of my secondaries are here to help me work through early-life trauma and mental disorders, such as: dysthymia (persistent depressive disorder), c-PTSD, extreme anxiety, athazagoraphobia (fear of being forgotten); rejection sensitivity & neglect/abandonment issues, gender dysphoria, emotional blunting, & dissociation. They are also a means of introspection, and in some ways that makes them more-pointed elements of self than Noire & Nambu. That also means that I feel very intensely about them, because they are such raw aspects of person - even if some of them are more inherently negative than others.
Anyone who is particularly close to me can probably take a stab at where the inspiration for these sonas come from. All of them are very deliberate riffs off of canon characters - however, they are not intended to be total lifts. More-accurately stated: While I do not vibe with the descriptor "kin", personally speaking, I do believe characters can affect you in a deeply personal and meaningful way. Sometimes you connect so deeply with a character because you see something inside of them that is also very intrinsically a part of yourself. These kinds of characters can leave a permanent imprint on your person.
When a character has left that kind of a mark on me, I know that there's something there to dissect. So I've named that element in honorifics of the character who planted that seed of introspection in the first place.
Sorted by order of importance. Order may be subject to change. Some of these guys are set to authorized.
TERTIARIES : My tertiary sonas are largely just for fun. They contain an element of self - and I am still very attached to them - but they are not as deeply personal as my Primaries or Secondaries.
Typically speaking, they are Comfort or Vent characters.
FANDOM SONAS : My fansonas are entirely for fun. They are intended to be avatars of myself, set into fandoms that I am passionate about.
One could very aptly describe these guys as "self-inserts."