Sadly, I will have to skip Artfight for the next couple of years.

I wasn't able to participate last year due to a bad case of brain worms, but both this and next year I simply won't have the time to dedicate to it do to work and school.

I have been drawing, and of course, making new characters, but I haven't posted them here because more than half of them have face claims. I do have some original faces that I never migrated to this site, but to be honest I don't pop in here all that often and I just haven't put the time into uploading them.

I will be popping in however to see how everyone else is fairing! This is a fun time of year and while I'm going to have some serious fomo about it, it is what it is.

Yoooo so I've set this goal for myself in 2021, a very flexible one, so I can't possibly fudge it up this time. I want to do art. Lots of it. But I don't want to commit to a certain number, y'know? Or it's not gonna happen.

So goal is, at the end of the year I gotta make a 2021 retrospective. That's...pretty damn common in the art world, but I've never done it because there's always a month or two where I don't do anything. But this year, I want to make sure I at least get ONE thing done each month minimum so I can put one together. This can be in commissions, personal projects, whatever.

Speaking of, I'm indefinitely open for commissions! You're probably already tired of seeing my thread in the Art Marketplace well...yeah. That's not going to stop happening. I use whatever I make in art purchasing art again, so it all goes back into the market anyhow. Currently I'm saving up for a big illustration but I still have a ways to go before reaching it, but I'm determined! And I also opened an art trade thread (see below) for those of you who are tight on funds but wouldn't mind some art for art. It all contributes to my goal of drawing every month!

https://toyhou.se/~forums/13975.art-trades/190323.lf-art-trades-humans-furry-anthro

You don't have to say a word. Just block me. I don't care if it's because you're Republican, don't support Biden, or worse yet, think Trump did nothing wrong. You could have voted for literally anyone else. You could have made a statement if you don't support him, and if you do, I believe we're done.

Don't worry about what I think of you. It kind of doesn't matter anymore.

Artfight 2020! I'm in Team Sugar this time so hit me up if you're in Spice!

I'm going to try to go for speed/quantity, as I want to practice drawing within a time limit since I might be strapped for time. I am not expecting masterpieces in turn! I like to use Artfight to practice different styles or take on different challenges without worrying about putting someone's commission on the line.

I may also engage in friendly fire again because hell, why not? You're not obligated to attack back! (Well, nobody is, haha)

See ya there!

Heeeey, guess who's in Team Dream?

I won't be attacking as hard as I did last year, just in between commissions to keep myself busy! But you know what I lack? NIGHTMARE TARGETS. If you're Team Nightmare, I will find you and I will draw your babies. But ah...if you could respond to this bulletin when Artfight's servers are constantly grinding to a halt that would be fantastic. xD

In any case, I will try to retaliate against any attack that is made against me first! I wanna keep my record clean. :V

FINALLY, am I right!? XD

I'm pretty giddy, finally getting something out after years of dancing around it. I'm hoping, really hoping, that I will keep it up, so I decided to make a deal to honor the first chapter of my story!

If you read and give me feedback on this chapter, I will happily return the favor! Just let me know what you think so far, whether you like it, hate it, feel it could use some improvement or clarity--and I will in exchange provide feedback on a work of your choosing!

I know right? Resorting to bribery? But this pup means a lot to me. ;-;

So...I did some minor edits to my main profile because I was really not digging that image I had up before. Also my new character avatars were coming out so cute I wanted to replace the old ones.

I'm working on some literature for Vast currently, my first chapter focusing on Braith Ba'kil and Errol. It's been interesting! So far I've been too tired after coming home from overtime to write for the past couple of days. ;u;

I'm considering updating their profiles so they look all nice and uniform but you know how that goes.

Finally I'm about to hit the big 30 and I am undergoing somewhat of a crisis. The whole question of should I even be here, and if I stay should I even interact with anybody...it's all been troubling me hard these past few weeks. I dunno. You guys think I should just...keep to myself entirely? Is it weird if I participate in the occasional forum game? Would YOU feel uncomfortable knowing there's a full-fledged adult in the forum with you even though they have no remote interest whatsoever in getting lewd or even vaguely personal?

I know TH has an adult community, but it's so...strange being one of the adults. It's funny because I've been over 21 for 9 years now and it's only now that it's starting to bother me. It bothers me because I think a younger me would have been bothered by the idea of treating a 30 year old as a peer. There's something that feels off about it. Suspicious. Wrong. And I don't know if that's a product of the society I was raised in or if there is some legitimacy to those feelings.

Eh, this is what I get for posting a journal at the rambling hours of the night. Anyways, I'm open to thoughts. If you managed to get through all of this, I'm so sorry. xD

So ah...I'm throwing my towel in for Inktober this year. Realistically speaking I have very little time to work with on a consistent every day basis. That mixed with both my constant battle with existential dread and realizing that maybe dedicating a month to a bunch of long-since retired OCs is kind of an egregious waste of such precious time. If I work on any OCs it should be the ones I've barely developed and currently use.

I'm sorry if you were using me as a guide or model though I'm pretty sure nobody does because I myself am a nobody. But on the off chance I was, I apologise for letting you down. I'll still keep drawing it's just once every day is pretty freaking tough when you're 29, working full time, tied down to half a dozen different responsibilities, and haunted by this constant feeling of inadequacy.

What I'm also saying is there shouldn't be any shame in quitting. Hell, I pulled it off last year so I have nothing to prove. Just a heads up though if you were actually following my little nostalgia trip into the past.