restarting over everything since I can't feel safe from them or the admins aren't really help

I don't feel like staying on this site anymore, I probably won't join back for a long time too.

If anyone wants to tradea ny of my ocs, just let me know so I can get rid of the ones that are left on here.

Okay, leaving this account up for chara trades /art trades and finishing up claims

and any last pms that may come here/comments

But I've offically moved accounts! If you want it please pm me do not comment, bc a s I said they may still be stalking and I don't want you to get harrassed so just fair warning and one more time I'll make a post about my new account;w;; If you want me to sub and autho my new acc, just pm me for it <3

offically moved accounts but all my charas are private on my new one so it wont be easy to find me that way

if you wanna be authorized on my new acc, lemme know

and if you want my new account I'll pm you!! because, I'm not posting it pubically here since they seem to like to stalk comments and things so I advise you don't comment either just pm me!<3 Thank you everyone helping me through this, Ilysmmm <33

And another thing,  Anyone who may get pmed by cream, tokariya, and nebi /satanslair and sir prince? I don't know if they are in on this too but 

I didn't think it'd have to come to this but I'm putting a stop to it now before it persists any further because I'm not going to let my internet name be ruined by highschool kids who are upset over shit that isn't even a big deal. I'm already over it, so why can't you guys? Why are you guys still acting possessive over me?

tHIS IS NOT A POST TO GO HARASSING THEM TO DEFEND ME OR ANYTHING, not a post to go bugging them. THIS IS JUST A WARNING OF THEIR ACTIONS

DO NOT GIVE INTO THEM AND LISTEN, JUST IGNORE THEM  

because they aren't the boss of anyone.

If you guys keep this up I'll make a post in the public toyhouse forums, so I hope you guys see this because I'm not fucking joking you forget how old I am and who your senior is as well as people are to do what the fuck you want and you guys too, but not this, this is just immature as I never even did this either.

I never told that mod that you guys couldn't be friends, I was just wanting to know if they still liked me or not that's not turning anyone against anyone that's not doing anything bad or not moving on because news flash, I thought we were friends before the discord group but I guess not with them. And, fyi to all of you too you better not harrash my friends or followers or anyone else in that group to turn against me because you just look fucking childish when I'm not even in the group anymore, nor am I bothering any of you.

some of those people in that group I am actually friends with outside of it with those people in there before I even knew you four and just so you know what I said and did in there isn't even that bad either. I was venting to you guys my feelings, confiding in you because I thought I could trust you guys, not be used like this for telling you shit  sure I may have not done it right either. I admit it as I CAN BE A BIG MAN and admit when I am wrong too, of course but 

I'm not the one who insulted people, I never acted possessive or clingy or any of the shit they claim. I may have came across as that and for that I'm sorry but it was never my intention but

Just because you don't like someone  and aren't apologizing you guys and left you doesn't mean you need to cause fucking drama.

Nobody has to stay friends with somebody, get that straight. if I don't feel comfortable I can leave if I want, nobody can force me to stay and do anything.

You said you don't want drama but look who are the ones causing it now?

PLEASE ASK MY SIDE FIRST

before you get harrased by them because I had a bunch of friends on here before I was in that group discord server, if you guys know I am not that kind of person.

I know how to follow rules I never once said that I wouldn't I was just explaing how you weren't being fair on how credit was given from past situtations so don't assume shit either or you're never going to have a big discord group like you guys keep wanting, you want to know why not very many people talk in your group? Maybe, it's because you guys just boss people around instead of listening to them first. Sighs. People don't do shit on purpose. You don't need to be an asshole about it. If either of you bothered to listen and look back in the chats, it wasn't even me who brought up the other situtation first it was the other person but because all of you are too high on your fucking high horse and just assume shit, instead of listening to me when I was trying to talk the whole night then you're never going to get anywhere in life.

You call me immature but all of you look at your actions right now and your past actions from that night, you say I'm the only one who needs to apologize but I'm not the only one, you need to as well. All of you, I'm not going to grovel for you guys because you have some higher power obsession when I know it wasn't all my fault, and I wasn't even the one who first brought it up I wouldn't have mentioned them- if you never did and I never claimed any of the crap you claim.

 Nor, have  I bugged any of you; none of you really knew me very well because once I'm done with someone I leave them the fuck alone. I may warn people about you guys, but I would never turn anyone against anyone. I'm not that person.

I pmed one person because I thought they were my friend outside of the group, confidently my side of the story not to turn people against me but I was wrong though  they weren't and that doesn't mean take into account what you want about the situation. You guys never needed to block me, Because I would've left you all gladly the fuck alone.

I'm done, I'm not the one that goes out causing drama and shit. Aight?  I stay the fuck away from it.

So, I hope you guys learn from this too

and do the same thing

because if this persists

I'll get mods or somebody bigger who can help out, since I'm not gonna have "Baseless" assumations as one put it about me when nobody even heard me out first. People aren't going to like you if all you have are two excuses about someone, when you're trying to turn someone against someone people will eventually realize who the real loser is. So, if you don't learn from me then you'll learn eventually another way. I won't talk to you guys ever again as I said until you pm me and realize what you did too, but otherwise as I said I'm fucking done.

You shouldn't be harrasing people who were also my friends, because I haven't done that yet and I can have pms to prove it too

I haven't done that at all, I'm not that low, I'm not that petty

as they all try to assume

If they try to harras you about me, please let me know and I'll get someone to stop them.

Because, this should not persist I do not want a bad name over something that  is fucking ridiculously stupid, nor anyone being harrased that weren't even involved and I know they're doing this just to get me to beg and apologize on my knees for their forgiveness but I am not, I won't. because, what makes you think this would make me want to apologize to someone?

Jesus fucking christ, I'm just sickened by this and didn't know they were this low.

And that I have to be the bigger person now and actually do a psa about this because fucking ridiculous now that I have double proof.

This is just low and immature and called internet harrasment, they should google it because this is opening a big can of worms if they want to continue to act like a big boss.

I don't care if you want to talk about it among  yourself, but don't bring people who weren't even involved into it just because they're your friends maybe as well? I don't know but  they don't need to know shit. It's not their problem, you don't need to make your assumed problem anyone elses and talk about something that's just coming from your side. You don't even really know because you never really bothered to talk to me before just assuming shit

and another thing, you said you didn't like how I spammed you

I never spammed you guys, It's just how I send pms I send a lot at once rather then shortening them and If i talked more then I should've then sorry if it annoyed you but it's nothing to make claims about someone either, because I felt like I had to be the only one to keep the friendship going or you'd never talk with any of them

it felt like I had to spam them just to get them talk and that's not being possesive or anything, it's called trying to be nice by talking to people

so I doubt any of them will think that they're still in the wrong or listen to this either if they even see it, because they're probably still only caring about how they're right but if you do understand I don't mind becoming aquinatences at least so nobody needs to feel hostile, because I never did this to you guys and should really cut the immature crap out. Not turn people against anyone, since it's just lowest of low. They'll probably still see this as, "well why can't we but you can?" 

I said A WARNING, not turning people against someone 

and people are allowed to make pms about someone, as a warning but not just turning people right out against someone.

If you read the TH rules you guys can know that.

Why else do you think there are psas all the time on th that say the same thing? I can do that if I want, but I was never doing it as a witch hunt or to turn people against you. Like get a fucking grip on reality, here what you're doing to a person - I'm a person behind a fucking screen who shouldn't be treated this way over something that's nothing.

I don't have to apologize to either of you, I don't have to like your rules I never said I wasn't going to follow them but I never said I had to like them either? does that mean I have to apologize for that? Fucking no lol

And as I said to you guys, please let me know so  I can help you out if you need it. Otherwise, just don't talk to them because it doesn't need to be your problem either. 

This isn't a call out post either to go harrass them but a warning so none of you get harassed, sorry that doing any of this led to this I would've never talked to them from the beginning if I knew all of them were this shallow and low.

Don't harrash people for wanting to defend me you low ass fuckers, people can have their own opinions so go fuck off instead of stalking my bullitens and comments. Jfc. It doesn't feel so nice when you're on the other side of the shoe now does it? this is how I felt, you don't like it when people assume about you don't go assuming about me.

But don't harras people for having their own opinions or you look like the annoying one. Okay? okay.

Don't think for once second that I may have seemed to be  easily walked over with no savageness in the group chat that I can't be, because that's not how I am. I will bite back if you fuck with me.Don't fuck with me or my friends or I'll be making you guys the ones to apologize first, rather you want to or not but it won't be me pming you first since I'm not going to sink that low since that's what you guys want but I don't want to fucking talk to people that act this low so,  grow up. 

I'm moving accounts!! But I am not posting my account pubically, because apparently

these people  stalked my account and I guess trying to turn people against me, they tried to say I was but all I was doing was talking to MY FRIENDS

I have friends too, bro before I ever knew you guys and the group.

Despite, I didn't even do anything that bad or tried to do that with anyone else to them and even going as far as harassing my friend who was my friend before the discord group. I can talk to who I want to talk, I can say what I want to say to people. You guys aren't the boss of me. Get your shit straight. This is exactly why I left.

It's not turning people against anyone, get off your fucking high horse.  

So, if you want my new account please PM me privately that you want it but don't give it out to anyone else.

Because this is just ridiculous.  Thank you for all the memories you guys gave me on this account;w; I really wanted to stay on this account but I have the feeling It's better for me to move while I can since I don't want to have to worry about that constantly and get a bad name for something that's not even worth getting a bad name over. Ily all <3

a fucking  lot for wasting my whole time tonight, 

I never met a bunch of people who only thought of themself

they kept going on about me how I did

but what about themselfs?  they called me immature but couldn't listen to me or do what I asked? lol

They said I was when all I did was state my opinions the whole night, that's not being immature that's not causing drama

peoples feelings aren't fucking immature

I was being mature until they weren't, you can't be mature always if its not going to be that way from the other party

it takes two sides of a coin, not one.

if any of them were my friends, if they were really my friends they would've listened to me. Not just ignore me and out me like they did.

And I don't know what happened to one person, but you aren't cool shit you know for cussing like you did saying shit constantly and insulting me

like you did

I never once thought the world revolved me as they all reandomly decided to bring up, lol just for wanting to explain myself makes it that way?

I mean that's just fucked up

because that's not how it is

and the world doesn't reovolve only you either, I don't care if your life is shit

that was unessacary too, you sat there and said that to my face but then talked about yourself ? Lol 

like you aren't the only one going through a tough time in this fucking world, dude

so were other people in that group chat

If it's just  "Shit" for you maybe you shouldnt be a mod

they kept going on howthey couldnt speak to me, but IW AS LISTENING THE WHOLE TIME TO THEM. I was explaing to them all the time, but they just saw how I only saw it right but no it wasn't about me being right. I'm just explaing how I fucking feel.

People have fucking rights too, I have every right to get upset about them bringing it up. I can GET FUckin angry if I want to? but doesn't make someone pety for it, jesus fucking christ the pety ones are you for bringing THAT up.

If you really were tying to get through to me too, you would've understood my feelings better

you couldn't get through to me, I couldn't get through to any of them either

they just, none of them fucking liked me simple as that or they all would've tried to understand me. I left so fast, because I already saw they weren't going to just as they continued to the rest of the time, it wouldn't have ended either way well with them listening to me rather it was resolved nicely or not  because

unless you're going to care about another persons feelings, and not just be a third wheeler, it won't get resolved.

I even said sorry I realized I was too but did either of them? No. Harsh? WAy too fucking harsh all of them. I just never been in a worse situation like that before, for  only voicing why they feel a certain way or trying to explain how a person is acting rudely. I mean I had one previously a long time ago when I was younger, you tell me I'm getting upset

for getting upset at you first?Aren't you just reacting to how you think I am too? Rather then really listening to me? 

I only react to how people treat me, how I feel I am being treated.

I don't mean it to but if I feel like you're attacking me, if you're being unfair I won't get fucking walked on.

 

this makes that loook like it was nothing with what I went through when I was younger when people ganged up on me. I'm just astonished, the people who I thought would not be this way are.

I'm sorry to the medorator of all of it, I just didn't want to hear any more of it. It's not running away, I'm not putting up with something that's obviously nobody cares how I feel about.

I'm just  not  be in anymore groups anymore for a long while, unless I know the admins are going to listen to people/not ignore them 

Worst adminds ever except for one, which I hope you know who you are but yeah

dont know about the other two, as I never saw them moding much

but just damn

that is just fucking awful, I think they have fucking right issuses because do you think I was going to let you guys just walk all over me? No, it's not being immature just because you aren't getting what you want.

I'm not letting anyone walk all over me. I only react to how people treat me, that's how I work.

And I don't do anything malicious or anything else, if I feel threatened though I won't let you hurt me and that's how I felt but neither of them cared about it, only saying its just me revolving around me but no obviously it wasn't since everything Iwas worried about the past month was shown tonight lol

I don't want to call anyone out or say names, this is just a venting post 

but if you want to know what group it is you can pm me directly but I won't be saying pubically, because I'm not immature like that and don't want harrasment towards them, nor towards me. 

I just still could not believe this though the people I thought wouldn't be this way, were the ones that way sighs.

And lastly, it's a group chat

not a damn school

not a fucking prison

you're an admin, not a manager, not a fucking boss

you're like one for being an admin but even schools give warnings first before kicking people out as one so put it, and it's not a prison people have rights

people forget shit, you don't need to act like you're the fucking boss of everyone even if you're an admin and not listen to what others have to say, jfc or the same shit is going to keep repeating and then no one is going to be in your group.

you sat there and said again how there was no hostility, oh hell no there was 

do you think I would've kept talking to you if there wasn't?

And wow, the fact they had to come comment on my bulliten and make me block them shows even more immature how they are

they said "Hostile comments aren't suggestions" It wasn't being hostile, it was only you who saw it that way and if toka saw it that way too she should've said something but I know if they really actually cared about me would know that's not what I meant

explain to me, how I'm being hostile and they aren't? Lol

all I am doing just like they is talking, not fucking being hostile

yes I was pissed off but I was never being hostile, I was just talking much like they were who also came hostile rather they like to think that of them or not which they always feel hostile when they boss people with the rules. That if you don't do them, they hate you

pretty much what it feels like

I wasn't hostile, but you certinatly fucking were when I was giving my suggestion and explaining it's not being hostile. It's called voicing your opinion, you obviously don't know what words mean either because you keep using them wrong. Sighs.

I was mature, I'm always mature. Do you even care who your senior is? Jfc, I'm getting harrased by highschool students.

This is why I don't talk to younger people much anymore. Most do not care about what THEY say towards others.

Idon't have to listen to this, I hope this doesn't persist or I'll get the toyhouse mods under this and then we'll see who is really mature or not if it has to come to that. Again, they didn't ever listen to my side of the story I don't know if they thought of me like that the whole time or what biled that up but again, I never said that they didn't. I said I felt like they did- there's a difference and I don't know why people like to try to use what they feel about themselfs against you, because that's the best they can do is just sound like a broken record, they called me repeitive well they are right now unable to come up with any other insults and it's really funny.

I have a highschool friend I've known for a long time way more mature then this. Sighs.

I can't believe how much sides they all take, so don't join this group if you plan on saying your opinion there because they'll all gain up on you and just choose their side apparently.

Calling you immature just for expressing yourself.

So, don't join the art discord group unless you want to have unfair mods and admins.

Update: 

Also, who would want to be friends with someone who did nothing but insult you when you didn't even do anything bad? 

Like fucking seriously? I never said I didn't want to be friends with anyone until they started insulting me which was when I was realizing okay, this is how they really are 

just because they suddenly got close ? or whatever? Idk they think they can gang up ? like aight, jsut fuck off.

Unless you see how you guys did nothing but just attack me, I'll never want to be friends with you guys again and toka...I wanted to be friends with you still but you didn't really help near the end, because you blamed me and then didn't even try to comfort that you were telling them the same thing, like how could you tell me "it doesn't help when you aren't mature either"

What about them? I have been, I didn't start insulting anyone until Nebi decided to be abitch because of her life sit or whatever idk but just bc ur going through a hard time is no excuse to act like abig bitch.

Because, I'm going through a hard time too but  I never did any of this to them.

And how can you call someone repitetive as well to someone you "Barely" talked to? Lol

Like aight, I hadn't even talked to your ass in a long time and you think you can say that is really funny. I mean all of this was just ridiculous and blown up at me for no reason,  I know I could've just said okay but I never did say I wouldn't do it 

though the fact you guys kept assuming on your own accord was what led me to be pissed off and how you just didn't bother to care for another persons feelings, you're going to be an admin you still care about peoples fuckings feelings

It's not being a brat as nebi like to try to call me, voicing my feelings and just expressing myself is not being a brat. If you can call someone a brat for that then you are a brat for voicing your problems all the time in the chat too? No ? 

Lol, it's just all really rich they just put their problems onto me who never did shit but try to talk to them, and it wasn't because you guys never wanted to talk to me for these reasons as cream tried to say "This is why nobody ever talked to you" like no, that's not fucking why lol you guys were just fucking picky, you guys only talk to each other because you have a lot in common but if you tried to talk to others instead of juts being stuck up about not pming people, because you'll never have any friends that way if you don't then you'd learn other people can do the same thing lol and if it was, then you shouldn't have been my friend in the first place, since I don't stand being friends with people who do nothing but judge but if it isn't don't try to use someones not even related weakness in this sit because that just makes YOU look low. Not me.

can anyone lend me 10$ I can pay them back for so I can buy me a new tablet pen? It only costs that much from amazon

and no one seems to really be intersted in commissioning me so if anyone can pay me and I pay you back when I get paid here really soon

would be really helpful;w;; or give you lots of free digital art when I get it back /endless art xD

paypal: [email protected] if you just want to donate too;w; it'd help out a lot since my previous one is lost and I won't get paid for another week //sobs

havent been able to sleep at all or even eat, I barely ate today besides like two things

I am still upset over the loss of my cat and I am worried my other kitty is going to go too, I'm hoping he stays alive long though so when I find him nother owner they can nurse him back to health

I really hate being broke

I hate living in this house and I just I want out soon;;;  what sucks is I had a bad feeling from this morning, I should've acted on it and really need to listen to my insticts more

I want to call in for work tomorrow so I can watch my kitty but I just starrted this job and I really can't afford to loose it since it's the first job I've had in a long time that I waited for and just ugh I'm stressed and I'm not getting any sleep tonight sobs

am I watching dmmd bad ends cries

I have been itching to look at dmmd again for a while now for various reasons now that Im over a lot from before that ruined it for me a bit, I really miss it

and fuck

Aoba and Clear's bad ending just- fucking trip me out

I think Aoba would've lived a long time for him to not do that, because he was different from others after all I mean I don't think that was nessascary but that was probably how toue programmed him to be a ..well..yandere p much and just wow x'D

I like my fluffy clear, not evil clear ;n;

I finally made a ref thingy today;w;; <3

If you want couples, I am okay with that too and will be same price.

I'm fine with drawing Anthro, Human, Feral, and pretty much all- the only ones I can't draw are horses/ponies and cows. I can draw gore too and nsfw, nsfw may cost a little more maybe like 3$-4$ depending on detail you want.

I'm pretty much down with anything. 

PM me! Or note me on da for payment

[email protected]

^ paypal

I will take points too! Fullbody 50 points, headshot 20, half body 30 points