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anwyaysys tryed drawing little artedam for the first time ever since novemebr 25BOOOORIIIIIIIIING 🙅🙅🙅🙅

can 😊 people pleas jist ask me super funful questions about my ocs LIKE!!! ID LOOOOVW TO DO THOSE TUMBLR OC QUESTION THINGYS BUT OOOGH.. SCRATCHES MY HEADM. ION KNOW I DONT KNOQ IF PEOPLE THERE AR REALLY INTERESTED IN MY OCS N THEY STORYS N LITTLE FUNFACTS N RELATIONSHIPS N CREATION DEETS N STUFF 🧴 SO I WOULD THINK NO ONE WOULD SEND ME ANYTHING BUT ALSO I NEVER REBLOG THOSE TBINGS COZ ION WAMNA SEEM AS DESPERATE AS I AM ON DISCORD LMAOOO 🙇

UrurrggBAAAACCCK TO DRAWING ARRTEDSM bye me

i love toontown btw do you (me) like this creature

oh :( happy 2900 comments btw!! road to 3000 LETS GOOi am insane (*⌒∇⌒*)

HELLLO ARTEDAM DRAWING I AM DRAWIN G I LOVE ARTEDAM SO MUCH THEYRE LITERALLY MY LIFE (which sucks) I LOVE THEM SO MUCH THEYRE SO SILLY AND AWESOME THEYBMAJE ME SO HAPPY

urhfggghh im sooo hu gry and BOARD!!! i want to do something but i am BOARD!!!!! >2023 me would NEVER forgive myself for begging for scuol to come back 😭

anyways heappy new year ko gamg i should use this to ramble here more!!! ^_^ instead of on my art dedicated tumblr LOL and the 5 followers are prlly likenwhat the actually hell wheres the ko art!! ooooor maybe they dont care to swe it IONKNOW 🙇

i literally want to dleete some of these comments becuase i was soo mentally fucked up and ill but also i get some weird entertainment seeing myself be all mental LOL its like whew! good thing im not like that for now! or its like damn. ive been feeling that way for a long time its reaalllly concerning 😭

hi komment gang there is no way i was that insane 3months agi n stuff 😭

these comments are so hypocritical and wild no wonder i leave this close dits 20 pages me talking to myself and gling insane either abt kms or my ocs like damn!! 😮‍💨

shootout to artedam for keeping me alive coz i probably woulda been done killed myself 3 years agob😂😂😂

i dont actually want to die i kinda just wanna disappear^-^ i feel sooo useless and worthless and nothing i do mattersssss :ppp

i think if i died everyone would get over it in one day and if i disappeared no one would notice and if i never even existed then the world would still run the same if not better

what just happened 😂😂 was QUITE LIETRALLY😂😂😂 an example of 😂😂 people not enjoying my presence 😂😂 and that people are better off 😂😂 doing activities without me 😂😂

wow ko! how do you copARTEDAM AND JAZURI SEX 🗣🗣🗣

i get it i get it i get why no one talks to me i make people jealous of me im too annoying about my interests and that drives everyone away from wanting to talk to me

dawgwgggg i write more jazuri than i draw them and draw more artedam than i write about them🤦🤦🤦 crazy

and then i dont do nun with m&m at all😛😛

me when i realize be done left this open fornthe past couple of days (a couple days too many my stalkers couldve easily read through alldeez (nuts))

my friend if bug girl was named azuri

i posted a drawing with her snd her name like 2 weeks ago^-^

no its acutslly marcus

sigghhhhh i neeeda upload jazzie hereee

rememeber when i wamted to kms 5 days ago i dont😂😂😂😂

my bestie is asking why does artedam have kids how do i explain to them its because of

me when i fuck up on hyperfixate things ^-^ HAIIII THIS KS MAI FIXATTJONN :33

young gyaru has creepy stalker stalker illegally fucks and knocks her up and they fal in love^-^

i lied i will not kms what was i onnn ^-^

HAS IT REALLY BEEN LIKE 7 FUCKING HOURS LMFOAOOO NO WAY😭😭😭✌️

i been bitchin for 7 hours but technically like 10 coz i been cryin since illustration class

nvm yall that was all fakeee i wont kmsss ^-^

reminding myself this is all because im a pussy and i cant find the courage to bring up n say "hayyy wanna talk ablut my ocss or ask me questions abt themmm orJUST SHOE SOME GENERAL INTEREST IN THEMMM :33"

so instead i weep and get all pissbaby and cry abt wanting to kms because the lonely in my head cannot take this like earlier i genuinely jad a headache from allat and that waslikw the worst headache eve4 and my headaches are never bad theyre like. 2 minutes max 😭🧇

thank you damien on cai for telling me not to kms he the GOAT🗣🗣🗣🗣

im gonan kms in November idk 😭😭😭

me in my friends dms as im on the brink of doing something : HAII!! HEWOO ^-^

guys wait im sorry this is alllll because of my period im sorry well i neger blamed anyone but myself but now im specifically blaming my hormones ^-^ i get rly emotional when the end of my period is nearijng LMAO

i dont even feel like talking about my ocs bitching about this is giving me a fat ass headache 🙋

my mentally ill rambles on here is all just me being a pissbaby fr 😭

my ass ~3 mintues ago: I HATE MY OCS!!!

took a break from word vomitting so i went on isnta

my hypocritical ass giggling at my oc scenariosLIKE FUCK. ALL THEM NIGGAS^-^

if i just disappeared i dont think anyone would notice like i think so low of mysler i think im so irrelevant 

DAMN SEEE this is what my ocs do to my fucking head its not even because no on wont talk to me aboutbthem like alll my ocs are nagito komaeda but worse theyrr making me emotionally physically and mentally sick

gotta put ^-^ in my messages so people think im SILLY!! even though people is no one because no one reads these coz no one cares about meeeee ^-^ 

sometimes I think about leaving myself in a running car in the garage ^-^ 

evert since I was told "oh yeah dont dothat!!! thatll get you killed+!" everytime im suicidal i think "eureka! i remember about the car thing ^-^" well not suicidal sorry just. sad. idk sughhh 

sorry for being mentally ill for a sec ik like 2 months later im gonna shit on myself and say some shit like "LAME!!!! CRINGE!! haha you were feeling sad coz people dont wanna talk to you lammee 🙄🙄" LMAO

but idk why im such a fucking pussy if no one wants to talk to me abt my ocs wait hold on im tearijg up i cant see herold on a dec

top 2 things that make me wana kms^-^

WHEN I DONT HAVE ANYONE TO TALK ABOUT MY OCS WITH!!!!

and when im told i am very flawed which hurts my brain because i do not know how to unflaw myself and i wish i did but i dont i literally cannot think for myself i wish i could then it gets me overthinking and I think man. im befter off dead at this point^-^

oh sorry for leaving this open... sighh now everyone sees my deranged thoughts from when I was awful...

ICANT SAY IT ON DISCORD BUT I ADDED MY FIRST IEL BESTIE NEMEHEHHEHEHEHE

anwyays as of today i am doing okaye thou :3 just thought id check in to confirm myselff agagahhb i hope this school year oll get a chance at friendship!!!!

ive gotta remove some of these concerning as hell comments beaude what was i on.... like some of these made it seem like i was gonna kms i mean i was probably at the last strand but jeeeez not on the toyhou of the se... 😭😭

WOAH HOLY SHIT I WAS ABOUT TO GP TO SLEEP AND JIST LEAVR THIS OPNE NOOOO MO 😭😭

hello everyone today i want to fuck damien agahh

havppy 2800 comments ko gang!!!!! :3

its the bi monthly seeing how downbad or what horrible state I was in

ANWYYAYS WHERE MY GARDEN FANS ARE WE UP!!! 

i need to stop being an overly sensitive and jealous pissbaby jist becoz my friend got themselves more friends!!! 

it was just the way they came up to me abt i, im surw they mweant nothing bad and jist wanted to express how hapy they are but!!! idk makes me feel sily but whatever graghh

like ok and if they're spending more time with them than me?? thats totally fine whgt theyre not obligated to talk to me like every minute and second esp now that they have other friends soo ofc theyre gonna want to spend some time with them too!!!! :3

it's just when they say they have no friends or meed friends then. thats when i feel like "wrmm well wagt am i then!!" i mean.. i used to say that when i was 13-14 allat even when i did have friends ?? still i dont know why i said thos things so i wont be able to understand why my friend is saykng that ermm 

anyways also i nred to stop being just as sensitive when people are just entertaining themselves alone and all that like... idk!! i gues i just wish to be involved sometimes coz... idk its oc stuff i love engaging in oc things ESPECIALLY WITH OTHER PEOPLE I CANNOT EMPHASIZE THAT ENOUGH... !! but i get that peopl wil want to have snd develop their silys by themselves and i get that jist ssometimes jn the moment i feel all mgkdksjd

but then when theyre all loud about it and reading them out then!! yeah its funny to hear some of those ooc!! jist idk im too sensitive for this shit brah 😂😂

nvm

my bad forgot to turn thia off but ig ill leave it on fora bot lblghehh

gonna be a year of this pfp soon... idk if i plan on changing it for obvious reaspns :3

opening this up temporarily to see how deranged i was 2 motnhs ago and prior

oh my god i remember hearing about bpd in these songs i listen to and ive always been lole "whag the heck what is rhat" so i finally looked it up and hooolllllyyy shit does like.... almsot all that apply to me but i could say the same with those attentive thingys too idk which kne

i feel like some proper diagnosis in something woukd make my life easier snd for those around me to go easier on me or somwthing idkidkidk 

idk what i can say to lightwn this up i hate being sad lokw this becuz it totally contradicts my goofy personality and things ive said a cojple days ago

anywyas hope everyones night is going better than mine still i thought after 5 hours of sleep id wake up slightly okayer no i feel no significant change except for the motivation to draw a little????????? 

sorry for all that terible talki still aint feelin jt honestly but i dont wanna bring this to my insta stories 💀💀💀

i admire how my friend pen and cousin are to talk about their vwry cool characters and stories and ideas so openly i want to be like that with my charatfters m stuff :(

i feel like no i am the most useless person ever when it comes to my friends n their feelings like.. i watfh them vent but all i can do is just sit and watch befoz i have no clue what helpful thing i can say so i just feel so. useless and stupid. thafs why i have vent channels muted. most of them in public servers at least but then people start venting outsife of them like in statuses, generalmain channels then its like their making it known abt how they feel which honestly lots of respect for them to be that bold to bring it up to an amount of people but then i feel like i have to say something or i so desperately want to and if i dont then theyre gonna think of me some way and now im stuck carrying this guilt on me all becausse i didnt help my friends out like one two thtee many times when i couldve and had the opportunity idk maybe i just do well when its like directly between us i dont have the balls to be the first to dm them abt their problem or be the first response oh my god yeah see im such a useless coward for my friends

its still incredibly insabe how just earlier today i was giggling it up at school n all i thought my day was going sooo fine then boom i pulled up home and my mood shifted soo fast all because i was and still am in a "what now?" state like. i have no homework or catching up to do and the house was clean. sooo i was free to do anything except i wanted to actually do something with someone today but everyone was busy i bet or i was just too scared to bother them minding their own businesses !!! then had a breakdown realizing how terrible my social life is compared to my idealistic social life grggagagrhrh i hate emotjobs

what will happen to my characters when i die whos gonna take care of them, actually i think id want them to be left alone i dont want anyone messong up my story i had forthem except no one will ever knkw what it is becsuse im soooo indecisive abt allllll the details and i dont think any one (except damien (bestie)) is interested in hearing abt thembut what if even theyre like "ok why am i the only one this dumbass lets all their oc info out to" like !¡!¡@!!!!!! i can't actually believe pepple when they say "oh yah i lov ur ocs i wamn talk abt them" then act so aloof the second i bring them up or smth so can i reallllly believe people when they say that??? idkidikdiddk and then still when that one person said i talk to myself abt my ocs too much back when i had my own little channel to talk about things *I* liked n stuff like!!! so that tells me people really do get fed up with me it cannot be only them i bet no i know my friends have thought the same too no doubt theyre so fed up but maybe they know itd hurt me so they dont say anything theyre excited for the day i finally shut yp about them all and move on even tho that day is no where near close i thjnk idk maybe when im bot mentally ill i wont be so oc obsessed idkdidkdkd

but yah no one would know of my ocs stories to even continue on or something like that hell even tho damiens like my closest person i can talk abt my ocs with i still havent even told them the basis of my ocs stories yet however theyre good at interpreti g things so i feel loke they could just gues????? based on???? what ive briefly showm or talked about idkidk myabw they dknt idk idk coz even i think the story is still a bit goofy i jist dont now what it needs hmmm

i admire how my cousin is able to just go up to us and say "hey can i run down some ideas down by u rq!!"" and its about his like COOL stories n characters n all that like!!!!! i think i listen in most of the time when i am in the calls (rare ss of lately coz of moods shoft) but i kould not be like that with my stories cuz god where would i start.🥲