me rambling to me andnmy delulubself is kind of depressing thinking about it LOLlike i deadass have noone else so i have to like. make up personalitys in my head, base them off of exisiting people and pretend its someone else/that person because im that lonely LOL if you tols me i was pullin this shit in 2016 i would be like uhh ๐คจ thats crazy... just play with your plushies AHHโผ๏ธโผ๏ธย
trying to not be depressed on the discord status so i be freaky so everyone things oh!!! shes doing alr if shes....like this.. i am not but es lo que es i be too depressed there ๐ gotta freak it up a bit.....ย
like when i inevitably kms im not putting ohhh im killing myself.. ๐ ill probably be invisible forever or have a ๐ฏ๐ป๐ฎ๐ช๐ด๐ stat...
oh. ive never felt so conflicted with my feelings about her like this >_< i think im kinda conflicted cuz i have certain characters ive associated her with and.. idk what to do ?!?@?! aghhh... like.. oh. thought bubble. :(
QHAT DID I SAY WHY IS MY IRL RESPONFING TO MY NOTES ON THE GRAM ONLY MY DAD DOES THAT VRO ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐
WAS THAT DAMIEN WITH FOUR FINGERS AGHH AGHHH AGHHH
or five if people count the thumn as a finger
...
AGHHHHH!!!!
UGHHH I LITERALLY DONT WANA UPLOAD CUZ ALL MY SHITS 100MB AND THE LIMIT HERE IS 8MB LIKE?!?!?! QHAT!!! UGHHH!!! ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ
anyways i forgot to say i had another artedam dream.. and the kids but i was sylvie i thinkIM SURE AGHHH GODS BLESSING ME WITH THESE ARTEDAM FAMILY DREAMS AND IM SYLVIE I JUST FORGOT WHAT HAPPEMED ๐ฅน๐ฅน
because what the hell am i gonna do like actually does anyone else not get suicidal tendencies from being bored.????. plus its lonely in this house of uhh idek how many peoples here cuz it feels like itd just MEoh 5?? 4..
ย yeah anyways its just me in this house because everyone else isSHUT THE FUCK UP I ACTUALLY HATE YOUanyways everyone else is better off talking to themself or going out woth their friend n shit
i think im just emotional becuse today was my last day of school ever.. (yay...) but that also means the last time ill ever see my irls who made me happy. wanted. appreciated. they made me feel like i wasnt bothering them when i bring up my ocs and interests compared to when i bring it up around my family and (online) friends they look at me as if ive gone insane or dont acknowledge it cuz they dont give a damn which theyre not entitled to obv. anyways they made me feel like someone they wanted to hang out withGOD MY IRLS?? HUG ME AND SAY I LOVE YOU TO ME OUT OF NO WHERE MY FAMILY DOESNT DO THAT; and i feel so bad for being awkward abt it cuz i never had irls who were like that to me + my family is only like that to me 0.01% of yhe time so i always freak when they hug me. anyways they were just. really nice people to be around... if i hadnt met any pf them i would be dead i think. but now that its gonna be summer. and im gonna be without them. for a good while esp cuz they were underclassmen and im a senior. i might go insane. they honestly kept me sane i think. NO LITERALLY CUZ SPRING BREAK- i was LOSING IT i said so many concerning things. i cough... got snitched on.. AND I STILL WAS AND THEN!! i came bac to school^-^ and saw my irls... and i regained composure. even winter break i could feel it. like. its sad how no one in my family brings me joy that my irls have?? thats a me problem though i think?? idk i just blame myself alot cuz 1 i know i have alot of problems LOL and 2 im always told by someone to do soagahhh... anyways its gonna be HELL in this house now that i cant seethem anymore and this house might have a corpse hangin round in the next few weeks. ^-^
i literally feel so irrelevant with the people i call my friends and family sometimes LOL like i literally feel like chopped liver and that i wouldnt matter to them because they have theirselves and friends who are much better honestly. like what good do i do i dont make them laugh as much as they do themselves or when theyre with other friends i dont think theyd rather hang with me or anything. at least a handful of my irls make me feel wanted i cant even categorize irls the same as my friends becuz like.. my friends are my online friends... and my irls are my besties who make me feel appreciated and wanted n like true family. and my family's just. idk. they disappoint (thats not the right whered but i cant think rn) me too much and i feel bad about it but at the same time i just dont feel any connection with them anymore aside from being blood related?? idk uggjgjhh i wish i lived either bymself where no one would care about what i did or with my irls all in a nice dorm so we can be awesome n stuf...
was dreading illustration for a bit but not anymore cuz im drawing my peepys for my final......
bazinga.
sometimes i forget abt my status on the cord alot so when smoene brings it up im likWHAT DID (I SAYT
WAIT REMEMWBR MY ESSAY I WAS CRYING ABT?? SAYING ID GET A 2 (70%), 3(80%) OR EVEN 0???ย
I ENDED UP GETTING A HUNID VRO ๐๐คคโผ๏ธโผ๏ธโผ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธ๐ฆ ๐ฆ ๐ฅฐ๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ค๐ค๐ค๐ ๐ โ๏ธโ๏ธ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ I FORGOT TO CRY ABOUT IT THE DAY I SAW BUT I LOWKEY BEEN FORGETTIN BOUT TOYHOUSE LATELY LOL BUT YEAH IM STILL SHOCKED CUZ?? YHE AI I HEAVILY REFERRLENCED AT THE END AND FORGOT TO TELL?? NO HOOK OR LASTING IMPRESSION??? NO CITATIONS IN THE LAST PARAGRAPH??? POOR ARGUEMENTS?? UHH YEAH IDFK HOW I GOT A 5/100% BUT WE UP IG IDK WHAT IF THEY MISGRADED ME?? LOLLL IDKK
niggas on discord lie so much ๐ญ๐ญ๐
oh wanna chat!!ย
sure
ok!
nigga where the conversation THISSS WHY I CANT TALK TO THIS PERSON AGH๐๐ฆ ๐ฆ
BRUH ANOTHER PERSON I HAVENT TALKED TO IN FOUR YEARS DMED ME???? IS IT CUZ OF MY YOTSUBA PFP??? CUZ WHEN ITS MY OCS NOOOO ONE GAF ๐
THIS NIGGA IN MY FRIENDS LIST HASNT TALKED TO ME IN 2 OR 3 UEARS THEN THEY LIKE LOL UR STATUS IS FUNNY ๐ญ๐ญ OTS FUNNY BUT HELP????
hmm i deserve to draw toxic artedam yuri instead of doing my final thats due this week TWO OF THEM AAHH
my ass when i bullshit my essay about my 3 favrit films ๐
I KNOWWW IM GETTING A 2 OR 3 ON THAY SHIT BUT IDCCC๐ ๐ GET ME OUT OF HERE AHHH
chat dont ask what made me thinking abt thisnbut i think jareth would really fucking hate harry potter or whatever they call it
oh yea also i was just scrolling fb like the gramama i am aaand i came across the labyrinth stuff (i still dont know how to spell thay LOL) aaaand everytime jareth was mentioned i easblike OMG MY OC JARETH!! ๐๐๐ wtf he doin in da labyrinth!! o.O
like as if i didnt name him after david bowies characterAGAHHH!!!!oh! i should play bitlife^-^
anyways been getting additcted to monopoly go im insane i dont even play mobile gsmes like that last time i stayed consistent w a mobile gsme was MONTHS ago for cookie run ovenbreak/kingdom LOL
but then i lost my login streaks, got pissed and never opened them again๐
i wish i had a younger damien to my little artemis PLEASEEE๐๐ im not dumb and oblivious but idk๐ฅน
chat do i have to go to sugardaddys.com find a guy and say hey ๐ฅน ion want money i just want someone to yap to PLELASEEWEE
ill show hand pics..... ๐ OR SOWMETHING ANYTHGIGNG I JUST WIEISH I HAD๐ฅน PIP AGAIN I MISS OIP SO BAD I REALLY TOOK HER FOR GRANTED AND I REGRET IT SO MCUHย
LEIEKKK THE CLOSEST THINGS I HAVE IS YM BESTIE IN MY CULINSRYBCLASSS AND THEY ASK SBOUT MY OCS AND SAY SILLY THINGS BUT THATS ONLY WHEN WE SEE EACH OTHER IN PERSON ITS NEVER THRU TEXT AND IM GRADUATING AND THEYRE NOT SO ITS GONNA BE NO MORE SILLY TALK AGHCHFH OH MT GSOD ILL FLUNK THIS ENGLISH CLASS JUST SO I CAN HAVE ONE MORE SEMESTER WITH THEMย
I dont even have a readon forfeeling this way at least not anybi can identify LOL lifes just boring and hmm the future is scary and i see no potential in myself ๐ ๐
hansel soddikken ^-^ my ultimate themesong
and bloodeater and circus hop and me and my maddness and YOUNG GIRL AAAGGDHHH
camt believe i almost said it in my status but what if i killed myself ๐คฃ๐คฃ (my period is coming so im just feeling emotional for no reason :3 well the period is kind of the reason butttttt ๐)
like theres notthitnggg to ever look forward too I LOOK FORWARD TO SCHOOL DURING THE LAST TWO WEEKS EUGUUHHHH๐ญ๐ญ NOO MY BESTIESSS EVER THEYRE LIKE TRUE FSMILY TO ME ๐ฅน๐ฅน IK I JUST GOT KINDOF REPRIMANDED (??) FOR NOT APPRECIATING MY FAMILY MORE BY GETTING N DOING STUFF FOR THEM BUTBI FEEL SUPERRR CONFLICTED ANOUT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY FAMILY IFFF I EVEN HAVE ONE WITH THEM ANYMOR๐ค๐ค๐ค BUT IF I SAID THAT ID BE OUT IN THR STREETS๐ ๐
WHY DID THE SMADTEST A+ KID ASK ME TO BE THEIR PARTNER FOR PEER REVIEWS AGAHHHH!!!ย
its prolly cuz im doing rocky horror and theg love rocjy horror KILLGIGMTMESELFFF
anyways love drawing jazzieAGAHHH JAZZIE IBSSESISON LASTEF FOR A WEEK EVERYOME RUN IM NOT GETTING OVER THIgive it ANOTHER week... im sure to be over it by then... ๐
oh... i dodnt finish... but they met at a valleytimes school dance and umm damien sawd arttie and she eas like ooh lala! and had comical heart eyes and fell in loveย
yeah guys pervy emo guy stalks young cute gyaru model lore is DONE ๐ ๐ โ๏ธโโ๏ธ๐ฃ๐ฃ๐ฅ๐ฅmy irl comeup with better lore than me..
happy 3500 comments btw umm i love artedam and jazzie ๐๐๐ฏ๐ฏ๐๏ธ๐๏ธ๐ฅ๐ฅโ ๏ธ
ill do a special when i hit 3700... (ill just kill myself at that poinJUSSTTTT KIDDING๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐๏ธ๐๏ธ๐๏ธ๐ฅ๐ฅโ ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธ๐ฃ๐ฃ๐ฃ๐ฃ๐คฃ๐คฃ๐คฃ)
i have gyatt to find a listener oomf whos willing to listen to me yap about artedam and jazzie and then they can yap to me back about theyre interests and ill be the listener๐
i wish it was 2022 where id eant to draw or at least doodle every seclnd of the day AHHH!!!! hopefully i can do that in the summer but i might wana sleep alllll summer idk....๐ ๐ ๐จ i still dont know how i did it then ugghhh๐ ๐ ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ช๐ช๐๐๐
my ass when peoepell care about me and not my interests AGHHH!!!!
jokes asiede i love these wolf memes ive been scrolling looking at them and giggling for the pasy halfnhour
highkey hate when people say obvious shit LMAO ๐ญ like yall think im retarded or sm ๐ญ๐ญ(i am but not to THAT extent)
i bottle up too manythings , my true feelings, the desire to talk about my ocs, umm everything really LOL im going to end up insane or dead if i dont do something about this AGHHH!!!
though the latter doesnt sound too bad... ๐
life would be awesome if I had jazzie and artedam plushies ๐คso i can always make them make out n stuf ywhsahh
not feeling sad or depressed or whatever but life is genuinely so boring that id rather not be here LOL ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ nothing goes on anymore i dont really talk to my friends the only time i do get human interaction is when im at school um i cant see anything happening for myself IDK!!! life is just such a snoozefest id love to sleep for eternity through it n stuff vro ๐ญ๐ญ
well iblied abt the firts part maybe life being boring is making me sad ugghfhhfh i wish it was 2016 again and i was making movie maker amvs with my plushies not gaf about anythin AGAHHHH
like dawg i jist kinda want SOMETHTIGNGGG TO HAPPEN VRO ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ LIFES SO BORING ILL DO WHATEVER GOD THROWS AT ME
like umm me interacting with that weird ass kid who an almost entire community deems problematic LOL im just bored asf n wanna see what shit theyd do LOL but even thats getting boring ๐ช
would it be bad if i said i woudlnt mind being groomed jus so my life would be a little bit interesting LOL ๐คฃ๐คฃ๐คฃ
i believe โ๏ธ i got that vampire tism ๐ค๐ค๐ฏ๐ฃ๐ฃ๐ฃ๐ง๐ง
niggas gotta invite me to talk about my interests cuz i aint gonna do it on my own i CANNOTTTT WITHOUT FEELIGN HUMBLED DOING SO ๐ญ๐ญโ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธ like it can't be "ohhh man ko i wish you talked abt your ocs more theyre kinda cool!!!" it jas to be " KO!!!! YOU HAVE TO TALK ABOUT YOUR OCS (or THIS SPECIFIC OC) RIGHT NOW PLEASSEE AGH!!" not that exaggerated but you get what i mean vro ๐ญ๐ญ and i ESPECIALLY wont do it when others are doing so so they cant be like "oh we were all talking abt our ocs!! you couldve joined in!!" like uhhh i could have ? but you didnt say i can?? AGAHHH IM SO WEIRD BRO RAGAHHH ๐ง๐ง๐ง๐ง๐ง๐ง
maan was actually looking forward to do sm on this boring ass saturday whatever es lo que es ๐๐๐๐๐
WHATT GE SHIT CHAT RIZZO FROM GREASE IS IN THEBKNUCKLES SERIES?? I WASBJUSYT WATCHING GREASE THEN I WAS BORED SCROLLING AROUND AND SAW THE MEET THE KNUCKLES CAST SO IM LIKE OKAY!!!: ^-^ IM LIKE WOW COOL CAST THEN STOCKARD CHANNING SHIWS UP AND IM LIKE WAIT I JUST SAW THAT NAME SOMEWHERE... RIZZO?!,$&@&$ AAGHHH WTFF RIZZO IN SONIC MOVIE UNIVERSE IS CRAZY
sometimes its so humbling to bring up my ocs even if its just to myself like UGGHHHHHwhateverr es lo que esย
ny therapist asked abt any new drawings or any new characters i made like MSMDKGKKSKFKDKD JAZZIES NOT NEW UM?? BUT NEW FIXATION ISH?@??? NDDKSKKSKSHFHD I WAS TOO EMBARRASSED I COULD FEEL MU FACE HEATONG UP SO I WAS LIKE EUMM!!! MY FRIENDS!! ARE COOL!!! ๐๐๐
like god id love to talk abt jazzie but i dont think people would fw them as much as i do cuh ๐
thou shalt not lie thou shalt not cheattrGAHAHHHH!!!! KARMAS A BITCH!!!;> I SHOULDVE KNWOM BETTER!! IF I HAD A WISH I NEVER WOULDA MESSED AROUND!!!!! WHEN I SAW THE PICZ OF YU N HER I FELT THE KNIFE TWIST KARMAS A BITCH AND SHES WITH YOU RIGHT NOW WOAAHPHO OHO OH HOH WAPIAI
i love freaky insta accs ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ they desensitized me to ALOT of freaky shitvthat ion gaf bout nun no mor LMAO
OMFG I KEEO TAKING BREAKS ON THIS DRAWINGS LIKE FUCKKK. IWANNA DRAW ARTEDAM AGAIN ALREADY OR MORE JAZZIE BUT I WANNA AGAHH!!!!!! i hate jazzie..JK I KOVEEE THEM if i ever say i hate jazzie call the police thats NOT me๐ ๐ but if i say i hate artedam all is clear! ^-^
ive had my discord pfp for a month AGHH!!! im gonna change it to jazzie sloppy makeout one sex
๐ญnever drawinhg artedam n they kidz AGAON VRO๐ ๐ ๐ โ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธ.. trying to draw them being a family n niggas wana sayโ๏ธ๐คerm snort why iz artemis so sexualizeDAGHHH
finna hop in the rabbithole rabbithole late so it doesnt seem like im being trendy but technically i am cuz it was a trend in thr first place AGHH!!!
NOT catching a break in MAY VROO ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐ first few days is aight... the 2nd week is when it gets FREAKY ๐ญ๐ญย
I HAVE REHEARSALS ON A MONDAY AND A CEREMOMY THING TUESDAY, THEN WEDNESDAY IS AIGHT THEN THEUSDAY FRIDAY ARE MY FINALS ๐ญ๐ญ๐๏ธ๐๏ธ
IT DONT STOP NEXT WEEK I HAVE ANOTHER REHEARSAL THING ON WEDNESDAY THEN ANOTHER CEREMONY THE NEXT DAY, THEN THE DAY AFTER SOMETHINGS GOING ON IM DEBATING OF I WANNA DO IT IDKK NO I PROLLY WONT
UGHHH THEN THE WEEK AFTER I GRADUATE AGHH ๐ญ๐ญ๐๏ธ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ THENN THR WEEKEND I HAVE A TRIPย
ou man im kms ๐๐๐ this toomuch...
not like i go on anyone else's profiles but i fear one day imma post. a ๐ฏ๐ป๐ฎ๐ช๐ด๐ comment on someone elses page and humble myself BAD AAGHHH โ๏ธโ๏ธ๐๐๐๐๏ธ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ฎโ๐จ๐ฎโ๐จ
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