HI!! good news thatll change the direction of my commissions and just life in general


recently i had been diagnosed with an auto immune disorder; hashimoto's and my health had been declining rapidly for the past 2 years.

good news.... IM STARTING TREATMENT!!!! im also getting tests to see if i have asthma due to the constant shortness of breath so my doctor is sending an inhaler to my pharmacy!!


hashimoto's disease has taken over my life. all i can do is sleep and question my cognitive intelligence :( but this treatment involves the medication levothyroxine and it replaces the hormone my thyroid currently isnt producing, which has led me to really heavy fatigue and brain fog and just a lot. its been heavy on me.

but im very happy and excited to turn my life around and do better for myself, for my boyfriend, family, friends, and clients.


i know i havent been handling my business well. im aware of it. theres no excuse for it. though im learning life skills now and im learning time management and stuff like that. from now on its only gonna get better.

my mental has been doing so much better these past months all due to my boyfriend which will eventually be my husband. thats when my medical started to really unmask itself!!!


i feel that im no longer trapped, and i could breathe for once (figuratively and literally). its just my lifes been the biggest rollercoaster and dealing with the possibility, MAJORLY positive, that i have autism and i just dont know how to handle it??? i am AFAB and its common for female children to mask their autistic traits until adulthood where it gets harder to. so a lot artent diagnosed until adulthood. thats the main thing im trying to cope with LMAO so if any one has autism i need reassurance everythings okay.


i think its the fact that things are changing and i cant handle change. i couldnt even go up the podium to grab my diploma; my counselor had to physically guide me. but im taking change well. im no longer in the cycle of abuse, i found the problems with my health and theyre being resolved, i have a support system now and im getting diagnosis' i need, what my bf says be able to live in normalcy.


i grew up in a terrible situation and i had been in very terrible situaions from grade kndergarten to 8th grade. then i was in even more terrible where i almost lost my life a couple times to a man much older than me :(( that finally turned around in november 2025 when i reconnected with my bf, he stepped in, assured id be in no contact with my abuser and he was the only one to break that cycle. its been a full 7 months since i last saw my abuser and im happy to say he will no longer be making me a victim and cannot make anyone else a victim.

i am a survivor and that pretty much explains my mental decline. i am...relieved. it feels surreal but i am relieved


thank you everyone SO SO much for the on going support and patience. very end of july 2025 was the last time id ever try to leave earth. im finaly walking normally!!! just a year ago i was limping everywhere i walked to. breaking my femur and getting a concussion was the last of the injuries id endure because i dont deserve it and those who care about me dont deserve it.


i dont know how to show my appreciation to all of you. im very unprofessional im aware but a lot of you have guided me through my mistakes and many of you listened to me and had/have been patient with me. i know theres money involved and its a business right and i havent been handling that well as i do it alone with all this brain fog and unable to think or form thoughts correctly. i am thankful to have loving and caring clients. hearts of gold



im gonna end this off saying im moving onto the next chapter of my life. no longer as a victim to literal torture and violence. i am a survivor. and i get to bring my medical and mental health improvements right with me, along with all of you and all of my loved ones. thats very special to me. all of you see there is a person with real struggles behind the animations and behind the screen. while i admit ive handled it terribly, i will do better. because i am doing better and you all deserve the better me as me and my family and boyfriend deserve the better me.


thank you for sticking with me. youre all wonderful beings with hearts of diamond. <3 <3 <3