stick3rbatz's Bulletins
sorry for the dramatic bulletin title lol
just wanted to say that because of a rapid decline in my mental health + a broken relationship between me and art as a whole at the moment, i wont be accepting any commissions for.. at least a month or two. probably two. or maybe even three. hell maybe i'll just hold off until i graduate lol
if i owe you anything that i may have forgotten, please let me know so i can refund you or offer some sort of compromise because i cannot continue being here knowing i owe that one guy something. i NEVER want to come across as a scammer and i cant live comfortably with a guilty conscience..
i need to rebuild a healthy view on drawing, so i am only drawing for myself for now. hopefully everything gets better and i can start taking commissions and art trades and such again!
minors dni
ok but fr today is my birth!!!!!!! im 18 and im Scared
i managed to finish half of my owed art, but i am still disappointed by the fact that i didnt finish it all like i wanted 🥲 i have all of them sketched out at least
i hereby vow to finish it all this weekend
this may or may not be a bad idea since im not known for. sticking to deadlines of any kind ever but ive been sitting on this pile of owed art for far too long and i need to draw something
you dont have to comment abt it or anything this is just an update
im just soo done,, i dont think ive had art block as bad as this. like i havent drawn anything in so long and i still have owed art to do and i feel baaad. someone give me spare motivation pls
some days i think about making comics or some other commercial works with my ocs, but i feel weird about using ocs i didnt design. because people have terms of service and stuff for their designs, i feel really limited to what i can do with them. like, what if i wanted to make pins of an oc to sell? if i didnt design them, is that possible? would i have to pay a commercial use fee? i just dont want to deal with that. plus i dont want to profit off of something i didnt make. if i make a comic, everything would be made by myself.
i really wish i didnt get into making and designing adopts as a kid, because while i have a lot of cool ocs, i only made maybe half of them. the only solution i can think of is to trade or just store the ocs i didnt make and replace them, but i am too attached to them to do that :( idk what to do..
WHATTHEFUCK
im making her into an oc immediately btw
ive basically lost the motivation to continue
because of the recent scandal with the site and art block hitting me like a train i just. i cant do this anymore lol
i hope next year things will get easier
kind of a vent below lolol
i cant help but feel really guilty though.. for the past two years i had quit artfight halfway through because of lack of motivation and it happened again this year. i just want to get through a full month of artfight for once :(
and i feel bad that ive gotten 50 attacks by now and i've only revenged a tenth of them. idk how to get rid of this guilt man. i just feel like shit. i cant draw comfortably cuz i feel bad about artfight but i cant even bring myself to open the website man
GUYS. LOOK AT THIS CUTE ASS ART MY PARTNER MADE
HE IS SO TALENTED AND I LOVE THEM
ANDI WANT YOU TO. GO ATTACK THEM!!!! ITS HIS FIRST ARTFIGHT DO IT NOW GO GO GO /LH
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i might make this bulletin authorized only later
i had to soft block a mutual to post this im about to hard block them too because its making me uneasy
why in the world do people still decide to actively look for designs made by bigots,, like tell me why i just saw someone make a whole toyhouse world dedicated to this artist’s designs, but like the artist was cancelled for drawing cp a while ago
you people are scary
i do not understand people obsessed with certain designers in general. im sorry if ur one of these people but i cant get behind having entire folders of ocs dedicated to a designer,, its just eerie to me idk why are you treating these characters as if theyre just a part of your expensive collection and not with actual love and respect?