I don't know if I'm having depression or I just don't like doing oc stories anymore. I just can't tell. Especially I've been wanting to impress everyone with my ocs without bothering them about it. IDK how to impress people and my favorite artists my ocs without trying to beg them.. 

Here's why my projects are dead / failed without much spoilers:

Alternative Life - I'm literally stuck with character arcs and the story that don't seem right or I simply don't like. I might read it again but I remember disliking it a lot. I've had an interesting start, an okay balance with the characters, made some worldbuilding even for the characters, and the main story focus is supposed to be Taylor's side of life. I tried to implement others like Joseph, Ryan, and Sam. I wanted to work on them again but I started to not like the story and not trust the process anymore.

Eastern Trolls - I love the characters and story but I stopped working on it because most characters aren't even Asian and I want to change the theme. The ocs were originally Homestuck ocs but I turned it into "Eastern zodiacs". I didn't even think about making the characters Asian because I was ignorant.

The project with Scarlet and Hazel - This was a love story with them at first and then there was a band plot too. There was no real story planned for this. I want to change the character designs so bad but I'm just stuck with disappointment scene, emo, alt furry ocs.

Things are Fugged - This is the one with my very oldest ocs from 2011. I actually want to work on this, trying to start from scratch. The problem is I do want to work on it but I have no motivation and battling depression episodes right now, that makes it hard to reconnect with my ocs again even the ones I love right now.

My Metal Family ocs - Trying to work on them the best I can because they are new. I wish I'm really interested in making stories as I should.

The rest - I stopped working on them.

Note: I worked on the writings and worldbuilding all by myself, I had no helpers or co writers at all. I'm aware I never showed snippets of my writing work publicly because I prefer to finish all of the story before sharing anything.