i was browsing along toyhouse and saw you comment in a thread and i stumbled upon this bulletin.. i just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. i do the same thing with a few of my characters, as i am a survivor of rape and sexual abuse as well. it is entirely ok for you to cope like this and if you ever need anyone to talk to, you can come to me to vent <3 but i do agree that these sort of things should be given either a warning or made authorized-only or private since others who haven't experienced this won't entirely understand and may get upset by it. ( i do see you have made him private in the end ) but you should never apologize for having a way to deal with your trauma. as long as you obviously aren't romanticizing the situation, which you clearly aren't, i don't see any harm in this method. 

tbh people just like to get butthurt over the most trivial of things that don't concern them in the slightest these days