Hello, im so sorry to hear about your struggles. I know sometimes anxiety can be absolutely overwhelming and just seep into every aspect of your life. It's good you're looking for ways to reduce your stress and grief even if those options are difficult, and i know sometimes the adopt community can suck you in and act as a great escape from reality but you always need to check yourself and ask when its become too much. You have some gorgeous kids and I hope you find them wonderful forever homes. Id love to be considered for Caroline if you do resell him, hes gorgeous and I know without a doubt I'd keep him and spoil him like my other fleuros kids.