i think im just emotional becuse today was my last day of school ever.. (yay...) but that also means the last time ill ever see my irls who made me happy. wanted. appreciated. they made me feel like i wasnt bothering them when i bring up my ocs and interests compared to when i bring it up around my family and (online) friends they look at me as if ive gone insane or dont acknowledge it cuz they dont give a damn which theyre not entitled to obv. anyways they made me feel like someone they wanted to hang out withGOD MY IRLS?? HUG ME AND SAY I LOVE YOU TO ME OUT OF NO WHERE MY FAMILY DOESNT DO THAT; and i feel so bad for being awkward abt it cuz i never had irls who were like that to me + my family is only like that to me 0.01% of yhe time so i always freak when they hug me. anyways they were just. really nice people to be around... if i hadnt met any pf them i would be dead i think. but now that its gonna be summer. and im gonna be without them. for a good while esp cuz they were underclassmen and im a senior. i might go insane. they honestly kept me sane i think. NO LITERALLY CUZ SPRING BREAK- i was LOSING IT i said so many concerning things. i cough... got snitched on.. AND I STILL WAS AND THEN!! i came bac to school^-^ and saw my irls... and i regained composure. even winter break i could feel it. like. its sad how no one in my family brings me joy that my irls have?? thats a me problem though i think?? idk i just blame myself alot cuz 1 i know i have alot of problems LOL and 2 im always told by someone to do soagahhh... anyways its gonna be HELL in this house now that i cant seethem anymore and this house might have a corpse hangin round in the next few weeks. ^-^
kokidee
i think im just emotional becuse today was my last day of school ever.. (yay...) but that also means the last time ill ever see my irls who made me happy. wanted. appreciated. they made me feel like i wasnt bothering them when i bring up my ocs and interests compared to when i bring it up around my family and (online) friends they look at me as if ive gone insane or dont acknowledge it cuz they dont give a damn which theyre not entitled to obv. anyways they made me feel like someone they wanted to hang out withGOD MY IRLS?? HUG ME AND SAY I LOVE YOU TO ME OUT OF NO WHERE MY FAMILY DOESNT DO THAT; and i feel so bad for being awkward abt it cuz i never had irls who were like that to me + my family is only like that to me 0.01% of yhe time so i always freak when they hug me. anyways they were just. really nice people to be around... if i hadnt met any pf them i would be dead i think. but now that its gonna be summer. and im gonna be without them. for a good while esp cuz they were underclassmen and im a senior. i might go insane. they honestly kept me sane i think. NO LITERALLY CUZ SPRING BREAK- i was LOSING IT i said so many concerning things. i cough... got snitched on.. AND I STILL WAS AND THEN!! i came bac to school^-^ and saw my irls... and i regained composure. even winter break i could feel it. like. its sad how no one in my family brings me joy that my irls have?? thats a me problem though i think?? idk i just blame myself alot cuz 1 i know i have alot of problems LOL and 2 im always told by someone to do soagahhh... anyways its gonna be HELL in this house now that i cant seethem anymore and this house might have a corpse hangin round in the next few weeks. ^-^
4 months, 15 days ago