I love working 6 days a week
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I can't call mental health crisis hotlines because the thought of talking to someone on the phone at 1am makes me too anxious. Like, I run these elaborate conversations through my head of them asking me what's wrong, did someone die, were you fired, are you suicidal and all I can say is "Not really I'm just so tired of being sad and scared for no reason, please help me," like I expect them to silently judge me and wonder why I'm wasting their time when there are people with real problems out there...
I just wish I didn't feel like this all the time.
Im so mentally exhausted right now I don't know why im trying to hold onto this relationship shes so negative its sucking my smile away I feel so sorry for her all the time that when im happy I feel shitty for it because she always has to tell me how miserable she is. I understand she is not a positive person I understand it 100 percent but its wearing on me so badly. I want to be happy but she isnt and I feel so bad I try to listen but its come to the point when anything good happens to me she walks in and sucks it down I cant even spend time with my brother without her coming in and making it depressing. I feel like such an asshole for being happy with anything because she cant be happy no matter what she is always sad something is always wrong something is always bad she is never happy. I get so tired of hearing her say how bad she is how awful she is when no one said it. We want her to support herself but she takes it as everyone is mad at her etc. I am so tired.
Pixel-Latte it’s kind of an unspoken rule here not to reply to somebody’s vent but like,, -hugs- I feel that, be kind to yourself, you have it rough already no need to make yourself an enemy on top of it <3
Just,, sending support and good vibes ok u’re good u’re nice u can get through this
For my rant now tho so somebody on here, but idk their username & wouldn’t say it anyway bc of rules and I’m not interested in starting drama, blocked me after I suggested some names in a ‘name the oc above’ thread, and like I didn’t go against preferred gender or anything so ??? But ye ok it stings I feel hurt & sucky, life goes on, but now that same person, I’m assuming it’s the same person bc of thread and it’s the only person that blocked me to my knoweldge, just posted below me in the ‘name at first sight’ thread. Like, I can’t see their post?? They can’t even see my char since they blocked me?? Why do you hate me what’s the deal here wtf
Like, ok be petty but don’t involve me in it, go be petty over there
nevermind somebody answered me on the subject and apparently the post got blocked on the thread and uh I’m not sure if that’s all there is to it since the plst clearly says ‘this user has blocked you’ and not ‘this post has been blocked’ or smth like that but,, I’m confuse? Anyway getting out the part about being blocked over name suggestions still kinda helped me I guess,, it’s been a while and it still feels sucky tbh. I got troubles with wanting everyone to like me anyway so eh same old same old