Vasakohta

 There’s a vacant sort of silence
 I have long since come to know
 That reverberates in hidden echoes
 And reminds me I’m alone

 And sometimes it’s hard to remember
 The face of the only one I could trust
 For in our years of separation, time
 Took away her voice and touch

 How did it come to this? I ask –
 How cruel is this division of life?
 That left me in her fading shadows
 Struggling just to survive

 No one reached out to help me
 I had no knowledge but how to hide
 And by trial and error, I had to
 Teach myself to stay alive

 I uncovered the powers of my bloodline
 Controlling fire, dragon form
 And wondered what about this
 Exiled my mother from her home

 But whatever they saw in her
 They seemed to see in me, too
 Because no one would approach me –
 No one except you

 You, with your cheerful smile
 Promised me everything would be okay
 Like a ray of brilliant sunshine
 Breaking through my stormy day

 But even all your fiery kindness
 Will never be enough to melt my cold
 Because I’ve learned from our harsh world
 To make a fortress from my soul

 My mind is a lethal shelter
 Tangled wires, poisoned thorns
 To keep my soft heart shielded
 From the bitter murmurs of the world

 And you can tell me all about the sunshine
 But you can never erase my past
 Or the memories of years gone bitter
 The knowledge that nothing will ever last

 There’s a vacant sort of silence
 Because everyone will one day leave
 And you can promise entire galaxies
 But it’ll take me light years to believe

 There’s a vacant sort of silence
 Made all the harsher by my grief
 Reverberating in waves of sorrow
 That will never leave or cease

 And sometimes it’s hard to remember
 Anything but the faces of those I loved
 For even years of separation can never
 Erase their voices or their touch

 How did it come to this? I ask –
 Why this cruel division of life?
 That left me heartbroken in the shadows
 Wondering if I should even try

 No one reached out to help me
 Soothe this aching, trembling heart
 And by trial and error, I had to
 Learn how to not fall apart

 I learned to keep myself hidden
 To connect with the ones not like me
 To put on a mask and pretend to be
 The person they wanted to see

 Because whatever they saw in my family
 I knew they would see in me, too
 And there was no one left like me –
 No one except you

 You, with your glacial smile
 Promised me a world of freezing cold
 Like a storm of frigid blizzards
 That threatened to take all my warmth

 But even all your icy desolation
 Will never be enough to chill my fire
 Because I’ve learned from our harsh world
 We exist to raise each other higher

 My mind is an inviting shelter
 Cozy fires, glowing hearth
 To bring others a sense of safety
 With just a spark of warmth

 And you can warn me all about the arctic
 But you will never erase my past
 Of the memories of years of smiles
 And the knowledge they will always last

 There’s a vacant sort of silence
 Because people may one day leave
 But I promise you that our bond
 Will not be severed so easily