Poetry Collection
Real angsty stuff, not very good but whatever XD
I Wish I Was Invisible
An old one I wrote back in junior high about what it felt like when teachers asked me a question (social anxiety and selective mutism kicking in)
I Wish I Was Invisible
My face is on fire.
I just want to hide, to disappear under my desk.
Please don't look at me.
I'm already too aware of my
Painfully shy eyes,
Trembling hands,
Lips moving without sound.
I keep trying, waiting for the words to spill out
Like the tears that have gathered in my eyes,
But my voice has turned to dust, my lungs to ashes,
And I cannot speak.
Let me hide, just for a while?
I am drowning in the stares, the pressure.
This is why I prefer to sit against the wall.
I hate the pricking of imaginary whispers on my back.
They don't notice the tidal wave of panic sweeping me away
When I hear my name
And the silence that follows after it.
They can't see the flurry of my thoughts
Stampeding into the distance
To leave nothing in my mind,
My tongue in tatters.
Why do you talk to me?
I am the quiet one,
A shrinking violet
Hiding in the corner of the room.
And I wilt under pressure.
My expression doesn't change,
I'm careful about that.
But I feel awkward in your eyes.
Awkward in my skin.
My hands don't like the attention any more than I do.
Shaking, they retreat into deep caves
Made from sweater sleeves.
And I wish I was invisible.