Amaryllis

"Nature is beautiful, they said. I say show them those moths that are born in sloth shit."

Amaryllis is a major character from my main canon world, and the main protagonist of my Flowers AU. She is always an intelligent woman gifted in magic, but also guarded and socially uncomfortable. In all versions of her story, Amary has a connection to Nyaomi, the Syllionic goddess of nature: in the Flowers AU, they are mother and daughter. Unsurprisingly, her magic revolves around natural properties: namely, flowers, and often flora in general.

As mentioned, Amaryllis is a reserved, quiet woman who prefers to avoid socializing. She has very few close friends, and is slow to share her trust; however, those who are allowed past her walls will find themself with a compassionate, thoughtful friend, always willing to listen or share her true feelings. No matter what, though, Amaryllis finds it difficult to convey her thoughts verbally; this has made her rather conscientious of her tone and exact words. She’s often seen as formal because of this trait, but that is far from the truth. Amaryllis isn’t rude, nor cruel, but she can be very blunt, particularly in the service of avoiding small talk. Amary herself is not too fond of this habit; she would give anything if it let her be even a little more vulnerable. She can’t stand being seen as strong, or resilient, not finding either complimentary in the slightest. Being able to let her guard down is her wish, but to her, it feels like little more than a pipe dream. She resents her own inability to do anything except internalize pain and grief. This has negatively impacted her life significantly; perhaps her biggest flaw is that in the pursuit of upholding her emotional walls, Amaryllis will often project it onto other people, going so far as to lie to avoid causing them pain or bringing forth conflict. Though she only wants to do the right thing, Amary has brought friction and anger into her relationships because of this-it’s hurt her confidence considerably, which only perpetuates the toxic cycle. Fortunately, her heart is in the right place, and Amaryllis is doing her best to break the habit of avoiding pain at all costs. Her friends are her anchor in this regard, and she is so grateful to them for staying by her side.

Appearance

Amaryllis is a black trans woman of average height. She’s covered in freckles, and they’re darker than her skin tone, so they stand out easily. Her hair is curly, dark brown, and often casually tied back. Her eyes are a light brown. Amaryllis is usually seen in sweaters and skirts, but that’s only true if she’s spending a lot of time indoors; when outside, she’s insistent on not showing any skin due to her fear of ticks. Flowers make up a huge part of her aesthetic, particularly sunflowers, and it’s rare to see her without any sort of floral pattern in her outfit. Amary is also never seen without glasses-they’re not an accessory, she needs them.