kithood

Midgekit was born to Fireflydance along with their three siblings Butterflykit, Darnerkit, and Mothkit. Soon to be added to the brood was Huckleberrykit. Midgekit had a relatively good kithood. He would often notice how sad their mama was. They were told that Fireflydance had lost someone, Cricketmurmer. That's why ae were sad. Things got worse as Blackberrypaw died. He watches from the nursery as the leadership falls apart. As the clan grieves for cats that have died to young. They are scarred. Scarred of what was happening. Scarred that mama was so sad. Scarred that they didn't understand. Then Cicadasun dies and Dragonsun is made leader, Huckleberrykit is taken from them. They were devistasted that Huckleberrykit was gone. They stuck close to their siblings for a while after this. afraid they would loose them to. Like Blackberrypaw was lost, or Cricketmurmer, or Cicadasun, or Huckleberrykit, or any of the other cats that had been lost in the short amount of time he had been alive.

apprenticeship

He becomes medic apprentice. They had not been fond of fighting, but the deaths, although they frightened him, had added resolve to the little tom. He wanted to help. If his siblings got hurt he could help them get better. They could try to lessen the suffering. Right? They hope they are making Fireflydance proud of them. Then they are told about Mudslash. He haven't felt this feeling before. The anger, the betrayal, the sadness all mixed up into one thing. Were they not good enough? Mama was amazing so it couldn't be her, no matter how much ae apologized. It must be them, him, that wasn't good enough. Insecurity worms its way into their heart. They do not voice this feeling. They support Fireflydance, upset that Butterflypaw and Darnerpaw would treat aer in such a way but as always he stays silent, only offering words of comfort to his mother and his siblings when they accept them.

The omen of bones and shadows leaping from beneath the surface of Bloomclan terrifies him. He has avoided the tunnels since. He has no idea what to think, or how they are supposed to fix this. How is he supposed to fix this? He goes to Whiteout's cave with the patrol although he's terrified. Once again he doesn't utter a word about not wanting to go, that maybe Oleanderhush should go instead. He's glad Butterflypaw is there atleast, always having felt the safest with her, like nothing could hurt them as long as she was there. Then they start hearing voices from the cave, and Butterflypaw looks scarred. She thinks it's their mama. He is to scarred to move. Lioneye and Flyhiss making sure they go no further. Not that he would have been able to take a step with the terror coursing through his body. Lioneye finds the amber. A clue from the seelie? He is not sure, just wanting to leave this terrifying place.

As if enough wasn't happening and he wasn't already terrified, Muddypelt leaves, Sphinxtounge replacing him. He feels more alone than ever, Muddypelt was who they had confided in and talked to, he strived for Oleanderhush's approval but he was kind of scarred of the head medic. He does like Sphinxtounge! But its not the same, and getting used to the idea of the bug as a medic and not a monarch was strange.

Then there was the party. He has a great time at the party, talking to some other cats his age a little more. Generally just socializing. Then Oleanderhush gives him a flower crown. He is delighted and thinks this may be a breaking point in their relationship. He notices the looks given by some cats around camp. They try not to worry about it but feels bad, like something is wrong with him. Like he has done something wrong for liking his mentors gift. Then the next meeting, he dreads the meetings, he dreads having another dream like the one before, bones and shadows reaching for him, trying to take him away like Huckleberrykit was. But this time Ebonyfrost also comments on the crown. He says nothing although something about this feels off. If even Ebonyfrost had noticed something maybe there was something wrong with the crown. Then the dream comes. He throws the crown away. It gives him a sick feeling now. They wonder why Oleanderhush would give them a crown that clearly meant something bad. That would make people stare, that the seelie would send him a warning about it.

They think about asking Phantomveil what the flowers meant. Or just flower meanings in general, they had been wanting to learn anyway. Before they can muster the courage to ask the tom about flowers the stampede hits. He is thrown into the fray trying to help his clanmates as his mama lay there. He screams and wails inside as he goes about his duty healing the others as best he can. They haven't much left Fireflydance's side since things had calmed down. As he lays beside his mama thoughts race of the omen, the crack the spelunkers had found deep below. the shadows were coming for him, they were coming to take him away.

Flickerwings gets attacked by Whisper and he is horrified. He helps treat his friend no questions asked, although he doesn't say much, what are they supposed to say? That it was going to be ok? That having to kill your own mother wasn't going to haunt them? He stay quite, but hopes his presence can help a little bit. Their friendship is a strange quite one, but one he really enjoys. Then Huckleberrypaw is found, and they rejoin the clan. He isn't sure what to feel, they are glad to see him safe. But for so long they had clumped Huckleberrypaw in with all the other death. It feels like they came back from the dead. His siblings, including Huckleberrypaw, now Nymphwish, get their names, and he is happy for them. He thinks all their names suit them well. He does feel a teensy bit left out, but he knows he'll get his sooner or later. THen it is announced just what Strawberryshore had done, he was horrified. But glad that the cats luv might have hurt had they stayed around them are now safe.

Despite all this Butterflyblush decides she needs to go track down Strawberryshore, and get her ear torn off and half her face scarred in the process. He helps fix her up. Keeps his maw shut about what he thinks about he doing something so stupid and dangerous. Something that could have taken her away from all of them. But he isn't given long to think on that as more happens, Vixenplume comes back to camp with two tails and a patrol with a story of a golden tree. Whistlenose creates a new role in the clan. He opens up to Sphinxtounge a bit about what he's been going through, the nightmares about the shadows. The flower crown. Sphinxtounge wants him to go see Whistlenose, but he ends up getting out of it. This is medic buissness, he doesnt need to worry anyone else with it.

Then the gathering with the great bird exploding and the flames. He can't even escape from the fae scarring the shit out of his at the gathering. The next medic meeting they see a vision of a comet, of cats talking about mving, or it being the end. Then more blizzardclan cats show up asking to join Bloomclan. These ones unlike the last three however are bleeding and half dead. News of an execution reaching his ears. What is even happening anymore, its like theres no stopping. How are they supposed to fix whatever is going on with the fae when eveything else is also going crazy off the hook bizzare. Then Strawberryshore is dead, atleast he doesn't have to worry about his sister running back off to go try and fight him again.

Then the gathering. Mudslash has seemingly moved on all to quickly, he has a little sister, Raptorpaw. He thought he would be happy for younger siblings, but not from Mudslash. No, all he feels is a white hot rage, all of the anger and anguish coming out for just a moment as he tells his father to go walk off exiles end. He is relived when the advisors are announced and picked. They think this is a good change, something good is finally happening. He is also assigned to take take of Wispflight and Fluer. He does enjoy the others company. And is glad to see Fluer get better and heal, although being stuck in the quarantine den with them, it gives him much to much time to think. Especially after the recent gathing.

Then he goes on a patrol with Butterflyblush, Hypervoice, and Quickspring. Their sister begins asking him whats wrong, that she can tell. Midgeleaf tries to talk around it, she won't understand. She was furious with Mudslash sure, bu it wasn't the same. He had so much that he felt like he couldn't talk about, and the only way to take out all that anger was on Mudslash. They begin arguing, which is the opposite of what they had wanted, but it is quickly stopped when they come across a fairy ring. They tell everyone to stay away, not step inside. Butterflyblush does so anyway just to spite him, to try and prove some worthless point. Her and Hypervoice get sucked into the circle and are forced to dance on their hind legs. They work together to get the two out quickly. But its to late, the damage had been done. Luckily it is only extra toes. But it so easily could have been death. After checking that thier sister is physically ok he yells at her. For being selfish and petty, that this is exactly what he meant when he said she didnt understand. Then they go home.

Only days after this Hemlocktail dies. Oleanderhush was already loosing it from Dragonsun taking Sphinxtounge to the crystal dome instead. This seems to have finally broke him. Mo stops Midgeleaf before the vigle, telling him he is to be named Midgewhisper and pledging him the the Unseelie in the privacy of the medics den.They run out of the den scarred and unsure of what to think, sure their mentor had been, unconvential but that was... But then he does some thinking. They will take the name, but they arent going to let it mean what mo wants it to mean. They arent the same. The silent fluttering leaf has become a whisper, finally letting his voice be heard. When Oleanderhush calls a clan meeting above his own childs corpse it leaves an even worse taste in their mouth, they call this out, as well as the other things infront of the entire clan. He is surprised by his mentors shock at their opinion of mo. But he simply asks him about the flower crown and after that, leave camp to go the the crystal dome and get an actual blessing from the Seelie. Maybe even actually talk to them this time.

Medichood

Talk to the Seelie he does, he feels relieved to finally see a normal vision. Dewlight, a medic of the past tells them they need to look to the past, go over what they have already seen and find the connections. Midgewhisper tells Sphinxtounge he thinks this means they must go back to the Lost Colony. Before the dream ends however Dewlight, in another cats voice. Or maybe another cat was saying it through Dewlight. Says that Glazefairy was not alone, and they must seek the shadows. Midge wakes up shaking, He cannot be the one to look. That is the one thing he can't do, searching out the shadows the plauge his dreams? He won't get anything done.

There is some relief as Dragonsun announces he is stepping down. And that Oleanderhush will be going to the elders den. It is, greatly releiving to have the moth out of the medic den. He feels less like he is being watched constantly. Especially after mo's promising of him to the Unseelie. He and Sphinxtounge travel with Dragonsun to pinewood falls and through a waterfall. The Witch's Illusion. A place to come meet with the Unseelie. Seemingly forgotten for generations. They are glad Oleanderhush never knew of this place. Dragonstone comes out of the experiance without his lives.

After this. They are given time to think. A sense of peace with thing on the mountain settling down, many wrongs being corrected. But something still feels... off? They realize they may not truely be a tom. With everything else going on they simply had not realized. They decide to take Pumpkinfeather out on the territory to think about it. Talk it out with someone.