So, I've decided that Imma pause on getting any further designs ( Even if it is unfortunate because I am 7 away from the creature section ). 

Any adopts, characters, and art I sell, it will be saved up for food and plans to move out ;u;. 

Since the food situation has been pretty bad for a good while ( Feel sadden to keep seeing an almost empty fridge. I still wish that the males here would be disciplined already because they were the ones that kept eating the most food over here. Especially one of my brothers who is a huge glutton >>... ) and mother hasn't been telling me what is wrong with the EBT card, I have been relying on my owm money to buy food for myself. But because of this, I have been running low on cash T0T. I don't know how to cook ( I am going to my grandma's place this weekend and she will teach me how to cook. Finally ), so the rice and frozen meat couldn't be of use to me qcq. 

I am still selling characters to see if that could work. They can be seen in my money folder! Firm price section I am willing to haggle, depending on the amount! HOWEVER, I won't haggle on Sophia nor Volkner ;;w;;

Wish I can do the sketch colored YCH already but internet has been down for a few days now and I haven't resume to the owed art ( I was planning to resume work but of course internet went poop. The one time I feel mega motivated is the time internet isnt up ) c.c . I am unsure when it will come back. 

But yeah. Eilimitura collection on designs will be paused for the meantime qwq. I also won't be buying any adopts as well ( I have bought a preclaim but that is the dragon one I was talking about. The one I bought back in October ). Food and moving out plans is a priority qwq.

That YCH idea will be unlimited slots, as I want to earn as much as I can qwq. Assuming it still has interests. 

Yes, yes I am xD

Expect multiple notifications from the day I get to upload the bab <3!

Also I have been asked this: She is a design I've preclaimed from uwuloo back in October ( I had an update from them a few days ago )! The artist is busy, so it will take time for the character to be completed! It is fine, as I dont mind nwn! Irl life is important and I hope for the best for them!!

( Edit ) Hope I aint a bother ;;w;;! I just love screaming about her design so far <3

1) I won't accepting more art, until the new oc is done as I want her to get some art pieces ( I have decided that she will be the one to try to get most images [ First page ] alongside Marsha. Hopefully this time I will be firm with this idea ) nwn!
The character in question is what I drew art of here! uwuloo, the artist I preclaim the derg design, is the one working on it qwq. They are a busy artist, so it may require some wait. Which I don't mind, since irl life is more important and doesn't need to be rushed <3!! ( I won't publicly show the WIP design uwuloo did. Especially since I am unsure if it would be ok or not. But I won't ask and just leave it be qwq. Y'all already have my other bulletin to get an idea of what the character looks like! ).

2) See these tabs that a few characters of mine have? Yeah, I am ok with others want to take the tabs and put it into their own characters for organizational purposes nwn! I genuinely do not mind at all! I just hope that it helps and make y'all happy <3!

3) Something I am debating on doing, buuuttttt was thinking is making some non-Pokemon adopts. Not like the ones as doodles. Moreso stuff like this:

It is something new and I've wanted to have more examples show that I am capable of doing designs outside of Pokemon ( I love Pokemon. I just want people to see that I am capable of drawing other things too ;;w;; ).
Maybe like, hmmm... 5-10 designs? I don't want to go with anything like a big batch this time ;;w;;.

Originally I was like "Yeah let's make it like a gacha" but then I went "Eh, doesn't sound like a great idea for these ones.". Even if I am unsure qwq
I have no ideas of what I want the designs to be yet.
They will be adopts. Bidding maybe?
Don't know if I will get them done with year, due to now unsure with the idea of "Don't do adopts for the rest of this year" and if I would even finish them on time before new years, if I do decide to work on them ;;w;;

Figure I'd show :D!
Since the previous bulletins were two wips for a full design, here are the fullbodies of the two beans <3! Baby and main :D

This will remain as lineart for the time being, as the oc isn't done yet ^-^!!
Yeah I did made art pieces of an unfinished design I preclaimed qwq. I just really love how she looks, so I ended up doing the work <3. Got that art itch <3. She is mighty fun to work with :D!

Baby!

Artist: Shows me WIP of a design for me ( This was a day ago )
Me: [[ Trips ]]
[[ Tumbles ]]
[[ Makes one sketch headshot, one silly doodle, and one WIP fullbody of the character ]] Oops--

Proof?

Fluffy noodly dergs are my weakness 😭

I won't show the WIP that the artist made, as I think they would prefer it to be private qwq!
It is a design I've preclaimed some time ago from uwuloo pwp. I saw the WIP design alongside with other dergs, set as an example for when they were selling a custom slot. I DM them, asking to see if it is possible to preclaim the design ( If available, as I wasnt sure if it was gonna be an adopt or already in the works for someone ) pwp. Admittedly did got happy when they were available pwp!
I vibe excitedly for the design pwp. But I will wait, as I am already aware that the artist is busy n3nb.


Ps. I have not decided a name on her yet. I do wanna wait for the design to be completed first to think of one nwn.

( Edit ) Make that four--

On the comment on the previous bulletin, I do plan to go ahead with the advice to just step away from looking through TH UFT / UFS for a while. It leads to nothing and just grow not so positive feelings, as I've spent years just trying to search for a /perfect/ character for me. Just to find nothing. 

So

Uh

Yeah

I'll be heading to bed. Will no longer start off my TH with browsing through UFT / UFS. Will keep my word to not do that for a good while.

So uh... Bye. Have a great night to whoever reads this

I wish it was easy to find that character that gives off that "spark". That /perfect/ character.

I did finally found one but, welp... Unexpected yet also unfavorable circumstance happened and I ended up losing my chance.


Just gonna admit this here:
I am just so exhausted of browsing through TH UFT for so long, not being able to find that /perfect/ character. I've seen so many of the same OCs at this point.
And yes, I try creating multiple ocs for myself. As you can see. They just don't really give off that "spark" that I hope to have. No I don't want to make changes to said ocs I've drawn, as it would just feel out of place and potential disconnect.
Yes I did try customs. But because I don't know exactly what I want, nor want to have them be carbon copies of existing characters ( Esp considering that I want the oc to feel unique ), that is just a total bust.
Yes I've bought characters. I love them, I enjoy them, I make bios and stories of them. But... They don't give off that intended "spark" that I've hoped for.



I dunno...
I just want to finally get that oc where they are perfect.
To feel that extreme joy.
To crave on doing art after art for them.
To brainstorm so many ideas, no matter how wacky and crazy they are.
To make them either a mascot or even an additional persona.
To see them as something unique, even if it is something small! Just enough to see them stand out!
To finally have a simpler, yet unique oc that becomes to attached that I want to make them into physical items for myself ( Perler beads, plushie, stickers, figurines, fursuit, ect, ect )
To finally have that "spark" I wanted


As I type this, I am still browsing through TH trades as we speak.
Still see nothing that sparks an interest


Eh
Wasted so much time, day and night, browsing to find at least something that lights a "spark". Haven't gotten the success that I've hoped for.


Ps. I don't know how to explain this "spark" is. Say that I am tongued tie--

Back to browsing through TH UFT yet AGAIN. Gonna take a thousand years to try to find that "perfect" character.

It really is hard to find an oc that isn't bland, boring, or just seems like it looks like someone else's character with slight changes.
And even if I do find something that sparks my eyes, it is either: Expensive, open / close species, dollmaker, or "Will swap this design for [[ Insert popular artist's name ]] design".
This isn't all characters btw. Only some.

Trying to find something small but also unique, along with making my brain go "Onga bonga, this character hook my interest! It is making my brain brimming with ideas! They look so creative! So stylish! Ooooh it stands out nicely! I want to try to get my hands on it!" is hard. I try to seek a character that is finally:
- One that makes easy practice
- One that I can produce more art of
- One that I can bloom a lot of ideas
- One that I can try to do most images with much ease ( To try to set said character as first page of most images )
- One that I can look forward to getting as physical items ( Plush, keychain, perler bead, fursuit, ect )
- One that I can actually have a strong connection with ( To the point that I can make them as a mascot or an additional persona )
- Someone that is unique and not overly complex.


Tell me...
How did you guys found your "perfect" character? That oc that you could really connect with and pour out the entirety of your heart onto it?

I'm trying but I have no luck.
I try to do new designs, but they don't give that right kind of "spark" ( Like I love them, but they are not at the point as "That perfect oc" ). Not to mention that they are not the kind of characters that would make it easy for me to pump out art onto them with ease.
I try browsing through TH trades, but I either find nothing or get shit out of luck on something ( Note: I avoid giveaway ocs, because I really don't want to go after a character that I may end up loving but have to heavily rely on RNG ).


I love Nymphrasis, but she isn't an easy character to draw.
I love Marsha, but I feel her design doesn't stick out enough to feel unique.
I love Kit and Popori, but I keep getting that constant feeling that something is missing. They don't feel like "That perfect OC".
I love Mao, but doing a bunch of drawings with his chained tail would be tedious.
I love Eruthea, but human(oid) designs take me a while to work with.
I love Hopini, but I realized that her design will take quite some time to work with ( As in, I would not be able to pump art of her with ease ).
I love Codex, but he is not an easy character to draw.

I have characters that I love to bits, but they don't feel like that one character I strive for. That one "perfect" oc that suits for my needs.


And no, I wouldn't ask for a custom from artists because I don't completely know what I want. I'd rather just search for a character that strikes to my FULL interest, rather than ordering a custom that I may not even be certain about.

So please, answer me.
I really do want to know how people finally get the "design that sticks and fully connected to them". How you've found that right character for you?
And no, I am not being sarcastic or anything. I truly, DEEPLY, want to know! I just want a better insight and understanding, because maybe there is something I am not doing right.

Idk if I am making sense.
Unsure if well explained or not.

Just...
Thought I've found that "perfect" character but, well... Let's just say circumstance changed. One where the option to offer OCs is not available to do. I await a response to see if I can do something. Maybe that could change and I may be able to achieve this character. Idk yet.
So I am just back to the drawing board, browsing once more.
I admittedly feel tired of browsing. It is to the point that I recognize a lot of characters. ( Even made a game for myself. Base on the character's avatar, I go "Bet it has boobs showing out as the full ref" and take a sip of my soda ( I don't do alcohol ) if I got it right. I don't find it bad. Just a lil silly thing for myself, since I see it often )


I understand if you don't read this far. It is a lot and blegh.

Legit had a very short but real dream, where I was selected and got the character I've wanted! In the dream, I went to sleep after getting the character. Once I actually woke up, I've looked through my TH and didn't saw the character. It took a moment, but I've ended up realizing that it was a dream 😭. 

That got me good haha xd.

I did end up adding more onto my offer after my realization qwq. I do still hope to get chosen pwp