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I can't go back. Can't you see? Don't you hear the whispers when they think we aren't listening? You may call me a coward, but I couldn't keep living there. I /had/ to get out. I miss you, I really do. But I don't see why you don't join me. It's freer out here; no borders, no rules, no responsibility. Maybe I'll see you again, when I wander too close to those barren mountains. But for now, I choose to live free.
Why did you do it? What was enough to make you leave your own family? Were we not enough for you? Was I not enough for you? I should have protected you better. I should have protected all of you better. I'm sorry I yelled, I'm sorry I said what I said. Our family is hanging by a thread, we need you. Please come back.
You gave me my life, saved me from the absence of existence. I owe you my life and so much more. I vow to follow you to the ends of the realms and serve as your most loyal servant for everything you gave me. My loyalty shall never falter. I will do anything for you, no matter what. Anything.
You're a very dutiful and brilliant Angel. One of the strongest and most devout. I am thankful to have you, although I wish I could give you more, for I can see how much you miss your family. But I cannot grant you that. For now, your undying loyalty is all I can ask for.
I do indeed in fact had split paths with my brother because of my loyalties to this certain cat. And do you think I've regretted it? No, of course not!
I am the /Yin/, the /Light/, and I believe that what Talonbla- no, Talon/star/'s path is correct and will help us leave the darkness of the leader who had falsely deceived my brother and had done what if wrong to usurp the one who had better charisma than him.
Talonstar is the only true leader within our clan and I will prove my loyalty to her through and through. Killing off Icestar and ripping a scar of trauma from Flowerstar is just the first step of making the clans OBEY, they will bow to the true leader one day and I will stand beneath her, in this big united clan of all, basking in the glory as her rightful deputy instead of the cowardly others who will cower and flee when she is in danger.
I am Striker, whose name came from the glorious StrikeClan, and Talonstar's most faithful and steadfast follower, and her deputy of her alliance who is lawful and true.
You're a mystery to me, and Angel who is afraid of where they came from and who seems to be unsure about their faith in the gods. You're kind, but you always seemed to be afraid to share anything with me, as if it might be taken away from both of us. I hope you're doing okay, and that the realms are treating you well.
I pray you'll understand when I tell you who I am. You're the future, Shezi. The fate of the world lies upon your shoulders, and I will do everything in my power to help you shoulder the burden. But I'm afraid you'll reject it, that you won't see the truth for what it is. You're bright, and you're compassionate, and you're hardworking, and these are all the qualities I hope will lead you down the right path. But you're also so devoted, so loyal and stalwart, I fear you may not want to follow the path I've shown you, but rather continue on the path the gods have carved for you. I just hope when the time comes, you'll make the right choice.
I remember when we used to play together as cubs. Those were wonderful days, and I miss them. I miss you, too, Finn. Life wasn't fair to you. It never gave you a chance, and I can only help but hope that you've done great things since the last time we saw each other, so many years ago.
I wish we had grown up together. You would've been a wonderful brother. I wish we'd had a normal life; I wish you hadn't been taken. The only solace I can find is that Ha'lu is generous and made you an Angel.
May we meet again, Finn. I sure hope I see you, even if it's on my way to the After Realm. You deserve so much more than this. I can only hope you're happy now.
I'm still here, I promise. I'm watching you every day, wishing I could join you in the Early Realm. But it is not so. I wish we could speak again, but we can't. Ha'lu won't allow it; he says it's too dangerous. And I owe my life to him, I owe everything to him. I can't, I won't break my oath.
You don't know what's going on here. You likely never will. I want you to know. You can't know. It's too dangerous for both of us. Ha'lu doesn't want it. I can't want it.
I shouldn’t be grieving. I shouldn’t miss you. I shouldn’t care about you.
I owe everything to Ha’lu. Everything and more.
I can’t do this.
I can’t keep doing this.
You're the best mentor I could ever hope for! You've taught me so much about how to rule and connect with the gods, and are always there when I need help. Although the pressure of having the position so young can be a lot, it was worth it to get to know you so well and train under your guidance. Thank you so much for being there for me when I needed it. I don't know what I would do without you.
Shezi, I couldn't be prouder of you. You're the best apprentice I could ever hope for. You work so hard to make your kingdom and gods happy. You study so much and I can tell how much this means to you, and how much you want to succeed. And you certainly are. You're one of my closest friends, almost like family. And you will be a wonderful Speaker someday. I just hope you're ready for when you finally learn the truth.
I miss you, my dear friend. I cannot express how much I regret what I did, nor how I've acted. We were the closest in childhood; though we weren't related, you were my sister, the only person I could truly call family. The only person who was there for me. All these years, I've wondered what happened to you. You wouldn't go down without a fight, and you certainly didn't. But ever since that fateful day, the day that I made the biggest mistake of my life, I've never heard from you. Perhaps you vanished to the streets of some forgotten town, hidden in the corners of the world. But you wouldn't do that. You wouldn't rest until everyone knew you were right, before everyone could see the change you would forge in the world. Perhaps you're leading a secret rebellion, or aiding the government of a rival nation. Maybe you're even the legendary Storm Rider. But that would mean...I can't believe you're truly a murderer, Dakota. But wherever you are, I hope you're thriving and paving your own path. And although it is probably better we never meet again, some small part of me longs to talk to you. Because I miss you, Dakota. And you have no idea how right you were.
Am I thankful for our time together? Yes. Am I thankful that I met you? Perhaps. Am I thankful for what you did to me? Yes and no. If it weren't for you I wouldn't be where I am, but if it weren't for you, would my life be better? Or worse? You were a great friend, but you were a coward when I needed it most. I've had to claw and scrape my way to the top thanks to you. I hope all your time up in the palace has taught you something, though it's probably made you even more loving of the gods. I'm sure you hate me, the Storm Rider, the legendary pirate who supposedly killed your mentor. The one who wreaks havoc on the kingdom, one that is already suffering from a war. War that I find to be pointless, but why would you listen to me? No, I'm just a rugged street rat who has nothing better to do than defy the gods that are the foundation of our worlds. Maybe someday you'll see the error of your ways, but for now, good riddance.
Voidgaze, oh Voidgaze, you had it coming, really. Did you really think you get away with /defying/ my orders, /abandoning/ your clan, and then having the /audacity/ to try and sneak /kits/ out of the clan? Oh my, no, that just couldn't do! You had it coming; those scars you bear are certainly ones you've owned. But you little rascal, you couldn't stop there, could you? Oh no, you had to wriggle out from beneath my claws and join ANTS, becoming one of my greatest nuisances. And in that fateful battle, /you/ scarred me, /you/ took away half of my sight. And you know what I took away for years of torment? Well, let's just say your paws would only walk among starry grasses from now on.
An eye for an eye. I hate her and I hate everything she stands for. She gave me everything I had and then she took it from me. She hurt me and she killed the child that once existed. I have no shame in what I have done to her. I may be dead but that does not mean I am any less powerful than she believes. When she joins my ranks she will truly see what she has coming. She has not won.
I didn't really knew most of my children, all it happened like a flash past my life and it was all gone in a second. That bastard Rubypelt... if it wasn't about her, my children will all be safe and sound in their individual clans.
Though I wish to see them again, I cannot stop the seed of hate Rubypelt's speech had planted in their minds, and so I will finally let go of their strings, leave them be on their own paths as if I had never bore them ever. After all, Glacierclaw is the ideal father they thought they had, not a sorry excuse of a leader who can't even protect his children and his secrets.
I never knew you, not really. Only glimpses at a Gathering, stolen moments between you and father. You were never there for me, yet your legacy still hung over my head like a circling raven, forever reminding me of who I was supposed to be and who I came from. I left the clans for a reason. I abandoned my home because it never welcomed me because of /you/. I don't wish you well, though I wouldn't say I wish you ill either. I simply hope I never see you again.
nemesis 💪
Tsk... do not speak her name so casually. She's a monster, a wretched beast. She granted this hell forsaken suffix of mine, killed her own twin sister, sent the clans into war— twisted me into the anarchic leader I stand high now.
Reminder, the first SnowClan raid killed my parents, and the Great War killed my best friend Voidgaze. Villains are made, not born... and sometimes I can say the same to Talonstar- she did had a crooked past.
But I will not have mercy on her.
I will hunt her to the ends of StarClan and chase her across the mortal world, until she rots in hell.
Ah, Darkout. The pesky little bugger who keeps getting in my way. Quite unfortunate, really. They just can't see beyond his own whiskers, can't see all the positive change my leadership will bring. /She's/ the reason I no longer lead PounceClan, the reason I was exiled and my name no longer spoken with pride, but whispered in fear. She somehow broke the warrior code, claims /he's/ the righteous one in leading PounceClan despite /never/ being my deputy, and then does /nothing/ for PounceClan, only scraping the ground in subservience to the other, less wonderful clans. And before all that, he led the resistance against me, brought dozens of cats to fight alongside her all to rally against /me/ because all were too short-sighted to see how actually magnificent my plans were. But I too shall have my vengeance someday, I can promise that. And oh, when I do, Darkout will certainly regret /everything/ that they've done to me.
I'm not quite sure yet about Whisperinghearth. She seems like she'll be very useful, so long as her loyalties stay in tact. I'm willing to trust her...for now. Unless she does something incredibly stupid, I'm sure this will work out very well for both of us.
Talonblaze is the greatest cat to set foot in our world. She will change the world, destroying evil, providing good cats the opportunity to live in the light instead of the darkness we are drowning in now.
She is the strongest, fiercest, smartest, and most noble being to ever have taken a breath. I dream of serving her, abetting her in liberating the world.. I dream of meeting her one day... Though.. I am unworthy. I still have much to learn, and I have not proven loyal enough... A truly loyal subject would have succeeded in the things I have not.. A truly loyal subject would have raised an army for her ruler by now.. A truly loyal subject would have defeated Darkout... And would not have fallen prey to her ruler's own weapon.. fear.