I understand that having to give up a lifelong passion because of circumstances is super heartbreaking (ive also been in a semi-similar situation), but I hope you'll be able to one day pursue it again in the future after everything has calmed down, theres always another chance later :) 

But good luck with your studies and finding a sublet for your apartment! I hope the world will be kinder to you in the future <3 keep going!! 

(( i also recieved my shop order not too long ago!! heres a photo ))