people here will literally tear you apart for the smallest things on this website. its awful. so very few people on here are polite and it makes me so upset when people snap at me. im so exhausted with it, honestly... like... talk things out first, don't just snap at people because they don't immediately talk to you the way you want to be talked to... and dont get me started on people being passive aggressive. its just... i dunno... i get treated like crap by everyone in real life, i dont need internet strangers to treat me badly as well.
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i'm dealing w/ my anxiety better when ppl sound stern to me online! but that doesn't mean i still don't feel like throwing up
hell nah im not writing those assignments you dumbass, i got three days left in this hellhole and i dont need that credit. fuck outta here with that bye boo xoxo
Speaking of teeth, kinda wish I was at the dentist rn
Gotta wait until July, unfortunately
This stuff really hurts and restricts what I can eat
Welp, the soup I'm eating right now tasted putrid, but it's probably because I'm eating it on the wrong container.
askhsdkf god maybe this wouldn't have been happening if u didn't do a fuck up in those months ago im so !! up set !
anyway crossing my fingers my time won't be wasted tomorrow in school, im already expecting i will anyway since the management is such a huge mess
Have you ever felt so numb and emotionally exhausted/overwhelmed you just go selectively mute?
I'm feeling that rn. It's not a common thing for me so it has thrown me off a bit.
TW death it was funeral day of an irl friend and I felt pretty much every emotion at some point whilst swinging between complete numbness.
Also it comes to something when I'm so emotionally stunted from people invalidating/trivializing my emotions/or been mocked for being over-emotional when I've been upset by things in the past that in the service I have to sit there and scold myself with let yourself feel for once in your life when I caught myself trying to resist crying. Tbh it's the first time I've really been able to process it because I both times I found out the bad news I was going back to work in 5 mins so I had to shove it deep in a box in the back of my mind and forget about it. My cabin mate was super supportive when I told them what was going on in case I seemed off later but it's always awkward and uncomfortable dealing with heavy emotions in front of others. Admittedly I've kept it locked in that box after my Easter contract because I'm already fighting myself enough with the am I over-reacting AGAIN or is this a reasonable reaction? bullshit and I've been dealing with some confusing emotions I've felt pretty guilty for in relation to this that I didn't really want to add to the mess.
It was nice seeing some good friends I haven't seen for a while though I just wish it'd been under better circumstances.