Kaname

Kaname Tousei
ENFP | AMAB Male | Pansexual
Age: 24 years old
DoB: May 12, 198x (Taurus)
Height: 6’3” (190cm)
Japanese, French

APPEARANCE
♦ Kaname is 6'3" (~192cm) and a bit of a beefcake. He has a long face/head, straight nose, and rounded, ovular eyes. He has several body moles: over heart (below left collarbone), lower right of his bellybutton, right side of his right ankle near the bone, the back of the lower-left side of his neck, two on his lower-left back diagonal to each other with the one on top and closer to his side being smaller, and one near his right shoulder blade. He has large, square-shaped hands with thick fingers. He has no body hair aside from pubic hair and doesn’t grow facial hair.

PERSONALITY
♦ Kaname is a compassionate person. He tends to care more for other people than for himself, which often leads to self-sacrificing situations and concealing his own emotions and problems to avoid troubling/bring down someone else. He likes to make people feel happy and safe even in situations where he himself feels neither. He has no mean bone in his body, and he will hilariously fail if he attempts to be rude, as if it physically hurts him to insult, offend, or generally hurt other people. He believes everyone deserves redemption no matter how terrible they are or how much they clearly can’t change/aren’t willing to change. In addition, he tends to trust people far too easily, as if he doesn’t truly understand how bad other people can be. This naiveté results in him frequently being taken advantage of or otherwise getting into trouble.

♦ He loves love and has a need to be loved, which he ironically has a tendency to fail at. Due to the complications of his upbringing he tends to substitute sex for love, resulting in many purely-physical relationships where his partner has no desire to give him the time of day if they’re not having sex. He gets lonely easily if he’s not getting tons of affection and deep conversations, sometimes coming across as overly clingy due to being repressed in terms of romantic and friendly interactions. He considers sexual intimacy to be important but not the most important, and can get scared if he thinks his partner is more interested in having sex with him than anything else (or if they only like him for his looks). He’s a huge lovey-dovey sap in and out of a relationship, although he only acts this way towards a lover if he’s comfortable around them and can trust that they won’t get annoyed. In these situations he likes to be touching the person he loves in some way as often as he can get away with it, be it hand-holding or holding them from behind or messing with their hair or something. If he can trust them a lot he’s much less likely to avoid seeking comfort in them, showing his emotions, or bringing up problems with the relationship. He likes most romantic stuff like rose petals, silk, candlelight, wine, the stars, etc.

♦ Kaname is generally pretty mature, preferring to act his age rather than indulge in things “youthful people” are into. He has an interest in settling down, getting married, starting a family, having a stable job, etc. He is also incredibly clueless about things younger people like and a lot of his interests seem old man-ish or boring to such people. He likes jazz, opera, and folk music the most. He spends a lot of his freetime reading, watching terrible dramas/soap operas, exercising, or relaxing while doing generally nothing. He likes to spend time with company so he’ll do these things with someone nearby (or in his lap, for the lazier hobbies) as much as possible. He enjoys art but knows next to nothing about it, and can be easily impressed. He likes cute things, like puppies and rabbits, and his favorite color is pink. He wants to have multiple dogs as pets one day, preferrably really cuddly but playful, non-aggressive breeds.

♦ He has impossibly perfect sleeping habits; he always sleeps eight hours, with a tendency to wake up early in the morning. He doesn’t snore or hog covers or whatever, he kind of just remains in one position and never moves–however if he’s sleeping alone and someone lays down next to him he will indiscriminately spoon them and good luck getting out of that iron grip. This also means that if he sleeps near someone, he will either start off spooning/cuddling them before falling asleep, or it will just happen as soon as he’s fully asleep. He is absolutely a morning person and looks near-flawless when waking up, with his hair only a little messy. He’s incredibly difficult to wake up, if not generally impossible to rouse.

♦ He loves dogs and rabbits.

BACKGROUND
♦ Kaname's parents were never very compatible and their marriage is based on lies; his mother is a sociopath. She cheats on her husband constantly, and basically only married him because he's super fun to mess with and has no backbone. His father is just really guillible. His father didn't really figure out how truly horrible his wife is until after Kaname was born and had no visible traits linking him as his child, but looked suspiciously similar to one of his mother's coworkers (like their matching eye colors).

♦ (Abuse tw) His father had invasive thoughts of killing Kaname as an infant enough that he almost went through with it several times. This involved a lot of "maybe if I just pretend he doesn't exist he'll starve to death or choke and suffocate" which he eventually recognized as monstrous thoughts, and would go into a guilty apologetic spoiling period. Before long he would go back to thinking of Kaname as this big symbol of everything that went wrong in his life and wanting to get rid of him and the cycle continues. For the most part, he neglected Kaname, not wanting to deal with him at all. As Kaname got older and started walking and (just barely) talking, he would naturally want more attention, being not only a tiny baby child but an extroverted, lonely one at that. However, his father just lost more and more patience with age and would snap at Kaname to leave him alone and just go play by himself or Kurenai.

♦ His older sister, Kurenai, unfortunately took after her mother and messed with Kaname in a similar way that their mother messed with their father (abusively, not sexually). (Bullying tw/suicial text) She would behead his toys or hang them by their necks and tell Kaname they all killed themselves because they hate Kaname so much. She told him their parents hated him and their father wasn’t actually his father, that their mother cheated and Kaname was a bastard child and a mistake. She convinced him that nobody loved him and he was incapable of love. Among other things.

♦ His mother was usually either anywhere but at home, or she just came home to eat/sleep/have sex with a random guy to taunt her husband. He knew her so little that in present day he can't remember what she looked like, or sounded like, more than the obvious (black hair--which is more of an educated guess, considering both him and his sister have black hair, so it's like "I mean she...probably had black hair? I think I remember that"). And, no, he didn't escape ever having to hear (or see) his mother fucking some random guy. He didn't escape seeing the same of his older sister, either (actually, he saw that so often that it stopped being weird eventually). Thankfully his dad couldn't get laid to save his life, so there was none of that to walk in on. He does remember that his mother was cruel, though. Unusually cruel.

♦ After a certain age, his father used Kurenai as a babysitter so he could avoid being at home more, and then when Kurenai moved out with little warning he decided Kaname could take care of himself, probably.

♦ They were lower-middle class, in the way that they looked put together to outsiders but were actually struggling. They couldn't afford to buy Kaname many toys as a child or anything else that was fun as he got older. Kaname managed to borrow a VCR and some tapes from a neighbor and used that to pass time, which is what got him into watching so many movies all the time. He always liked the romance ones and disliked the ones that were too violent, like action movies or horror movies--he was fine with fantasy stuff with violence so long as it had any sort of air of romance to it--meaning that it's lovey-dovey and/or that it's dreamy/beautiful. Another consequence of being poor and having neglectful parents means that he either ate poorly-cooked bullshit at his house (he was never good at cooking) or discreetly found a way to eat somewhere else for free, not in a terribly moochy/greedy sort of way but in a "they serve free lunch at school" or "that guy asked me on a date and I'm hoping he'll buy me dinner (cuz I can't afford to pay half)" sort of way.

♦ (NSFW) When he was young (around ten, give-or-take two years) a much older, but still underage girl propositioned him for sex, which he didn't really understand beyond "why is my mom wrestling naked with that strange man" so he went with it. As someone who didn't have many friends at school (they all thought he was a suck-up, but actually, he's just really nice all the time and also starved for attention) and who doesn't get any attention from his family (his home is usually empty, or the people there refuse to acknowledge him) he really enjoyed someone paying attention exclusively to him for awhile. It didn't really matter so much that sex felt great as that he got attention from people by doing it. So he kept doing it, albeit with people more his age (consensually, of course--and they were always a little older than him, up until sex became more common an activity amongst his age group). In high school, he was essentially the school's ~prince~, especially considering puberty hit him like a ton of sexy bricks and everyone really wanted a piece. Most or all of his relationships were either fully sexual, or involved a partner who knew he had romantic tendencies but that he was still easy to bed so they would trick him into thinking what they had was romantic. A lot of his partners broke up with him for being "too clingy" (physically, like too much physical affection), which was either completely true because he's repressed and just generally lovey-dovey or an exaggeration because they didn't want him touching them non-sexually at all.

♦ In his last year of high school he dated a pretty, large-breasted blonde girl who acted all lovey-dovey with him and everything seemed super ideal, until he walked in on her cheating on him. Then when he was understandably upset, she mocked him, parroted a bunch of his own insecurites back at him, then dumped him. It pretty much destroyed him so he stopped dating and got super depressed for awhile, kind of disappearing socially out of a sudden fear that no one wanted him around. Considering that it wasn't until then that he truly realized everyone had been using him and lying to him for years, well, I think it was due time for a breakdown

♦ (Abuse tw) Not to mention that around the same time, his drunk father (who drinks when he's angry, as his only way to deal with it) hit him pretty much unprovoked due to some mess of thoughts and emotions going on in his head and Kaname was in the wrong place at the wrong time. Literally all that happened was Kaname spoke to him, like a "hey, you look drunk, are you okay" and Kaname's presense/voice pissed his father off I guess. Kaname immediately ran away and hid in his room (to cry) while his dad went into guilt-mode

♦ So Kaname eventually more-or-less broke out of feeling sorry for himself, got several jobs (which he wasn't great at, at first) and saved up money to leave France. He went to Hokkaido and lived alone in an apartment for awhile. With no one knowing him there, he could start dating without anyone knowing that he's "easy to bed" and they could take him seriously. It was still difficult for him as someone who had never known romantic love, so he would always just date whoever was interested and that he thought was nice and pretty, but it was smoother sailing in general. He kept in contact with his sister every now and then but contacted no one else from France.

♦ During his stay in Hokkaido, he worked three jobs and barely had any time to himself; while this was difficult for him, he told himself it didn't matter because he was fully capable of socializing on the job, which was all he needed, really. He grew close with all the locals, who considered him to be like the town darling--everyone was quite fond of him, even those who usually weren't fond of anyone. He was friends with all of his coworkers, and brought additional traffic to certain jobs just because people knew he would be there, and wanted a chance to talk to him or even just to look at him.

♦ It was in this way that he met Kyouya, a man infamous around town for being an extremely off-putting recluse. Kyouya refused to get close with anyone, and never remembered anyone's names or faces; he went out of his way to make sure he'd never so much as be acquainted with anyone at all, by refusing to pay attention and acting as awful as possible, so no one wanted to even try to get close to him. However, Kaname's first exposure to him resulted in Kaname finding him so stunningly beautiful and attractive that he fell in love immediately. He became somewhat fixated on him and went out of his way to make sure Kyouya would notice him, talk to him, and formulate a positive opinion of him. It wasn't very easy at all, and Kyouya initially responded with hostility. Eventually, Kyouya warmed up to him, and they became tentative friends; Kyouya knew full well that Kaname had a crush on him, as Kaname wasn't secretive about it at all. However, Kyouya was terrified of entering into another relationship, too wary to find Kaname's "nice guy act" trustworthy, despite the fact that once he actually decided to pay attention and memorize Kaname's face and name, he was hit with the realization that Kaname is, physically, exactly his type. This resulted in feelings of lust that Kyouya didn't know what to do with--so he did his best to pretend they didn't exist in the first place.

♦ After a period of friendship laced with the occassional non-platonic interaction, Kyouya agreed to let them start dating, and Kaname dedicated all of his free time to making sure he was giving Kyouya plenty of attention. The start of their romantic relationship was incredibly slow, with Kyouya having a warped perception of romance and Kaname being too afraid of being perceived as pushy or clingy. Eventually they managed to sit down and have a talk about this, which resulted in a much steadier pace of progression for their relationship. Desite their inital fears of disaster or rejection, the two got along exceptionally well, agreeing or peacefully agreeing to disagree on almost everything; they rarely fought, and when they did, it was always small and quickly resolved. They became so comfortable with each other that it became easier and easier to discuss any issue they were having, and it served to make their bond even stronger. Kaname was always attentive to Kyouya's needs, and Kyouya did his best to do the same in return.

♦ Not long into their relationship, Kaname received a modelling contract for an agency in North America. Not wanting to be apart, Kyouya immediately agreed to move to North America with him, and they bought a house together. This new period of cohabitation was surprisingly easy to get used to; both men were quiet and respectful of the other's space, easily agreeing to split responsibilities. Kaname's agreeable attitude frequently had Kyouya becoming suspicious that he might be lying, an unfortunate issue that took them years to resolve.

♦ Not long into their new residency in North America, Kaname met his then-boyfriend's younger twin brother, Kyou, entirely on accident, as the former has a tendency to enter his friends and family's homes without knocking first. Kyouya had been tight-lipped about his past and his family until that point, so Kaname had absolutely no idea that Kyouya was a twin. Kyou, also, had no idea that Kyouya had a boyfriend, much less a long term one that he was living with, and became instantly jealous, unable to deal with his anti-social twin's sudden discovery of human companionship outside of his once-close relationship with his brother. Kyou was initially hostile of Kaname's existence and made attempts to sabotage him and his relationship with Kyouya, something that Kyouya didn't consider a huge deal until it nearly had Kaname break down into tears. Kyouya then confronted his brother, resulting in a very loud argument that ultimately had Kyou feeling guilty and childish. After a period of silence, Kyou eventually apologized to Kaname. Kaname forgive him immediately, much to his surprise, and the two became friends after realizing their mutual love of music. Kyou also, unbeknownst to Kaname, developed a crush on Kaname that went away on its own after about a month, maybe less.

♦ About two years into his relationship with Kyouya, Kaname started making plans to propose. He had a set of amethyst bands custom made, with engravings on the inside in French and Japanese. He spent months planning the perfect date for Kyouya, putting together all of Kyouya's favorite things into one perfect day, essentially spoiling him all day out of nowhere. Kyouya never suspected what was actually going on, although he was slightly confused as to why Kaname was putting in so much effort on a day that seemingly had no significance to either of them. At the end of the night, Kaname took Kyouya stargazing; in a nice secluded spot atop a hill, with a blanket spread out like a picnic. While Kyouya was distracted, Kaname slid a ring onto his finger, and when Kyouya turned around, surprised, Kaname asked Kyouya to marry him. Kyouya's reaction was to stare in shock, then burst into tears, which Kaname didn't expect at all. He immediately assumes he's done something wrong. Kyouya apologizes, which scares Kaname, until Kyouya clarifies that it's just an apology for crying and then asks about Kaname's ring. Kaname pulls out his own ring and Kyouya immediately takes it out of his hand and slides it onto Kaname's finger. He kisses Kaname's knuckles and, still crying, says yes.

♦ Kaname returns to Lyon (France) later on for his wedding, excited to show Kyouya around his hometown. There they stay in a fancy hotel and go on various dates to all of Kaname's favorite spots. Unfortunately, Kaname's family is still in Lyon; his older sister, Kurenai, somehow manages to learn of his arrival, and makes a spontaneous visit to his hotel room. She acts buddy-buddy with Kaname, who isn't suspicious, but wary of her. She then attempts to sabotage Kaname's engagement by trying to seduce Kyouya, but gives up after discovering that he's gay and moves on to doing her best to make Kaname look bad. She doesn't succeed in any way, as Kyouya trusts Kaname far more than her.

♦ Later, while the happy couple is busy on a cafe date, Kaname receives a phone call from is mother, who had received his information from Kurenai. He is visibly distressed and initally hangs up on her in a panic, only for her to call again; Kyouya watches on with concern as Kaname stiffly attempts to navigate his way through a conversation with his mother. In the end, he gets roped into a dinner date with his family, who supposedly are excited about the engagement and wish to meet Kaname's fiance. While he clearly doesn't want to go, he's afraid of making things worse as well as too kind to disobey his own mother. Kyouya agrees to go, wanting to be there for moral support. Once they arrive at Kaname's childhood home, they discover that Kaname's parents have been divorced for years, but neglected to inform him. His mother now lives alone, but spends most of her time with her various lovers. During the entirety of the visit, his mother does her best to be as passive agressive as possible, attempting to subtly dissuade both of them from getting married and bullying Kaname, which he does nothing about. Kyouya just gets more and more furious as the visit goes on, constantly checking on Kaname to see if he's okay, and when it seems like Kaname's about to cry or have an anxiety attack or something Kyouya snaps and tells Kaname's mother off, insulting her cruelty and insensitivity and generally calling her a subhuman waste of space, which she, irritatingly, finds incredibly amusing. Kyouya then grab's Kaname's hand and leaves with him in tow, going off on a rant about Kaname's family (the members he's met so far, that is) as they head back to their hotel. Before then, though, Kaname stops walking, causing Kyouya to turn to check on him and seeing Kaname's face covered in tears. He assumes it's something he's done, and apologizes profusely for yelling, for getting angry, for being forceful in dragging him out of the house, generally clamours around him trying to comfort him. Kaname eventually manages to tell him that he's not upset with Kyouya, but that no one's ever stood up for him before, and it overwhelmed him as well as made him incredibly happy.

EXTRA

♦ Kaname's favorite flower is pink carnations.
♦ Kaname's favorite musical genre is jazz.
♦ His favorite animal is rabbits, secondarily dogs.
♦ His deepest fear is loneliness and dying alone, secondarily he fears sexual assault.
♦ His favorite color is pink, specifically baby pink.

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RELATIONSHIPS
♦ Kyouya → Lovers. Married and cohabiting. Been together for three years.
♦ Kyou → Friends by association with Kyouya.
♦ August → Friends.
♦ Soprano → Former sex friends.