Just wanted to explain my pfp change and give a life update because I ramble a lot and I like having people listen. I won't be replying much, though. Just let me talk to the void again.

I don't really want to keep my pfp with B-skin Eyes from Nuclear Throne for now since it seems to affect me mentally when I work here (I think a slight switch happens for me? I act more similar to a headmate of mine because of what is basically my face here. Just noting I'm plural real quick for context, though- Alex. is still here but he doesn't need that pfp anymore. I'm still Alex.).

I'm doing a lot better since I took a break from this site. I popped in every now and then but god, I'm doing a lot, lot better. Though I still have trauma moments, where stuff similar to the main trauma happens. But I'm learning to deal with them a lot better, I'm finally going to therapy, and I soon plan to start being active on social media so people can see my works. I decided I want to post stuff but I keep deciding what I wanna do. 

Right now, wanna be a gamedev, artist, and maybe either a writer or someone who makes scripts with Ren'py, releases them, and lets fans complete them or look through the script and imagine the story that way since I don't have the time or energy to finish more than writing the script/code. Its fun for me and right now, learning about Ren'py is probably a hyperfixation. 

I also want to host maps (multi-animator projects. not the other type of map) often once I grow more of an audience to have people collab and actually just, I guess create stuff for me to help tell my stories that way. I'll host ones that are general maps for people to draw their own ocs and stuffies too, though. Don't worry. I think I might be good with organizing projects (but no one actually finishes them besides me) and I have ideas on how to set up a discord server to make the process more...streamline and maybe automatic? (like, I can go on about this forever. Mainly custom Carl-bot commands and auto-posting to help with the participants with being reminded to do parts, to remind of deadlines, to have commands to check on what parts need done, etc!) But this is a long, long ways away. But just thinking about the discord thing makes me happy and even explaining stuff does too!

I'll be making a post in the forum to ask for help again. Mostly with actually doing social media stuff. I had a plan for Twitter but what the actual living fuck is going on with the algorithm? I just started with that one because I knew what to do there and I have no idea what to do with Insta (but my friend offered to help so I'm really, REALLY thankful for them! I love them /platonic) and other sites. What else is there besides Twitter, Insta, and Tumblr to post art and stuff? I wanna know. I prefer being out of the loop like this. Less things to cause anxiety attacks. Downside is that I don't know what's trendy anymore. But eh, who cares? Got my own problems. Kinda miss never being into stuff a lot like how I used to and I can't really make friends anymore, though.

So yeah. Life is getting a lot better. This account won't be used much, however. It's just going to be here, storing old stuff until the site dies. And if I want to be active here again, which I kinda want to, it will just be for doing simple things in the forums and sharing stuff about ocs for easy access for others. I still really don't trust this site since there's still only one admin after three years...and little to no updates (man, were the update fun to witness, though.) and the freezing thing is a massive, massive yikes.

Thanks for reading through this. I don't know how much of this is gonna happen. Plans never work exactly how I wish at all. But I'm thankful you took the time to read this update and that you're still somehow here. Thank you.

Edit: Will post the fourm thread here for anyone who's interested once I post it.

Edit #2: Done. :)