Arnika Lenoxe's Links
i thinnk i reallly luckkedd outt with thiss onne,,, y'knoww? i donn't knnow whhat i did to desservve himm,, but MAN,,, amm i reallly glad thatt i havvve him. he's so dreeamy and sweeet to mee and,,, wowww... hhhow wass i so luccky? i reallyy gotttaa say, he's the lightt of my liife,, no punnn intenndedd, haha. wissh i werree inn hiss armms rightt noww,,,
#m, Arnika? W#at d* y*u want me t* say ab*ut my baby? I c*uld wax p*etic all nig#t ab*ut #*w muc# #e means t* me and #*w muc# I l*ve #im, but I'd rat#er save t#at f*r a r*mantic serenade just between us tw*. #e's s* sweet, #e'll pr*bably t#ink it's t#e c#eesiest t#ing ever, w#ic# means t#at #e'll abs*lutely l*ve it. I kn*w #*w #is brain w*rks, believe me. It *nly makes me l*ve #im all t#at muc# m*re.
girl, she is soooo wwackyyy. likkke i knoww. i alrrreadyy KNOWW that valces prrrobbabbly hass thisss girrlll on speeed dialll to disssolllve mmy bodyy ifff they evverrr finnd mme in a ditchh sommewwherrre. nnottt that therrre's annyythinng wwronng withh thhattt,, i guessss,, annd he ssurrre asss helll finnds herrr depennndabble,, buttt i cann't reallly seeemm to gettt herrr. sommethinng abbouttt the wayyy she smmillles jusst a litttllle toooo wwide wwhenn it commes to dooinng sommethinng so... danngerrrouss. diffferennt strokesss ffor diffferrrent folllkss,, i guesss.
He's a well-connected guy!! As hte sayign geos, an enemy-freind of my enemy-freind is my freind-enemy. I'm not sure how "past" wuold hcagne hte sentence so I'm not gonna try. But anyway I like his baenei! And his hiar! And his drugs. (grin)
okiiie-dokiiie,, friennd,, comminng rrright upp. heeree yyouu gooo,, thiss sshoullld ddo the trickkk forrr yya. takke somme of thisss whennevverrr the existennntiallismm settts in too mmmuch,, butt bee carrreful,, and donn't sayyy thhat you didnn't asssk forr itt!
Just take me the fuck out, man. Just take me the fuck out. I don't want to have this pan anymore.
ohh yeeah,, ghosst man!!! he'ss got like,,, hiss whollle schtickk goinn on. verry spooookyy. i think it's ffunn,,, buut i also gottta sayy thaat doingg runs to someone'ss hivve is a lott weirderrr when you knoww wherre theyy livve but not what theyyy loook likke. i don't reallllly carre thoughh,, he'ss cooool enoughh. boooooooo,,,, hahaha
so mayyybe this mmmmakes me like a rrreallly a badd person orr sommethinng like thattt but i totalllly want tto ggrrab zilants taail and shhhaake it really harrrd. and it wwould lllikkke- ratttllll- ohhhhhhh my godd pllleasee nevvver telll himmm i said thattt. plllease. ohhh i regrret sayyinnng that so mmuch. goddd, i am tooo high for thisss...
I'm not kidding when I §ay thi§ guy i§ EVERYWHERE. I think Ra§ know§ him. And like§ him??? It'§ wild, I think he'§ ju§t one of tho§e guy§. Generally get§ along with everyone. But uh, I've caught him §taring at my tail on like three §eparate occa§ion§. Maybe he i§n't u§ed to mutation§ like the§e...
rastaddd seeemms like a coool guy but he also seeemms like he ddoesnt want to have a converrrsationn with youuu. which kind of leads to me not tallking to him which is kinnnd of sad because as ssstated he's a cool guy. i wish theyyyyd let dowwn theirrr walls a litttle, it doessn't hurrrt to let rrregular people stannnd a channnce for onnce. mayyybe i don't know anythinng though, haahha.
IF I'M BEING HONEST- WHICH IS A RARITY, AHLL THESE BASTARDS REQUIRE YOU TO LIE TO THEIR FACE EVERY NIGHT- ARNIKA IS THE ONE TROLL WHO SEEMS TO HAHVE HIS HEAD SQUARELY ON HIS SHOULDERS. HE COULD USE A STYLE UPGRADE AND A HAIRCUT, BUT THAT'S NONE OF MY BUSINESS, DAHLIN, JUST A SUGGESTION. HE KNOWS HOW TO PLAY THE CROWD ONE PERSON AT A TIME, BUT NOT IN A DANGEROUS WAY. AS LONG AS HE STAYS OUT OF MY TURF, I DON'T CAHRE. I DON'T PAHRTAKE ANYWAYS, IT DOESN'T DO MUCH FOR ME.
i'mm not quite sssure howww i gott stuckk with ammadis as a frrriennd buut i haave to sssay that it's beennn a lott of funn so i'mmm not parrrticularrrly conncernned with unnnstickinnng mysellf fromm himm annnytimmme sooon, so to speeaak. we 'mmake somme very good ennterrrtainninng nnonnsennse together', ass he lllikess to say- anndd 'teee beee hayyych' i havvve to agreee with himmm.
"lol, arnika is mmy bro!! we've been super tight ever since we were like, grubs, he's super cool, and totally has his shit together. or at least looks like it and is really good at hiding it LMMAO. jeez, there are so mmany things i could say about himm... hes always reliable and pulls through for ya, he sticks w you til the end if he likes you enough, and hes just a good guy overall. for all his being an idiot sommetimmes hes pretty bright and knows how to not die. kinda a wonder of nature LOL."
kaesey's sssso fuckinnngg wwackkk becausse i'mm pretttyyy sure he's the onnly onne ouut off allll of my clienntsss that knowws wheeree to get harrrderrr drrugss thann i doo. not evvennn gonnnaa lllie, it'ss a lllitttlle sscarrryy annd i donnt eeveenn wwannt to knnoww wwhat kinnd of connnectionnss he's gottt up hisss sleeevvee. it's a littttllle worrryyinng, i feeell like the guyy's gonnnaa get himmsellf somme unnwwannted attttenntttion annd wwon't realllizze it unntilll it's tooo late... the bussinesss mmight be goood, but i donn't thinnk it's wworth this guy'ss lifee.
awww yeah, jhawce isss a steaddy custommerr and a chillll asss girrlll. i haave somme limmits on mmy trannsacctions but she doesnnn't trrry to push mmee on mmmine llike somme other purrppless wwould. she gggets that i have only a certain ammount of risssk i cannn take onn before it gets tooo dannngerrous. not a lot of your custommers- essspecialllly those of hiiigher casstess- do all the time. so it's nnnice to seee sommeone who's different from the rest.
uzkaea cann pretennd to bee sicck of mme allll theyy wannt, butt itss unndeniable that ourrr hanngouuts are maddd sicck, yyo. yy'knoww, theyy knoww what'ss up, i knoww what'ss uppp, and it's alll goood whenn we're toggetherrr. they'rrre allways ssooo 'busy' doinng likke, llliteralllly nnothinng mmann, annd i thinnk ifff it wwass uppp to themm theyy'ddd prrrobbabblly neverrr talllk to annotherrr perrsonnn in theirrr lifffe, so it's prrrobbabbly bettterrr forrr themm that i'mm att leasst feeedinng themm a deccennt sssourcce of ssocccial innterrractionn, rrright??? i cann't bee the crrrazzyy onne heeree.
"he makes me 'hang out' with him on the grounds that 'were both lowbloods in the weeds who need to let loose, man'. i suppose hes not entirely wrong about it but his hangouts usually involve one or both of us getting trashed and then he stays over for the day. i think arnika is the only guy who can get me to actually get to sleep and it's only because of the drugs. and it keeps happening. and im not sure why i keep letting him come over but i guess i dont have much say in the matter anymore since were 'friends' now. at least hes fun to play games with- the only half decent person whos picked up a controller on the same couch as me."
the funnniesstt thinng to do wwith keenan iss to bbeatt himm at his owwnn gamme- llliterralllly. likkke. just get himm realllly highh wwhen he's terrribllle at video games annd thenn beat his asss ovverrr and ovverrr. he gets so tilted, it's acctualllly the funnniest thinng ever. thenn he gets evvenn wworse 'cause he's ttillltted annd high asss sshit. sommetimmes he getss ssso emmotionalll that he borrrderrrlinne has tooo stop himmselfff fromm throwing a tanntrrrumm. thannk god therrre's nevverrr beeen a cammeraa filmminng wwhenn we hanng out, beccaussse hisss chat woullld nevverrr evvverrrrr let himm livve it dowwnn.
let me get one thing straight- every time- EVERY TIME- this man has beaten me at mario kart- i have been inebriated- do you know what that means? it means that every time- EVERY TIME- he has beaten me- it DIDN'T COUNT- because i was intoxicated- mostly because of him!!!- how is that supposed to be an even playing field- at all- so i don't want to hear- from him or from you- about how- 'hes better than the number one player'- because i know you're lying- he knows you're lying- and you know you're lying- so STOP FLOODING CHAT GUYS-
yyouu gett ttto seee a lott of peopllle inn mmy linnne of worrkkk- it's rrrealllly kinnd of innevvitabble ssincce halllf of mmy godddammnn job iss custommerr serrrvvicce. ijekki is onne of the ppeopple wwho givves me a rrreasonn to nevverrr quit thiss jobbb. himm and people likkke himm nneeed mmy helllp- it's nnot asss if otherrrs onn thiss plllannet arrre willlinng to givve himm a hannd, annd thherrre's nno telllinng thattt he'dd takke it, eiitherrr. i donn't blamme himm forrr it.
vaniya is vverrry coooll annd vverry scarryyy. i asssumme she wwoullld bee ggladd to hearr thattt, beecaausee sshe tenndss to laughhh vverry louddllly wwhen i sayy thossse sorrrtts off thinngs arrrounnd herrr. i donn't spennd anny mmore timme in herrr quarrterrr thann i havve to, annd its nnot jussstt 'causse the docckks arrre a terrribllle pllaccce to bee forr a greeenblooodd. i donn't haavve annythinng aggainnst herrr inn parrrtticularrr, it's honnesstly jusst mmorrre of a grrripee wwith wwhere she livves. cann't wwin 'emm allll!
it's offfficiall; savron gets mmy stonnerrr carrd wwhenn i die. iff therres annyyonne who actualllyy trulyy gennuinelyy nneeeds weeed onnn thiss godddammnn hellll plllannet, it's himm. mmanns is sssoo annxiouus thatt he'ddd prrrobbabblyyy spponntanneouslllyy immplodde if he trrried to rrawwdogg life forrr lonngerrr thann 24 hourrrs. it's okkayy dduddde, wwe'vve allll beeenn therre beforrre. hanng in therrre, yyeah?
so i knnewww thiss guyyy beforre he got 'fammous' or whattevverrr rrightt annd he wwas onne of mmy rrregullarrrs for a hot ssecconnd befforrre dropppinng offff the faccce of the plllannet. i was alll lllike 'welll sshuckss guessss the drrronnes gott himm' but thenn hee texxtss mme bacckk twooo wweeeks laterrr annd goes 'i just wwonn Ssurrrvivorrr, doess that get mme a disscounnnt on mmy weeed?' LMAO the nerve!!! i told himm nno but ddidd let himm havve a nice hanngouut onn the houusse, if yyouu catchh mmy driffft.
frriends iin *highh* plaacess, yeaah? orr sommethinng lllike that anyywayys... LOL,, emmerrie is chilll, doesnn't get mme killedd eitherrr,, so,,, we're chill. she hass mme lisstenn tto herr musicc sometimmes, annd it's prretty goodd, dont gget me wrronnng, butt,, iunnno, it kinnda jussst seeems to mme likee shee hass nno friennds. kinnda a bummmer, butt oh welll. wwe alll copee.
I honestly don't know where I'd be without him. Learned about Arnika through a friend of a friend of a friend, you know the whole Deal. He's a great guy. Very personable. Treats me like I'm normal. It's all strictly Under the table, of course. The public has their guesses but me and him have never been 'seen' together, I've been very Careful about maintaining my image. I've probably said too much here, even
mmmm yeahh i rememberr valces... love that guy! likee, shhit dude, doo youu knowww how CRAZY it iss to bee able to justt telll yourr best friend 'i wannnt shit that willl mmake us seee god' and then he can jusst. mmmake it? like that is fuckinnn' crazy. crazy! i donnt regrrret our 'business venture', although i havve to sayyy i amm mmmuch mmore successssful on my owwn. hes freee to commme overrr and hanng at annnyy tiiime tho. i jusst havent seen him around recentllyyy, just fate i guesss.
BOY OH BOY DO 1 HAVE SOMEWHAT M1XED FEEL1NGS ABOUT TH1S MAN. HE'2 WONDERFUL. AMAZING. F4NT4STIC. BUT HE DOE5N'T... KNOW HIS LIMITS. WHICH, 7O BE FAIR, I DON'7 REALLY KNOW EI7HER, BU7 7HA7'S WHA7 MAKES ARNIKA A LI77LE BI7 7OO MUCH. HE JUMPS INTO EVERYTHING HEADFIRST WITHOUT THINKING A8OUT THE CONSEQUENCES. IT'S WHY I STOPPED DOIN9 BUSINESS WITH HIM, ALTHOU9H I'LL ADMIT IT WAS ONE OF THE BEST TIMES OF MY LIFE. I MISS HIM S0METIMES, BUT THAT'S AB0UT THE EXTENT I'M WILLIN T0 G0 D0WN THAT PATH. 1 RESPECT H1M, 1 GUESS, BUT NOT ENOUGH TO SEE 1F GETT1NG 1NVOLVED AGA1N W1LL GET US K1LLED.
not even gonnna lie iff i had to ddeallll withh hhhalf of the stresss in my life asss waynnen, i woulld gett to knowww a guy likkke me tooo. can't reallly faullt anyone for that, y'know? but thhhey gottta gget by, annd theyy'vee founnddd theirrr wwayyy offf doinn' it. proppps to themm, yo.
be honnest with meee, forr rrrealll; iss it sso wrrronng to wwant to sscrrittch the topp of theirrr headd? rrright betweeenn the horrrns? i guessss sso sinccce thatss pretttty texxxtbook objecctifccationnn and detrollllmannnizinng behaaviorrr,, but stillll... ssshe's a cattt! i wannna sscritchhh! goddd i hopppe i didnnnt yelll that as llllloudly ass i thought i didddd.
i thinnk its morre accurate to sayy that i knoww 'of' him,, yknow? like, i see himm around, i tallk to him, but we're not... friends? i guesss? plus the onlly timmes i everr have any sorrt of substantial conversationn with him is whenn i'm baked as shit,, sommetimes i offfer buut hes a squaree for the most parrt,, so,,, yeah, not muchh of a relationship therre,, suckks if youu wanted gosssip ig lol
ohhh my godddd randel. did yoou knnnow thatt he givess the bessst hugs?? bet'chhaaa ddidn't. he'ss actuallly one of the best guyys i knoww, and i'm not saying that because he lletss me hannng with him, i'm sayinnn' that because it'ss truue. he neeeds to bbe a bit bettter about knowwwing hhis limitts, but tthats why i hanggg. 'cause i knoww howww to brinng him back down. we chillll.
solid guy, he's got good shit. i make sure to tip him.
i actualllly thinnk its realllly coooll jusst howww varrried thhe 'unnderrrgrrrounnd ssubsstanncce nnetwworrrk' rreallly isss. letss yyouu get a realll goood loook at allll the difffferrrennt paths yyouu cann gooo dowwnn innn thisss linne off worrrk. it allsso mmeanns thattt i'vve gott a lott off conntactsss heeree annd there; yyouu gotttta knowww wherrre thhe safe routesss arrre, donn't wannt to steppp onn otherr peopllle's toes, yy'knnowww? shieru is onne off the peoppllle whoo helllps mme outt- weee loook out forrr each otherr, inn a wwayy.
ohh, yeah? you knowww herr? mmmmm, she's gott some gooood background noise recommmendationnns. therre's this one podcasst she turnned me ontoo... i like to listenn to it whiiile i'mmm workingg on my two-wheeeeleedded deviice or whateverrr. i'll share it with you if you gimmmmmie your palmhusk reaaaal quickk. yeeeaap! here itt is. ennjoy!
ttwwoo greenblooodds with sommme wiillld substannce abuse issssues both happpen to be some of the greatest people knowwn by theirrr resspectivve friend groups? haha, yeah, ssoundsss about parrrr for the coursse 'roumnddd theeese parts. i seee baijiu arounnnd at parrrties and... not mmmuch annywwherre ellse. eh. to eaaach thheir owwwwwnn, i guessss...