hi guys ahgui hi

may is a very busy month for me but i will try to get at leasdt one wip to all of u guys this month, june im finishing everything because schools ending and i need to get everything done by july for artfight

i have 3 job interviews!!!!! 2 tomorrow im a lil scared because i dont knoww hat to expect but its ok ,and if i get a job i will have a source of income outside of comms and therefore will not have to burn myself out during july and i can focus on artfight

the first ones at olive garden (busboy/busser) and the second ones at minisou (cashier ig) im thinking im more likely to get the minisou job cause im 17, i wish i liked the aesthetic there more but a job is a job yk (although. i would prefer olive garden so i can wear a snazzy uniform

3rd one is at fye but they havent scheduled it yettt i only know i have one cause of my friend whom workds there

i have to miss a one act rehearsal for my job interviews and the performances are at the end of the week and i dont feel very prepared because our directors barely had any rehearsals till like this week :cry: but its alr they are doin great some of the only tolerable sophomores fr,

ermmmm and rehearsals also keep conflicting with my japanese finals this week but my teacher is very nice and shes letting me take it tuesday instead of thurs which is one act performace

and i have a bunch of fucking ap tests i am regretting signing up for

one oft hem is on friday which was supposed to be the day i hung out with some of my friends who graduated last year i was really looking forward to during chamber (they are graduated alumni randomly come into chamber choir to hang out and shit)

but itssss ok cause they still wanna hang out after so we are getting lunch . AND they will be able to see how it feels to be in chamber every other day with a section that cant sing !!!!!!! fun but i really wish i could spend more time with em esp my friend whos visiting from florida im not as close with him as i am with my other friend but he is very chill and ive always wanted to be betetr friends w him

prom was yesterday it was actually better than i thought i usually hate dances but me and my friend s just joked around the whol time AND MY CRIUSH WAS THE FIRST PERSON TO LIKE A PIC I POSTED ON MY CF STORY OF ME INA SUIT NAD I LOOKED SUPER HOT WHILE I WAS THERe so obv he is in lovbewith me

i suppose i ki9nda reconnected with an old friend while i was there who i kinda had a small fight with after she ditched me at hoco for a guy but honestly im over it and i do somewhat miss the humor of that group we wwere crazy

im gonna be a senior in a month and a half but im really not too shaken up ab it , honestlyu i feel like since i have been doing so much more stuff this year time seems to go by at a normalpace it literally feels like 2019 again and im excited to be older (set aside that i have a crush on a college freshman ..,,,,,,,,eeermrrmmmmmm who said thad)

he doesnt know my th so if he stalks me enough to find this he has to likeme back so I DONt care that he might fined this

its 23:30 i ate way too much so i have to go to slep atleast after midnight so i dont get acid reflux from eating too close tobed ersm

the bank thing is not reall bothering me anymore honestly , idk im just gonna pretend it was cause i had paypal as a minor andignore it lawl cause i dont. know what to do aab it yea yea ok yeah

and i think if that didnt happen i wouldnt have been pushed to try to get a job and i wouldnt have gotten3 count em three inteerviwes

oh yeah my prom fit was also sick af !!! the button up, blazer and belt were all from goodwill i loevb thrifting bro it was so fire ill attach the pic that my crush liked

and here sanother one its so low quality brah my hair doesnt really look like vu's anymore oh well itll grow

they kept playing animationn meme songs me and my friends were reenacting them it was so silly nobody knew what we were doing so they didnt gaf

i dont feel like looking up how to have a good job interview rn so im just goinna do that in school tmr or smthn ideek might just wing it (even thoughg i really really need a job and maybe i should put more effort)

OH YEA i am working towards my drivers license i got my permit in march and i drove out on the open road for the first time a few days ago (march and appril were super fucking busy it was like one thing after naother first crucible then i got sick then seattle then i got wayyyy sick again like really bad during my birthday and now im kinda back to normal i suppose although my diet of eating so close to bedtime is not really helping

i would like to redo my room over the summer like paint it olive green or bright orange or smthn stupid it must be whimsical and eccentric or iwill not feel at home

i just realized i never had my bday party i not sure if its too late but me and a small group of friends were gonna take a train TRAIN YAY TRAIN to a larger city and hang out on the beach and shop and stuff but it never happened cause i was sick hrm unsure if i still feel like it

i got school tmr which ive started to like having it makes my day feel fuller cause it forces me to wake up early ALSO Its an odd period day so i get history and choir ez AASLO ap tests mean that most of my teachers arent even teaching and all my non-choiir classes are ap classes sooooo basically school is just play on my phone or sing YIPEE

its 23:45 im gonna get ready for bed now goodnight toyhousians

Ok guys im proly not gona delete toyhouse i think i woll just wait until i get a new bank account a new place and then i willl maybe take comms and monitor my account very closely but for now ill just do the comms i have now to the best of my abilities thank u so much for ur understanding especially people who haveee commissioned me

They only gave me enough to make my balance back to 0 because we closed my account then and there ive lost hundreds of fucking hours worth of commission work and i cant even refund people because i dont have any fucking money to refund evven though i just want to curl up in a ball and die im not taking commissions anymore if youve commissioned me and youre waiting ill try as hard as i can to do them but i feel so sick i have no fucking motivation right now im so sorry

If you want a refudn i might be able to offer characters ill try as hard as i can to get my motivation back

Oh yeah and i also sold a bunch of my fucking characters when i didnt need to to get out of debt that i wasnt fucking in and ill likely never get them back feels so fucking great

ive been like really embarrassed since september that i kept having to take on so many comms despite having so many already cause my balance kept going negative, just found out im not actually a shitty spender who cant handle my money and the readon ive had to take on so many comms that my customer service has gone to shit and i feel like im a terrible person when it comes to commissions is that my bank has been charging me a ridiculous fee whenever my accs been overdrafted and i try to spend money without telling me so the only reason im negative is because of my malicious bank and if that didnt exist i wouldnt hva rhad to swamp myself with fucking commissions and im going to the bank tomorrow to fucking talk to them about this and i feel liek shit and i still have so many fucking commissions and all of my commissioners are probably really annoyed with me atthe fact ive taken so long because ive been so overwhelmed and i wouldnt hva ehad to do this and everyone wouldve had their comms by now if my bank hadnt stolen my fucking money 😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁

im taking a big break from comms after i finish all of the ones i have now and hopefully from now pn i wont have to be forced to take on way more comms than i can handle and ill ACTUALLY BE FUCKING QUICK WITH THEM because my bank will no linger be steaking hundreds of dollars from me!!!!!

Btw the $210 was just in the past 2 months 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 its most likely $500+ 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫

I am 17 now

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hai guys just a heads up for the next several days im performning in the crucible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

which unfortunately means ill be delayed until monday , yeag thats ab it

vague ass title i wanted to put "feelin great even tho getting set up with a guy by my friend didnt go well" tldr at the bottom

!!!!!THIS ISNT THE GUYU IM TALKING ABOUT IN THE TITLE JUST CONTEXT!!!!!: so basically last week this guy who was 18 whom i met for 30 FUCKING MINUTES at the mall wanted to take me out on a date.,..../ wgats even worse was that he wasnt even like an older senior or anything he was a COLLEGE FRESHMAN....... (im not even 17 until april and idk when he turns 19 and he barely knew me but i digress)

AND SO the next day which was last saturday (4 day weekend) i hang out with several of my other friends at the mall again (i go to the mall like everyday ) and after a few hours theres 3 of us left and ive already told them everything i found out the previous day ab the creepy college kid and they start trying to set me up with people, ill call them Kaitlyn and Cody but it was mostly kaitlyn since codys a senior and he didnt know as many people i would know but he was also tellng me i needed to get set up to stop considering college creep as an option, and kaitlyn suggests 3 people all from tech theatre cause shes in tech and knew a bunch of maidenless tech people

first guy i like kinda knew???? i thought he was gay but apparently he is just a very arrogant flamboyant bi and either way im kinda androgynous when it comes to gender. we kinda flirted as a joke but i dont think it wouldve worked tbh he has a bunch of enemies lmfao and i didnt really want to be part of that tbh 💀

seconbd guy was. the guy whom i had the hugest fucking crush on from a little year agos' LITTLE BROTHER. so no. (little brothers a sophomore im a junior btw )

THIRD GUY. was a cute guy id talked to a couple times who seemed really sweet,,,,, hes kinda short and scrawny and has curly hair a bit nerdy which i find very attractive ugh . and at first im like NO you cant set me up with anyone what if i get rejected BECAUSE !!TANGENT ALERT!!:

soimeone tried to set me up with this girl in november who i kinda new and i thought was cute and she said "um idk lol shes my friend lol" and then ghosted the p[erson trying to set me up LMAOOOOOOOO (im not laughing it was upsetting)

SO THEN over the next couple days of the long weekend i contemplated. andthen during rehearsal for the crucible on tues (long weekend remember) me and kaitlyn who is a costumer went into the costume room to "try on costumes" (i had like one thing to try on but we were in there way longer to talk ) and we came up w the idea to tell him that kaitlyn wanted to set HIM up with ME. cauyse im uh really scared of rejection lawl. and so the next day on wednesday she was supposed to ask him to let her set him up w someone then suggest me n see what he says ykyk. but he was absent another day (he was alsio absent tuesday) and she couldnt talk to him so at rehearsal that day we just decided she could do it over text. heres the messages (all of em are thru kaitlyn )

so yeah um. this was actually over a span of like wed-fri and the last text was on friday and he hasnt said anything since,,,? and its like sunday night rn. ans so ive been kinda stressing over it since then and worrying myself f someone i didnt even have a huge crush on before likes me ...

so today i was at the mall again with a few friends because i usually just go tot he mall and hang out till i find people i know then collect em like pokemon so it was me and two people who just met because i was there and so my older friend (shes a college freshman) who had a bf told me that i shouldnt be with someone/shouldnt wait on someone who left me as a "maybe" and seemed not that interested and at first i was like kinda ug idc how im treated what if he he he changes his mind or seomthing!!!!!!!!!!!!! and tben i like started to thjink about it later and realized:

WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL THINKING AB HIM SO MUCH LIKE I HAVE ACRUSH ON HIM OR SMTH!N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and so duriung my commission stream today i ended it early to text kaitlyn and tell her this:

and now i feel better . even though technically theres no chance of me going on this date now whereas before there was SOME chance. i feel better now because now i dont have to wait for more rejection from someone i didnt need any fucking rejection from because i didnt even like him that much ..

so ya! my love life is shit (3 failed set up attempts and 1 creepy senior who tried to groom me) but at least im not gonna get rejected again anytime soon

tldr: creepy college freshman wanted to date me last weekend. friend tried to set me up w someone, i was hesitant for a bit then agreed, it took 3 days texting my friend to get a "maybe" out of him, today i hung out with some other friends and one of em said i shouldnt date someone who considered me a "maybe", i took her advice tonight and told her to tell him i wasnt interested in being set up anymore

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todays vus birthday (its still the 6th for me

i wanted to do a bunch of art trades w him but still working on comms sighhh