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Oh gosh I have so much to say, I wouldn’t know where to start! Well, I guess for starters, Seethe is my very own handsome hunk of a man, and I’d have it no other way! That’s mines right there.. aren’t they just the cutest. Seethe is way better at words with stuff like this than I am honestly so they probably had much better things to say than I’m going to, which is one thing that I love about them. Such a way with words, I just love that in a man. They also know when to shut the fuck up, I love that in a man too. I looove Seethe, they’re so very SMART too, oh and such a family man, it’s so attractive. I want us to have a family some day, seeing how devoted they are to people they aren’t even blood related to is just so admirable, they act like such a dad sometimes, such a provider. Tuwang-tuwa akong tawagin ang lalaking iyon na ama ng aking mga anak balang araw…hehe. I love their little accent too, especially when they say my name, hehe. Seethe’s so generous and so very understanding, too. That was something that stood out to me most when I befriended them. Having understanding was something I really needed from somebody at that time, just somebody who would take the time to understand me for me, y’know? I really loved the attention I got from Seethe, I won’t lie, it was different from what I got from the other usual guys I let into my life… like when they listened to me they really heard me, they never wanted to just get in my pants or make out with me after I’d just poured my insecurities and heart out to them. Sometimes I never needed them to say anything either, I just needed Seethe to listen and be around for me, and they would be fine with doing just that. They never once complained. There were tons of times where Seethe would come over after something had happened and they’d just hold me or keep me company and we’d end up falling asleep together. Some of the things we ended up doing as moirails weren’t very…moirail like though, haha. We kind of gave in and bent the rules a bit and did our own things... I had eventually ended up flushing red for them really earlier than I would’ve wanted, but I wouldn’t let myself fill that quadrant with them because I was scared I’d end up ruining a good thing with someone so special. That if I did let them in, it would only be another temporary thing and whatever we had afterward, if anything at all, would be irreparable to what we had before. I had had it happen too many times before to want to try and risk it again, especially someone as rare of a person as Seethe. It’s not that I didn’t trust Seethe either, I didn’t trust myself. It would subtly make my blood boil when other people ended up winning their love before me, but I could never outwardly show my spite because I was just their moirail to everyone else, but to us, we were so much more. Seethe is such a good guy to me, I don’t think I had really known love until I began dating them. Seethe showed me what real relationships should be like and how I should be treated in one, they took the time and effort to put me and my needs first before their own and it's so refreshing to be cared for like that, to be wanted like that for more than what you have or what you can provide like you’re some sort of service or quick thrill. It’s so very refreshing to be loved for who you are and who you have been, no strings attached. Everyone needs to experience love like that, I think. Seethe has really changed me for the better, I’ve never been treated so… highly like that in my life. They even call me their wife, isn’t that crazy? God I love my man. Mahal na mahal kita, baby. Natutuwa akong natagpuan kita sa buhay na ito at umaasa akong mahanap ka sa lahat ng iba pa.
Zephir’s the love of my life, by now to everyone else we’re practically married. It’s a given to everyone else that we’re referred to as husband and wife now, naturally. We’ve been together for about three or so years now, she’s my best friend and one of the most unique and compassionate people I’ve ever come to know. I don’t think I’ve genuinely met anyone like her, she’s so individualistic I wouldn't want to find another like her even if someone so existed. She’s always been in a league of her own, I've always loved that about her. That was one of the major things that made me attracted to her when we met, I just knew she wasn't just another somebody. I had met her through a mutual friend we shared at the time, almost everybody around there either knew her or knew of who she was—except for me, and I wanted to know her. Back when we were still moirails, I had inevitably fell red for her but it was always on and off again, I was in my own head too much. I practically chased her like a dog even through all the flings and things she had. A lot of people told me not to waste my time on her, that she, “got around” or that she wasn’t, “all that” and that she was out of my league, which in my mind at the time, she kind of was. A whole bunch of other stuff like that to deter me from pursuing her. To me, they sounded jealous that they couldn’t get as close to her than I was. Not even the people she rotated red with knew her like I did. That was because a lot of the time they never really wanted to know her, they just wanted to have some sort of experience with her because she had a sort of “reputation” I guess. They wanted to be able to brag that they bagged the bombshell under their belt. They barely saw her as a person. People can be so very cruel. Nothing could’ve ever put me off of being attracted to her though. To a fault I still chase her, I adore just about everything she does. I love everything little about her, the way she moves when she dances, the way she laughs, her passion, how forgetful she can be, her beautiful radiant smile, in my eyes she was made of nothing but the best, most beautiful, and purest intentions, ella es simplemente magnífica. I love her lips and all of the freckles on her body, and her dimples most of all, I think they’re so cute. She’s always had such a beautiful smile and such deep dimples even before she had ended up getting them pierced. I love her eyes too, I just love how she looks at me, she could melt me with just her gaze alone. I just love looking at her in general, ella me hace sentir como un verdadero geek a veces, it’s a little embarrassing how much she gets to me. Of course we have our moments where we’re not always on the best of terms in our relationship, as do all relationships, but we can never manage to stay apart from each other for very long. I know how to communicate with her as she does with me. I always reassure her that I’ll love her no matter what, I could never keep myself away from her. Zeph makes me feel like the luckiest man on the entire planet sometimes, I swear I don’t know how I ever even managed to get her attention. She’s really changed me as a person far before we even dated. She still makes me nervous being around her sometimes to this day. She’s mi reina, Esa mujer significa el mundo para mí, pronto será mi esposa. Te amo, Zephir.
He used to be such an asshole.. he still can be who am I kidding. Seethe told me his pettiness came from me being with them and they’d apologize for him. He wasn’t always necessarily rude to me, but there was clear jealousy in him that someone else finally got the attention of his brother besides himself and that a potential wedge would come between them. Nothing could put a wedge between that brotherly bond they have though, none of their supreme and seemingly never ending petty bickerings and not even Malach’s track record of stealing Seethe’s shit. Malach’s just a little kid at heart down to his core. He’s his own person, a grown man, but inside him is an eccentric little boy who still clings to his big brother. I don’t even think the boys have ever lived on their own in separate places, always together. It’s honestly admirable how devoted they are to each other, especially Seethe. Seethe does so much for the sake of Malach it’s like second nature for them to immediately think of Malach. Malach is always a variable to whatever they do. ‘What if Malach doesn’t like it?’ ‘Do you think he’d want it?’, ‘Maybe Malach would try it?’, he’s so very important to his brother, and to be honest he’s become a little brother to me, too. Malach Avérsi, you are one beloved man.
She used to get on my nerves bad. She’s my big sis now, but I realized I had to change up for Seethe after I really saw how devoted they were becoming to her. They go good together, sickeningly so. Kidding. Everyone in our circle thinks they’re adorable, myself included. If you know Seethe, you know Zephir. If you know Zeph, you know Seethe. I’m very happy for the both of them, they’ve come a long way and they heal each other of all the damage they’ve endured. I used to be jealous, I didn’t want my brother getting hurt again. Seethe doesn’t deserve to get hurt for how good of a person they are. I was just on high defense when I didn’t ever really have to be. She’s never had any ulterior motive with my brother, I know that now but I know how bad that breakup did Seethe in and I’d be damned if I let them endure that shit again. That bitch was fuckin’ terrible. But Zephir’s different, clearly. She always had been from the start. They’ve always had a thing for her too, I knew. I always knew even when they’ve said they moved on and when they were still just moirails I knew Seethe wanted to be more than that with her. She was always off with someone else or just somehow out of romantic reach, it ate at them bad. I’ve never seen a man so devoted to a woman ever, the only ever kind of love I’ve seen that was that pure was Mamá. They were so in love they became intertwined, that’s what they used to tell us. I’m just ready for them to get MARRIED already man!! I’m ready to be an uncle!!!
Oh, Phemos!!! I think he’s just adorable! He’s just so smaaall and shyyy and stuff, I think he's real cute. I've always had a little thing for shy guys. His little clicks and chirps and shit he makes all the time are real cute too. Seethe don't click like he does but he does hiss a little sometimes, it's the cutest thing ever, I swear. One thing about Phe though, he's real bumpy, y'know? He makes a few accidents here and there, which is totally normal! I'm pretty accident prone myself, havin' three eyes isn't exactly the ideal number to be seein' out of either. I have to watch him real close sometimes when he's doin' stuff so he don't get knocked over or spill somethin', it'd break my heart seein' the lil' guy fall and get all embarrassed. I feel bad thinkin' about it now, christ. I give him gentle nudges and stuff here and then too. I hope he doesn't get the wrong idea, I'm sure he's capable of doing all those things on his own, he's able-bodied for crying out loud, I'm not babying the lil' dude, alright? It's just nice havin' somebody there with your best interest in mind. I had to teach *myself* to stop bumping into stuff, I didn't have anybody teaching *me* about how to walk right with three eyes or whatever. Clearly I'm not the best anyhow for being self taught, but I would've appreciated *someone* to have been there to have helped *me*. I wonder how Malach does it with him. Maybe I should ask. He probably picks him up by the scruff of his neck like a purrbeast, ha ha! That'd be real funny. Mo practically clings to his clothes like he's a sucker fish when they're both out somewhere together so I guess that explains that.
He was really nervous about meeting her, he wanted more than anything to make a good impression. She was gorgeous, kind, and most of all, Seethe's wife. Or soon to be wife, he supposes. It's hard for him to remember, they seem so domestic, practically married already. He's never really met anyone so boisterous and fun to be around in the way that Zephir is. Phemos finds it funny how naturally bashful seethe is, almost like a total opposite to her. Opposites attract and they are proof of it. Its so very sweet, how much they love each other. Phemos has seen how Seethe dotes on her, and how Zephir smothers them in love almost constantly. He doesn’t think he's ever seen Zephir without Seethe, or Seethe without Zephir at their side. They're so very charming. Of course, he could never comprehend the love the two of them share as an outsider to their relationship, but even he can see how deeply they care for each other. They go together wonderfully, they’re like two halves of the same star finally finding their missing piece in the other. Zephir always seems so happy just to be around them. He looks up to her in a way, she's so beautiful, so confident in herself and so kind to everyone around her. He admires her, really. Especially when she makes such an effort to make him feel comfortable around her, always lending an ear and a shoulder for him to lean on if he needs it. Zephir reminds him so much of Dythia, from the way she looks out for him to the way she laughs. It's painful sometimes, but it just makes him want to cling onto the friendship they share with an iron fist.
I think Dolosá’s really cool! She’s always been pretty cool to me since I’ve met her. Y’know what’s super strange though? She’s like crazyyy perceptive, like she’s freaky good at knowing WHEN somethings up and WHO’S up to something, you know what I mean? She’s great at reading the vibes of a room or like when you’re like the slightest bit off, it’s like you know it’s coming. If no one notices it first, she will and she’ll say something. When Losá gets suspicions, you know she’s serious, no bullshit. I like how honest she is, too. It’s not all that common you find someone so unapologetically truthful like that. It’s always different when it comes from her because I know she really means it, she won’t just tell me what I wanna hear or sugarcoat anything. Oh, and she’s so funny too, oh my god. One night, when we were all at this club, it’s a shitty little 3 star salad bar now but, Dolosá had started talking shit to this guy who was honestly super rude after I turned him down to dance. She was talking down to him and calling him all out his name it was soooo funny. I was laughing in his face on top of that, he was so mad. She carried my heels for me that night too because I got too drunk and my feet were hurting. Real shit, I’m flattered to be considered part of her circle to be honest! She doesn’t like everybody and she doesn’t like to let everybody into her life. She’s really hardened herself over the years. She’s a great friend though, hands down.
She’s a very attractive girl, I won't lie. Seethe’s a very lucky man. Zeph’s a super chill girl too, I don’t think I’ve really met a girl that acts like she does before. I didn’t necessarily grow up with her like those two did but she usually hung out with them almost as often as I did so we were all used to seeing each other and hangin’ together. After a while we just naturally kinda turned into a group. She was always wanting to do something wild and fun with all of us. Malach was always on board because he's Malach n' Seethe was always so hesitant to do every little thing, but if it had something to do with Zeph? They were all in. I'm pretty sure the two of them acted as pale when they were really red the entire time anyway, I kinda just felt it. I won’t lie, back then I kind of had a lil’ crush on her too. To be honest, I think almost everyone who was friends with her had been flush red for her at some point, she was just popular like that, a real "It girl", y’know? I had never made it known of course because I knew Seethe really had a thing for her, and I’m not that kind of friend. Never have been….plus I was pretty closeted at the time. She’d make me really nervous though just talking to her. She still kind of does now sometimes. She’s just always had that effect, I guess. I give her free weed too when she asks since she knows she's never gotta buy from me to get anythin'. Anything she need, she knows I’ll get it for her, no strings attached. To me, Zephir’s probably one of the baddest girls I know, she’s like the girl everybody wants to talk to because she’s just popular. She's attractive and she knows it too. She knows she’s the shit, she knows she can get her way. She really know how to serve a look too, that girl can dress down for real. There’s like nothin’ she can’t fuckin’ do.
Ever since becoming closer to Zephir, Azra has felt so much happier. She’s never really had girl friends growing up or many close friends at all. Befriending Zephir meant being able to experience all the traditionally girly things she thinks she missed out on; doing each other’s nails, having spa days, gossiping and gushing about their significant others. She’s definitely seen more of Azra’s potential date night outfits than Azra would care to admit, as she always wants to know if she looks good in something first. That’s what girl friends are for, after all. She was and still is so excited about finally having a girl friend that she can have fun with, dress up and most of all, relate to. It’s always so fun to see her on those days they go out as a group.