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She's my little girl, always has been and always will be. I don't regret for a second trying to save her-only that I failed, and let her be taken in the first place. I'm so glad to see them with both their brother and the friends they have now. They were lost to me for a long time, and I spent every moment begging the universe for their safety. To know she was still alive lifted such a terrible weight from my soul.
Why does he have to hurt so much to think about? I remember finding the remnants of his life, and fuck... it broke me for awhile. My dad died trying to save me, and I never even knew until he'd already rotted away into nothing. If nothing else, at least I was actually able to know him. He probably loved me more as a toddler, but I don't even care. It's something.
Some part of me hates you for leaving, but it can never match the love I had for you. You were my best friend, my confidant, my better half. Our sins can never be erased, but I still wish for you to be at peace. I just hope you won't judge me too harshly for the life I led in your absence.
Even after all we went through, I still made the choice to leave you behind. I'm sorry, my love. I only ever brought pain into your life.
He's my little boy, and that will always be true no matter what. His abduction is my greatest regret, alongside my failure to rescue him-but I would die for him again in a heartbeat. I'm so grateful to have been able to see them after my death, and to know they were reunited with their sister. If only those damned experiments hadn't condemned them to an early death... I stayed at his side through it all. Nobody could ever have stopped me from easing his suffering and confusion as he passed on.
When I think of how my dad died trying to rescue me, it doesn't feel real. It's like I'm telling some other kid's story. I'm just an intruder in a family with normal kids, with normal parents, even though I know my dads were far from regular people. If I could go back and make it where I was raised by them, would I? Would I give up on Sky, on David and Hal, everyone? The thought of saying either yes or no makes me feel so guilty.