Hilda Koska's Links
He's my dad, but I never knew him. We look way too alike-what the hell am I supposed to feel about that? In a different life, I could love him the way I'm supposed to. But I ended up as a murderer instead.
I only knew her as an infant, my Ashe, a piece of my heart. I catch glimpses of who they grew up to be, and know it was my choice that caused so much pain. I can never be forgiven, Hilda. But I will always love you.
I used to hate him. I blamed Ymir and Sky both for me being left behind, unable to escape the prison our kidnappers made for us, and it became blinding rage. I thought: how could he do that? Had he ever cared? What right did they have to find a new family and throw me away? I wanted them to suffer as I had. So fucking stupid... I lost so much of what little time we had left because of that. My brother died too young, and nothing in my life has hurt more. I'd give anything to hear his voice one more time.
She's my sister, my best friend-I would NEVER give up on her, ever. It was my fault they were left behind, so... I have to do everything I can to make up for what they went through. Hilda deserves that. I will never let anyone hurt her again-I can't imagine living the way I did before, without her there. Even when they hated me, it was better than never hearing their voice at all. The world is better with Hilda here. It's fun to act like an annoyed sibling, but I would never truly want her to change-not her jokes, not her cat ways, not her sarcasm, nothing.
They're not popular with my weirdo group, but that's no surprise. Hy's a zealot with a huge stick up their ass. But only two people ever gave a shit about me in those dark days before escaping, and they were one of them, so. I can cut them some slack. Besides, Hy is doing a lot better now. I don't think they're gonna shoot Sky any time soon, so hey, progress.
I saw and recognized the pain in their eyes. Nothing can ever hurt as badly as betrayal.
Why does he have to hurt so much to think about? I remember finding the remnants of his life, and fuck... it broke me for awhile. My dad died trying to save me, and I never even knew until he'd already rotted away into nothing. If nothing else, at least I was actually able to know him. He probably loved me more as a toddler, but I don't even care. It's something.
She's my little girl, always has been and always will be. I don't regret for a second trying to save her-only that I failed, and let her be taken in the first place. I'm so glad to see them with both their brother and the friends they have now. They were lost to me for a long time, and I spent every moment begging the universe for their safety. To know she was still alive lifted such a terrible weight from my soul.
Why won't she let me near her cool robot?! I won't break it!
No, you can't take D-Walker to the highway.
Once, Hilda's feelings towards Sky were not nearly as complicated. When they were both kids, even during those awful days spent being used as a child soldier, Hilda adored them as her friend. But then the end of the compound happened, and they were separated. Absence lead to a rift of bitterness and resentment on her part-how could Sky do what they did, leave her behind to suffer? Had they ever cared? Even after being freed, Hilda was chained to hatred, and she lashed out at both Sky and Ymir constantly. They never loved her, they never needed her, they hated her. Learning of Sky's true intentions-that they had planned to die when the compound was destroyed-is the turning point for Hilda's complex. It takes a lot of time, but eventually, their friendship is reborn.
Another one of Sky's close friends, but due to circumstances, things are more complicated in comparison to Ymir.
She was often able to leave the compound, and on one hand, Sky envied that fact, but on the other, she was very different afterwards. Hilda's anger and lashing out sometimes scared them, but they could see that she wasn't mad at them necessarily.
They deeply regretted the fact that they were not at the compound when Snake happened to infiltrate, but this was a shot they had to take. If she had been there, they would've pulled her into the plan immediately.
But she wasn't.
They and Ymir looked as much as they could for her, but they needed to keep hidden, and their former captors went deep underground with the few experiments they had left.
Finding her alive years later was amazing. Even if she was trying to kill them at the time. They helped free her, but unfortunately, a lot of time had passed and that had strained their relationship. They tried their hardest to be patient, but sometimes, they just had to hide away from them.
But every now and then, there's echoes of their old friendship in there, and even if they've both changed too much for that to ever be the same, they want her to be happy.
In time and with a lot of healing, that friendship does come back in a new form.