Hello, this is DEAD. I'm 23, use any pronouns you'd like. I'm relatively new to making OCs, starting seriously in 2019. I'm chronically ill & disabled so my own art takes a while... But I get a whole lot of commissions of my boys to fill that void😳
All the characters in my Mains/Favorites folder are my favorite babies. (I shouldn't pick a favorite child but its Valentine LMAO) Feel free to ask me anything about them! I think about them a little too much.
Along with drawing I also write, I have my AO3 below. I have a current project for some OCs underway and will post it there and on here when it's done!
Moé points: Dark hair, Silver hair, Long hair on males, Incubi, Fangs, Unusually-colored eyes, etc. Please show me your OCs named Valentine I love every one of them.
- My characters can contain NSFW content and/or dark subject matter, I preface bios with any warnings needed. Bios never get explicit.
- All of my characters are personal to me, in one way or another. They're all pretty wacky, but it comes from a deep place in my heart. Please keep that in mind when you read about them. This especially applies to gender/sexuality and mental illness. I'd rather not divulge all my personal info on the internet, so please don't ask unless we're friends.
- If you'd like to draw my OCs, please credit me in the description of your uploads and tag me so I can see them! NSFW art is OK! I love it. If they have an F-List linked, be sure to check that out to see what they like.
- Pinging me in forums, comments, etc. is OK and appreciated!
- I don't sell or trade any of my characters, and I also don't buy designs/characters.
- All the standard stuff (original character donut steel, etc etc).
Commissions are open! Please check the links above for more info. I accept most things, including NSFW and Guro. Threads are now divided into SFW and NSFW/Guro options! The NSFW thread is 18+ age-locked. If you're going through my art tab, make sure your filters are on when browsing if either of those bother you.
I run a Commission Info Masterthread to help others on the forums, which can be seen here.
I also have an Etsy shop where I sell my art, including that of my OCs. Every purchase enables my dangerous habit of making a lotta merch of my boys. If you leave a note at checkout with your TH username I'll send a ton of freebies👀
May is Ehlers Danlos awareness month, and also the month I set for myself to "come clean" in a way about my physical conditions... Not for the sake of pity, please don't pity me I'm really tired of it LMAO it's more of a sense of. I'm tired of pretending that I'm okay. Really tired of trying to mask that I'm not very disabled. Tried for so long to seem that I'm not, that I'm capable of everything that non disabled and non chronically ill people can do. I really can't, and starting about last month or so I decided to integrate that into my bios on various places like here, Twitter, Instagram, and even my Etsy because I can't fulfill orders as fast as I used to.
So, I have Hypermobile Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, Arthritis, Fibromyalgia, Thalassemia, etc... Other stuff is kinda a lot to bring up and I don't wanna list all my diagnoses online. Am gonna avoid anything that's not physical health.
EDS is a lifelong genetic thing along with Thalassemia, but I developed arthritis and fibro at 18. I could have had fibro for longer, but I'm not entirely sure. Basically, my body's kinda falling apart at the seams. As of now I use a finger splint for drawing and a cane for mobility, but mobility especially is severely limited now. I get sick when the wind blows. I went out recreationally for the first time since you know what last month, otherwise it was doctors only. I ended up getting the flu during all this when I never went outside, I shit you not.
Since it's a rare thing, I feel the need to explain EDS a bit... There's 13 types, but I have the hypermobile one. Somewhere down the genetic line my DNA did a fucky wucky now my collagen came out wrong. So I can extend things like my limbs and fingers far past what I should be able to do. It heavily affects the skin and more importantly, my connective tissue at the joints. So a common thing is laying in bed and waking up with one of my legs out of the socket or subluxated because it relaxed too much and slipped out. It comes with other things, but those are some of the main traits.
Arthritis is also a pain, I'm constantly swollen and I can't do much about it. Fibro doesn't help either. Everything hurts, basically. Thalassemia is an Italian blood disorder that I so graciously got from my Sicilian heritage LMAO but it's permanent anemia. I get iron IV juices every once in a while because my average hemoglobin is 10, which is pretty much what 8 year olds have. Adds onto the extra tired. Always tired. I'm bedridden a lot.
I'm allergic to all normal pain meds that are classified as NSAIDs (IE Tylenol, aspirin, Motrin, etc.) so I have to take stuff that's a little heavier and also. I can't take medicine for any of this. I can't take arthritis medicine, anything for fibro, and nothing exists for EDS. My only steps are biologic injections and chemo, and I'm not ready for the fallout of either of those when I'm already insanely fragile. I've taken non-NSAID options already, they've almost killed me.
Basically, all of those team up against me in terms of art the most.
It's gotten progressively worse since you know what has closed everything and made me terrified of going out... At the very least, I'm now fully immune. But prior, it was too risky too see doctors too often. I went to OT a few times and had to stop because I get sick so easily, but I'm starting to go back soon. My doctor there gave me the splint option for my fingers, which I can show below.
I held pens like this for my entire life (on the left), up until getting a metal splint about 8 months ago:
So... Yeah it's not great. I had no idea holding stuff like that and being too flexible and constant, never-ending pain as a kid wasn't normal. Kept bringing it up to doctors, but they brushed it off until I got a formal EDS diagnosis summer 2020. Supposedly a ton of other people with EDS are told the same, that it's "growing pains" even though you're not supposed to be bedridden from pain.
I even decided to give a character who still needs a design EDS because I'm kinda... Tired of being seen as weak, even though I absolutely am. He's the last character in my writing project, the big boss.
What I aim to accomplish with saying all this... Not really a lot, to be honest. It's less of a pity party and more me admitting to myself that I can't operate like I used to before I hit 18. And also kind of a plea for y'all to know why I'm not posting or drawing as much. Commissions especially have taken longer, and I think going forward I might implement a slot system. But to those who comm me, I'm sorry I take so long.
More than anything, I really love meeting other disabled and chronically ill artists. It feels like it's finding a needle in a haystack and it's comforting. I hope this resonates with someone.
I'm disabled, I'm chronically ill, and I'm not gonna let it keep me from doing what I love. Even it just takes me longer to do it. I won't attempt to hide it anymore.
ETA: I've also posted this to IG with the fundraiser option to go right to the EDS society, it's severely under-researched so they need as much reach and donations as they can get.
ETA again: I forgot another chronic thing I have is Hashimoto’s Disease, basically a fucky thyroid. After all sorts of false negative tests I finally got it figured out and medicated since last year, at least?
I sound bonkers I know but I got so much going on I tend to forget. Memory issues!!