I accomplished a handful of things
- Fiance and I told our families that we got engaged
- Improved quite a bit at art
- Finally got pain and anxiety meds
- Moved to a way better locationÂ
Hey everyone! To start off 2019, this account and thread was made so that we could get along and chat with fellow Toyhouse members here within a specific topic of the week! Inspired by the Weekly Show Me A Character thread, a really random question or topic will be given here and everyone is allowed to answer or contribute their experiences that fits within the weekly prompt. The weekly prompt can be anything, and by anything means it can range from your hobby to your favorite thing in Toyhouse! We will try to avoid anything too personal as well as a prompt that will encourage negativity.
Rules:
Week 15: Tell us about your favorite and least favorite seasons, and why?
Ooo, a thread to satisfy my constant need to overshare, nice!
Week 1: What have you accomplished in 2018?
Not too many but some of the important ones are::
     ◎ Writing rather consistently. Not only I wrote a number of English language fictions on TH (major thank you to Caine for the monthly writing prompt thread!), after joining a RP group created by my friend in May, from June onward I also wrote dozen of fictions in Thai. The RP group has a system to 'level up' the characters, with one of the options being drawing/writing something related to the characters' past or their life after joining to plot in RP group. And so I write for three characters almost every month.
      ◎ Participating and winning my first NaNoWriMo. This year I already plan to return, even though I have yet to finish that 2018 novel I won :'D (roughly a half of the entire plot hasn't been written yet even after hitting 50k)
      ◎ Not exactly an accomplishment but last April I bought a new drawing tablet. The old one died on me in late March.
Week 2: What are the things you want to learn, but unable to for certain reasons?
* Either from language, subject, usage of a program/technology, art or writing skills or just whatever. This includes lack of instructors/tutors, overwhelmed by the learning curve, etc.
Driving a car. Whilst I could afford the lessons, I can't afford to buy/run a car on my current wages.Â
Being able to drive would make my life a lot easier and make things accessible (being unable to drive especially where I live is severely isolating/limiting), I'm in and out of the country so frequently with work it's not really worth it right now. Especially since I'm looking to make a career out of my job and when I move departments where I'll be out of the country for 6 months at a time.Â
I'm gonna ditto driving, but I wasn't interested in it during high school and by the time I was out of college and in my first job, I took lessons and had my parents teach me and I just got so much anxiety out of it. I'd drive with a permit once on the permit then never again.
I really should, and I know I agreed to get my license for groceries and things for when dad has his surgery but Every time I think about being behind the wheel my anxiety rides up so bad. We're currently one car, one driver, two adults, and it's been fine? But if I drive we'll still only have one car and I don't want my anxiety to get me in an accident with the one we have.
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And also I'm learning some programming to make games? But the engine I started out on, even though it has its own scripting language, assumes you're already highly familiar with another script (python or c++? depending on the tutorial). It's step by step and assumes the student knows what some of these terms mean and how they relate already. "this is just like [x] in python, or [x] in C++)" instead of explaining what it is if it wasn't. Even when I cross-reference "it's like this in some other language" and I keep hitting maze walls.
I'm hoping it'll click one day lmao. But saying "Beginner's Tutorial" is false on anything I can bear to listen to. I get it while they're talking at me, but when I go to toy around by myself I don't even know where to start. I taught myself flash actionscripting a decade ago and it was never this hard. I don't know why I'm struggling now. Heck, I learned ren'py in like three days and made a 20 minute long branching path, multiple ending VN that took previous runs into account. This garbage? I'm so lost.
Related to another big issue is all the "best" youtube tutorials have super heavy accents that I struggle to follow along so much that I have to listen to each step 2-3 times before I can do it myself. And none of these videos have closed captioning.
I want to learn 3D modeling but I feel like I have a lot of other things to learn that would be of more immediate use to me. I want to take some art classes and delve into anatomy studies again. Learn more about designing backgrounds/environments etc. My excuses include trying to juggle work while trying to stay healthy mentally and feeling to overwhelmed by that stuff to worry about learning lol. I want to go to therapy but I keep putting it off with tons of excuses.
Pepperly Oh this is my mood with tyrano and I have 0 experience with any programming language whatsoever and even the tutorials assume you know what the heck you're doing and obviously I don't have a clue.Â
Week 2: What are the things you want to learn, but unable to for certain reasons?
I really want to learn how to play a flute (the Western concert kind) and piano but I can't actually afford any of the instruments let alone teaching, and I know I don't have enough self control to practice anything except maybe piano on my own since I at least know how it works. I remember as a kid pestering my parents to let me learn some instrument too but alas we couldn't afford it and now at this age is really hard to form routines the same way you do as a kid :(Â
I also want to continue studying Japanese but I can't stand the teacher she stresses me out and is a little rude and just generally doesn't contribute to me learning in any positive way + I was bullied in my previous class for looking like this lol so I don't feel good about going back. But also I have 0 self control to practice on my own either Â
I would LOVE to learn drawing and photography! But having barely any free time at all, then I just.... cannot....
I'd also love to learn German, but, for some reason, my brain is allergic to that language. I've been studying german at school since I'm 5 but I still can't say more than two sentences (that translate into "I don't understand" and "I don't speak german").