Petunia Lance's Links
"Uh... a fine person? I'm not sure how to feel. Anyone Ray knows scares the shit out of me. Otherwise was.. nice... uh... think he said some more personal things to me. Yeah.."
Met briefly to get an outfit from Pristine.
"Egg. Ray does not deserve a decent human being as a coworker."
“I wish you were smarter, had more self preservation. Your grief is understandable but can’t you see what it’s doing to you? And what that’s doing to others?! You terrify me. I know you care about me but are you just saying that to get closer to my job or because you miss her? Am I a person to you too? Or am I simply some unwinnable object you think you can sweep off their feet. I.. ugh. Maybe when everything is all said and done, I could meet the real you. The you who doesn’t hide.”
"Petunia...I love you.
I remember one day in the park with Delilah. We were just strolling through and I told her I loved her, just out of the blue. She was so stunned, told me that for however long we'd been dating I had never been the one to say it first. I really loved her, you know? And it broke my heart to hear that. So now, when I say I love you, I love you, I love you, it's so you can look back and remember I meant it. I said it first, because I wanted to remind you. You're not Delilah. I don't love you the same way I loved Delilah. But I love you, still."
“I do believe I loved him at one point. It wasn’t just us hurtling through the dark. The wedding was… one of the happiest days of my life… but I just… I can’t. I can’t feel a single good thing about them anymore. My personality is locked in a cage because of you, I couldn’t write for the longest time because of you, I’m cursed with nightmares and paranoia because of you, I lost all of my friends because of you. I’m not the same person my family knew because of you. I can’t even trust those close to me anymore because of you. You have destroyed my concept of love. So I hope you get some help but if I ever see you again, I’m running. I’m running as fast as I can. You can’t hurt me again.”
“I… I fucked up so bad.. I just… I shouldn’t be forgiven for it. I’m just so STUPID. I was so STUPID. How fucking stupid could I get… my epithet was… controlling our lives… fuck. FUCK. DID I EVEN LOVE HER FOR HER? WAS THERE EVER SOMETHING? OR WAS I HOOKED ON THE FEELING OF BEING SURROUNDED BY LIVING CREATURES THAT I COULDNT BE AWAY FROM HER? WHO AM I?”
Petunia has distanced herself from seeing Mildred as nothing more than another plant but who can walk. But deep down she feels so much love and care for Mildred, wanting them to be happy and grow.
Mildred sees Petunia like their mother, and would stay by her side till the end of the world
“Uhhh Crabs? You want to know what I think about crabs?? They’re??? Little guys???? I don’t go to beaches where they live I feel like that’s fairly obvious.”
“I feel sympathy for this woman.”
“I don’t associate with him anymore. No offense. But I cannot look at your business.”
“I wish she’d talk to me. I uh… I really care about her. But that’s her choice. And I have to respect it.”
Petunia can’t really think about Sena without breaking down nowadays. Ze really was her last friend before Ryan tore her life to shreds. She can’t help but imagine a life where she stayed in California with them, maybe things would’ve been better for everyone, maybe she wouldn’t have ruined so many people’s lives.
But she is where she is now. And she’s gonna change the world, isn’t she?
Sena knows that Petunia didn’t want to say those things, he always had a feeling Ryan’s epithet was swaying her. It still hurts to hear them come from the one important person in your life. The person you wanted to see it with to the end.
Couldn’t help but watch Petunia’s online presence closely when she popped up again, enjoying her content. However finally took Petunia going dark as a sign to move on. No matter how hard. I mean she’s doing better now.
“i do not feel comfortable getting familiar with reggie's girlfriend. i wish I had that confidence however. her fashion. i mean. i don't need another person at my throat once they get to know me. sigh. i think verena would like her.“
“Apparently not many, if anyone, likes her. I don't understand why tho. I once was in the sort of office they all work in alone with her. It was really scary because she's like huge, not taller than me but she's got some muscle. She and I didn't say much but I didn't realize how actually peaceful she was until someone else came into the room and she tended up. That. Was scary.”
Girl has a LOT to work through. If I had to guess, if she doesn't immediately get along with you, she just hates you. Or something akin to that. Mainly because she struggles to trust people. That's not my responsibility but I don't want the kid to get herself hurt for nothing. Halfway through making Honey, I talked a lot to myself. I came to the realization that trying to get the validation of some kid is only getting me circles and circles. She's having a rough spot, not too far off when I had mine. So I hope she'll trust me a bit more. Because I want to keep her safe.
Really needs to cut the attitude and just listen to what Derek says. Gets on my nerves.
I think it's increasingly clear now that we all, well, most of us are very concerned about her mental well-being. But none of us have any power nor is she really any of our responsibilities. Well, I guess I feel like everyone is my responsibility now. She's been a delight, frankly. Chaotic strange mess, sometimes she tells me exactly how she'll get back at everyone then we're talking about who signed the Declaration of Independence. I've realized as of late that she's a decade older than me, she's lived like this for a fucking wild. Maybe it's not great and healthy but it's sure as hell not killing her. I sympathize with her daughter, but I also appreciate this weirdo for who she is now.
COOL BUG FACTS: You dumb fucking cretin, you fucking buffoon, you bumbling idiot. Fuck you.