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I remember when we were young, I would've died a thousand times over for you. And this is how you repay me? Just tell me what I've done to wrong you. I won't stop chasing you until you grow the hell up and own up to your choices.
It wasn't your fault. You didn't do anything. It was all her. So why the hell do I hate you so much? I'd put up with all the shit Delzin put us through if it meant going back to how it used to be between us...
You told me you were first drawn to me because I didn't fall for your siren call. I dunno, I felt pretty enchanted by you the whole time, but I suppose that's what love is supposed to feel like. And now I know what true emptiness feels like too now that you're gone...
You were the only one that I could never charm, and the only one that charmed me back instead. I'm glad... otherwise I would've kept on going with all these games of temporary infatuation. What we committed to each other was worth more than any of that.
I'm so sorry I couldn't protect you and your mother. I hope you know how proud I've always been of you, because no matter how much fate tried to set you back, you never let it get your spirits down. I wish I still had that optimism here with me... just thinking about you helps me through the day sometimes...
My dad was always so encouraging, but he was also always there to protect me if I needed it. I hate to think what he must be feeling now... because that one night when he was out everything went wrong... It wasn't his fault. I don't want him to think that. I just want to tell him that everything is okay... He doesn't need to worry anymore...
In retrospect, I should've just moved on and been there for you the whole time. I'm sure you needed me then, but I was too concerned with getting my own answers to think about you. I made so many mistakes that night... and I don't expect you to forgive me.
I get so frustrated and angry when I think about you... how you just left me when I needed you most. I lost Mom, Tommy, and then you just left me too. I want to hate you so much, but I can't. I really just want to forget and have you back in my life.
When I met Silazek, he was still practically a child, yet he was already out and tackling dangerous assignments... He's been grateful to me ever since I saved him from those Scorpiral. I hope he can manage to find happiness. He's sadly very accepting of being subjugated in his clan...
I owe Zul my life, and I looked up to him during those years of my youth. I haven't seen much of him save for very recently though. It seems he's faced more hardship over those years... I hoped his happiness would've lasted when he left with his family.