Tyler Trucata's Links
I get so frustrated and angry when I think about you... how you just left me when I needed you most. I lost Mom, Tommy, and then you just left me too. I want to hate you so much, but I can't. I really just want to forget and have you back in my life.
In retrospect, I should've just moved on and been there for you the whole time. I'm sure you needed me then, but I was too concerned with getting my own answers to think about you. I made so many mistakes that night... and I don't expect you to forgive me.
I really wonder how things would be different if you or Mom, or both of you, were still here. I probably wouldn't be like this everyday... wishing I hadn't survived either. I got into this career field because I wanted to make prosthetics for people like you... but it feels so empty because you're not here... and I can't see that smile of yours anymore...
I was always so excited when you told me you were going to make me a leg so I could walk around as easily as you could. Just the thought of you wanting to do that for me made every day so much brighter for me. I hope I haven't hurt you by leaving so suddenly... I know you can do so much with your ambition, and I wish I could be there to see it.
You were always so fun and loving, and thinking back on it I'm a little envious you got to hold on to that innocence in your heart for so much longer than I could... You were a bit quirky, yeah, but I think we all were back then. I really wish I could remember how it felt to be so happy... I haven't felt anything like that since you've been gone.
Oh, my littlest baby. Always so curious and close behind me when we'd go out. The world was just as new and unknown to you as it was to me.
I didn't know who that man was for years... he was just the man that came alone that night and ruined my life. He murdered Tommy and mom... and there's nothing to change that. And to think... my father has been gone for so long because that man was his brother.
He's the one I didn't get... and it's for the best too. I already took too much from my brother, so at least he has someone left.
I didn't know that Abi and I are cousins until years after we became friends. I'm surprised I didn't drive her off with my attitude, but she's a lot more stubborn than I am. She and Zach were probably the only reason I've made it this far... They do pretty well at making sure I don't rot away in my room.
Before I even knew Tyler and I are cousins, we were just close friends in college. He's always such a bummer, but somehow that makes him kinda fun to hang around, if that even makes sense. Zach and I have to keep an eye on him... he's not very good at taking care of himself.
Zach and Abi have been looking out for me all this time, and I doubt I would've gotten this far without them. Zach is a little less intense about getting me to work on better habits compared to Abi; they're always pretty hot and cold about it. In any case, I'm glad he's stuck around.
I worry about Ty a lot. He's a smart guy and capable of so much more than I can wrap my head around, but he doesn't always take care of himself. I don't think I'd forgive myself if he let himself wither away and I just... didn't do enough to help him.
Taylor is like a brother to me after I was left with him and his parents. It was a complicated situation… I didn’t want to be there, I just wanted my family back. But Taylor never failed to make me feel welcome and loved, so I hope he knows how much I appreciate him… especially with how difficult I can be.
Tyler had a very difficult and tragic childhood when he joined our family. He wasn’t the most pleasant person to grow up with, but I never held that against him. It was only natural to have those feelings and lash out when you’re dropped into a new life suddenly. But I’m glad that we’re very close now, and even though he still has his struggles, he’s gotten… better, at least. I really hope that he can heal someday.