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GTFOH, Abby. (placeholder)
Oh, we're very close, well at least in my terms. I never know what's going on in his head. Even though I worked very hard to get to where I am today, I still have to give him some credit...I guess.
Some may disagree with me but I think he's a great leader, and a handsome one too. If I were to talk about anyone ever it would be him. I'm sure he'd say the same. We've known each other for quite some time after all. (I cannot handle writing like her. she is insane)
I never really liked him. My mother brought me to work a lot when I was young so I saw him frequently. From my current knowledge of him, I don't like him, but if I was younger I probably would've just thought he was a strange man. My mom sure did like him a lot though...it was strange.
Emmy is nice. She's helped me out lots and we have nice chats. Her presence is nice, I'd love to get to know her more. She definitely helps out with the rouge stuff since I'm newer to it, she overall is a great person to have a chat with.
My cat... Yes, I do have one. He is a good cat, but he is always trying to steal everybody's food. I am not even sure how he does it... Hamill is always complaining about him, for this reason. But I love that cat.
*Cat Noises*
┊ ⋆ ┊[PART 1- INITIAL THOUGHTS]
Hegemonic scum. Tried to kill me once. Before all this. Might've been bounty money, Hegemony orders, I don't know... What I do know is that he didn't succeed. Can't catch Emmy Caddet. Ha ha.
As if that incident wasn't bad enough, now I have to travel alongside the bastard. Dont know what Atlas was thinking. Oh well. Just another aspect of life; You gotta deal with Hegemons. Just wish this one was a little quieter... I guess at the very least he's got his dignity, he knows his alcohol.
I don't know. He's a bastard, but there's something there. He never talks about his past. Makes me think somethin' happened. Or maybe he's just got nothing to say. Who knows.
He can run his mouth 'til the stars explode, but I'll always be the Rogue that got away.
┊ ⋆ ┊[PART 2- GETTING TO KNOW EACHOTHER] Well, the man seems to have backed off. That's something I can respect. It's nice not hearing him run his mouth, but sometimes it feels a little... Too quiet. Eh. Same old same old. Sometimes you just don't wanna talk. Hell, I can hardly blame 'em. If I was captured by a group of randos, I'd be pissed too. I'm still a little weary of the guy, not liking the idea of giving my complete trust to a Hegemon yet, but at least he's not trying to gun me down... Not that I know of, anyway. Oh well, I'll try not to think about that. You're alright, Rigel.┊ ⋆ ┊
[So let me kill myself from this world and not let me suffer no longer from this painful experience.]
┊ ⋆ ┊[Part 1- Initial Thoughts]
Very much annoying to have to deal with, who does she think she's talking to? I swear i'll make her regret everything. Fuckass rogues really think they're all of it don't they, I'll fuck her up. Hope you like having an early grave Emmy...
┊ ⋆ ┊[Part 2- Getting to know eachother]
I guess she’s alright, still annoyed with her even if she has backed up from me to keep her distance which I have noticed and has made me think if arguing should be worth to distract her from asking me anything which I think she has had no interest in during the beginning. I don’t know how I certainly feel about her yet, I can’t trust anyone in this ship, not after that kidnapping situation I was caught in.
┊ ⋆ ┊[𝗣𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝟭- 𝗞𝗻𝗼𝘄𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿]
Ayyy, Atlas Sirius. I like that guy. Certainly a lot more reliable than all the other scoundrels around here. Sweet dude, too. Really helped me out of a rough situation. Guess I kind of owe him my life for that one. The man really seems to care about his crew... Speakin' of which, poor guy has gotten concerned about my booze business. Putting restrictions on my usage... But, that's probably for the best, y'know. Can't blame him. Hey, I'm happy to have 'em around. ┊ ⋆ ┊[𝗣𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝟮- 𝗧𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁𝘀 𝗼𝗻 𝗙𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗽] Well, I'd say we're pretty close friends by now. Gotta say, the man's ability to keep up a positive attitude throughout our journey has impressed me. It helps me keep up a better attitude too, in a way. Really just makes him... Easy to be around... Y'know, sometimes I wonder why I stay on this crew. Then I remember how lonely I was. But I've never felt lonely around him. Makes it all worth it. Though, I've noticed he's been a little anxious, even jumpy, recently... I bet it's 'cause of those space-parasite rumors. They freak me the hell out too! Those things are fuckin' freaky. Can't blame him. ┊ ⋆ ┊[𝗣𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝟯- 𝗦𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻'𝘀 𝗨𝗽] Gotta say, something's really messing with that man recently. He's still as anxious as ever. Maybe I really should invest in those parasite-testing kits... Ha ha, nah. I'm sure it's just the stress of the journey. Probably all those Hegemons on our trail. Could even be spacesickness... I catch him looking at me funny sometimes. Eh, nothin' I'm not already used to. That part of my face is pretty fucked, even after the surgery. That's what I'm assuming he's looking at, anyway... Ay, jumpy or not, he's still a good guy. ┊ ⋆ ┊[𝗣𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝟰- 𝗢𝗱𝗱] Think he's gotten a little worse. Hey, I know I've been joking about those parasites... But have you seen that man's heart rate? Thing's faster than me after seeing a Hegemon in a bar... Those things increase your heart rate, yeah? Think they do. Arc probably has a few parasites, maybe I can ask him 'bout it... Not to mention that the man can hardly keep eye contact with me. Oh well. I've really gotta get to the bottom of this... ┊ ⋆ ┊[𝗣𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝟱- 𝗦𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻'𝘀... 𝗦𝗶𝗿𝗶𝘂𝘀] Yeah. It's definitely worse. The man keeps acting like he wants to tell me something, but just can't get it out... Y'know what I think it is; He's the one who ate those leftovers of mine from the takeout place and he's too nervous to tell me he's the one who did it. Yeah. Gotta be it. Don't know why he can't just admit it to me, I ain't even mad at him for it... Every time he tries to tell me about it, he ends up looking away from me, redder than the Crimson Glory, and ends up chickening out. I really gotta just let him know I don't mind... ┊ ⋆ ┊[𝗣𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝟲- 𝗔𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗖𝗼𝗻𝗳𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻] Haha... So THAT'S what he's been trying to tell me... God, I really am denser than I thought... This whole time I've been comin' up with conspiracies for parasites, Hegemons... Hell, even leftovers. I must've sounded like one of those crazy Spacebook users, huh... Well, I'll say this. It was cute. Real cute.
┊ ⋆ ┊[𝗣𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝟳- 𝗪𝗮𝗿𝗺 𝗛𝗮𝗻𝗱𝘀] Well, I'd say we're at relationship status. That's score one for Emmy Caddet! Haha, no... But really, as odd as it is to be thrown into such new territory, I can't say I'm not enjoying myself. I'm pretty damn happy like this... I mean, c'mon, I gotta sweet ship to stay on 𝘢𝘯𝘥 a cute boy by my side. What more could a Rogue like me ask for? He really likes holding my hands, I've noticed... It's nice. Real nice. Haven't felt anything like that in a long time. The warmth really soothes me, y'know? Even through those gloves he always wears... I bet those hands are real soft under those... Ay, I'm rambling now. I really care about that man.
┊ ⋆ ┊[Part 1- Knowing eachother]
She’s a nice stranger, maybe I shouldn’t call her stranger, maybe I could call her a sort of close friend? Idk. But she’s kind, though maybe more scandalous than I thought including being a bit taunting but not in a bad way, mostly all is done as a joke. I had noticed her drinking alcohol heavily at time, it leaves me concerned that maybe I should do something about that certain bad habit that could harm her health.
┊ ⋆ ┊[Part 2- Thoughts on Friendship]
Her becoming my friend as time passed came sooner than thought out, maybe it could be because I saved her life. I mean who wouldnt want to be friends to someone after they saved you. She's very daring, adventurous even. Which is something I find... idk inspiring... I do get anxious when im around her tho, it makes me get out of focus from whatever I do but I think ik what im experiencing which it is sort of awkward. Sorry for the embarrasing moments haha.
┊ ⋆ ┊[Part 3- Catching strange feelings(?)]
I’ve been noticing myself staring at Emmy for long periods of time dreamily, even being a lot more awkward which is sort of embarrassing. I may have a lot of interest towards her than before, it’s sometimes troubling due to the lack of focus and direct communication towards her. I think I may have a crush on her or what other words people use, it’s a strange feeling though. Don’t know how to react to it exactly but it sure is something.
┊ ⋆ ┊[Part 4- Confessions]
These feelings have become overwhelming, I have had this urge to confess to her, but when I’m there during a right moment I struggle to confess. My mind goes through so many thoughts and my heartbeat is very much visible with the vitals which she sees and probably questions if I have alien parasites which is something I wish I could correct her on. I just want to confess how I really feel about her…
┊ ⋆ ┊[Part 5- Confessions P2]
Many attempts of trying to confess to Emmy have ended up in failures of me not being able to say it directly to her without looking away with embarrassment. Maybe I should just go for it, writing on a paper isn’t sort of my go to thing since I like taking challenges and well… confessing is a greater challenge than expected.
┊ ⋆ ┊[Part 6- Confessions P3]
I have finally done it, this was stressful but my heart couldn’t have handled more of not telling her, her reaction was not surprising since she probably didn’t know what I interpreted to say to her, maybe she thought I was gonna tell her something else
┊ ⋆ ┊[Part 7- Warming Feelings]
Being in a relationship is slightly anxious but also fluttering, it’s calming. Taking things slow is a start of a relationship in my belief, holding Emmy’s hands and feeling her warmth is calming of sorts, having her presence is nice to have around, I care for her.. I really do, I’ll stay here with her until the end of time and fight to see her smile.
The General. Everybody knows 'em. Bastard.
If I'd ever get the chance to meet him face-to-face, it wouldn't be for long. One of us would be dead... Most likely me.
Not that I'd go out looking for him. That's a death wish in itself. Look, I know I'm not all that important, but I'm not about to throw my life away to go get a shot at some bald bastard that'll probably blast me to bits with an energy gun. I've got cargo to deliver.
Insignificant.
Hamill... I do not have much family. Hamill would be my only family, in fact. But he has been with me. That is something that I will never forget... But it seems as if he has forgotten his own self. He is different now. He is no longer the same Hamill that I remember...
Sometimes I wonder if I am a different Calvan to him, too.
Calvan. My cousin. A Hegemony General, but still my cousin... It's something I have to keep reminding myself of. My heart knows that I care about that bastard. I really fuckin' care about that bastard. And I know that he's gotta care about me. But things just aren't the same anymore. I know they never will be.
He's distant now. The Calvan I once knew is dead...
The Hamill I once knew is dead, too.
Look... This faction has done so much for us. We wouldn't 𝘣𝘦 here if it weren't for this faction... But sometimes I think about our past. I think about what got us here. And fucking hell... Sometimes I wonder if we had known- if we had known what this faction would've done to us in the long run, back then...
Would we have chose to die, instead?
Orillion... His death shook me, and I'd hardly met him.
Holmes took it horribly. It took him a really long time for him to tell me anything about it, but he just broke one day. Never thought I'd see the man get so emotional.
I see Holmes stare off into space sometimes, blankly. Sometimes I wonder if he's thinking about him. Of what could have been. I know he's healed significantly, but I can tell he still hurts sometimes. I suppose that kind of stuff never leaves you, does it...
May he rest in peace.
He is a good man, with a strong sense of justice. He'd make for a good Rogue... I just hope that Holmes will understand that.
I remember him... They were celebrating his death.
I'll break him out of there one day. I don't know where they took him. I don't know how to get there. I don't know what the dangers will be. But I'll get him out. I don't know what I'll do with myself if I can't.
What did they do with her, after my capture?... They never told me. She could be dead and they would never tell me. They don't tell me anything anymore.
Not a day goes by where I don't think about her.
Just another Hegemon...
They talked about him. A lot. It wasn't ever anything good. We were told that if we caught him, we would be rewarded generously...
He attacked our fleet, once. I was lucky to make it out of there alive. Shot down two of our five fighters. I had a broken wing. One of the others had to tractor-beam me so I wouldn't crash into anything...
I don't know what drove him to be like this.
But I think I understand.
That old geezer... I fuckin' miss him, alright?... He made me who I am today. I just wish I could have said 'thank you'.
(This is meant to be interpreted before Sinclair's death. When Holmes was a little younger.)
Holmes... I feel bad for the kid sometimes, I really do. He hates talking about his old life, but I've managed to ease it out of him little by little. He seemed like quite the adventurer. Reminded me of myself, when I was his age...
He's got the Rogue spirit... But he makes the same mistake a lot of Rogues do, he's reckless. And he has a hard time accepting when he isn't right sometimes. I can understand, he's still scared and angsty after all these years, but it's just something I feel I need to watch out for, you know?
A good meal seems to settle him down. I can tell that he feels ridiculous, having me make one for him after all these years, but I know he enjoys it. He's like that.
That, erm... What was his name? 'Brant'... No, 'Trent'?... Oh, 'Brent'. That Brent kid seems to have taken somewhat of an idolizing to him, in a way... I think a real friend would do Holmes good. He certainly needs one... I won't be around forever.
That day I found him, alone in that destroyed village... I still think about it. He didn't deserve that. Nobody in that village did.
If I was given the chance to beat the livin' daylights out of one Hegemon in particular... It'd be that bastard General.
If I was given the chance to beat the living daylights out of one ROGUE in particular... It would be that sharp-eyed good-for-nothing DOG.
I admire Rune more than any current higher-up. My biggest inspiration… I wish she were still around, we could use a leader like her.
*The original Rune never met Calvan, but she probably would have… Tolerated him.*
Arc is an alright kind of guy, but I sometimes don’t enjoy the fact that he sneaks up behind me in thin air like a ghost, though I don’t really trust him, it feels like he’s not human..
He’s such a menace to anybody he meets, it’s like I’m having to deal with a literal kid from doing stupid things
I have major ties with this guy, we go way back.
Back in my younger days, when I was 19… Maybe 20, ‘Deadeye’ was the coolest son-of-a-gun I’d ever seen. He’d come to Balesin with that ‘Orillion’ guy, I think they were there to discuss some deal with the Peacekeepers… I think Orillion was much more interested in that than Holmes was. I’d shared my dreams of wanting to be a big-star rogue countless times after that, but Holmes always shrugged me off, I’m not sure why.
A while afterward I’d heard that Orillion had passed on. And then a few days after that, it’s almost like Holmes had gotten completely different. He finally wanted to help me with my rogue aspirations. I don’t know what that man had said to Holmes before he died, but it was enough to get him to help me.
I became a getaway driver of sorts, and then I eventually got more important jobs. It was risky work, but it felt good to fight against something evil… I think that’s what we were doing, anyway.
I might not be a Rogue anymore, but I never pass up the opportunity to hang around old Deadeye… Though, as of recent, he seems to have been distancing himself again. I don’t know why… He always was critical of my decision to join the Peacekeepers. I think he’s crazy.
Brent? Oh, you mean blondie.
The kid's alright. Bit airheaded, but he's alright... Don't tell him I said that. He gets on my nerves enough as-is.
Helped him out a lot in the past. Taught him everythin' I learned from Orillion. I think that's what the man wanted me to do... Didn't want to leave a dead man hangin'.
Not a fan of his decision to work with the Peacekeepers, though... I just can't trust them. They've got ties with Hegemony. Brent's changed since he joined them, I just can't put my finger on it.
Now... I've watched one too many Sci-Fi movies, so I KNOW what I'm talkin' about... This guy right 'ere is a cybernetic heap of BAD MEDICINE! Just wait until that thing goes ROGUE!...
...But he'd make good police.
Respectable, and noble.
Officer Emma always acts like she has something to prove, though.
Slate's weird, creepy dad. Constantly trying to look at my studies. Incredibly short, too. I've seen 7-year-olds taller than this man...
I don't know whos more far gone, the Spoon Cultist, or him. Either way, he seems like he means well.
HE'S BREAKING THE LAWS OF SCIENCE!... BUT IT IS VERY INTERESTING!!!... I'd suspect something intentionally malicious if he wasn't such a DOOFUS! His last name cracks me up, HA HA! SCIENCE!
My creator, and my... "Father".
He's quite mad, but he's got good ideas. I truly do care about him, but he can be quite embarrassing... I am not too fond of visits to the Bingo Club.
AH, MY BEAUTIFUL CREATION, MY SON! SMELLS LIKE SCIENCE!
Oh, he's a joy! Helps me with just about everything, perfect for my experiments! He is quite... Quiet sometimes, though... ALL IN THE NAME OF SCIENCE!
Ser Slate is a GOOD ACQUAINTANCE! I have suited him fit for the position of protecting me when the Fork Cultists eventually attack me for my rebellion!... He doesnt know it yet, though.
Originally I did not like "Fershredinald the Third". His "preaching" is outrageous, and I found his persistency annoying... However, Professor Mortus practically forced me to be around him, and over time I warmed up to his likeness. He is a good friend, although he and Carter look quite similar.
This guy's never let me down. I'm lucky to have him around.
Carter has let me down. A lot.
...I care about his well-being anyway. I suppose I am happy to have him as a friend.