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the envoy of the spider queen is a gnoll in which she enlightened herself? i cannot say it sits right with me. it is clear where her loyalties lie, and i cannot help but think she is acting as more of a way to keep us under direct surveillance. lolth's bond with inari only goes so far, after all. though she is a gnoll, it's clear she isn't as stupid as her kind usually is. not that i would go about apologizing her for my comments, but i would not be opposed to talking to her. we are supposed to travel with her, anyway, so i suppose i'll get the chance in due time. it's also nice to have another cleric, as our group is rather prone to stumbling into trouble. hopefully she's prepared.
prys most likely revived vasha before they left, whenever that was. i wish verity had stopped them instead of just letting them depart. i wish to speak with my brother about everything.
i do not have any clue why my sister would leave in the middle of the night. i trust that friend will keep her safe, but it worries me dearly- what is she up to? where has she gone? i hope verity is able to locate her. i don't understand why she would leave, and especially without letting me know and saying goodbye. did i do something? did something scare her off? i know she must have had a purpose, but what it could be escapes me.
i hope he rots in the hells. he is the creature they tell young elves to worry about.
it is good to see that she has regained her soul just as we did. i wonder if she's doing alright.
how is it possible that, every time our group is hurt, howl seems to pull the short end of the stick and have something horrible befall some vital part of his body? his tail, now his eye- can the poor dragonborn catch a break? i feel sorry for him. and in that, yalkar as well, for no doubt having to stress and deal with howl's myriad issues. though, perhaps howl enjoys the coddling from his childhood friend. i think we feel similar. I, I mean, in regards to wanting to feel useful. I will let the dragonborn to his own kind, thank you very much! ugh, anyway. i just think maybe i would like to sit down and apologize to him some time for what my father has done to his people. i got that chance with yalkar, but not him. and i may not know howl all that well, but like i said, he seems to struggle with similar issues as i do. thus, an apology might do him good.
lord ostoroth's son, nearly an exact replica of the man who's slaughtered my people for the past century. when i see him, i'm reminded that my breath no longer draws the flame that my mother gave me. yet, i also see a very sad and lonely boy who thinks he is not worth much. and for that reason, i feel me and him are not so different. i get the sense that yalkar has come to the same conclusion about him, and i trust his judgement more than anything. i think i'd like to speak to neuvieh more, perhaps it will help me recover from the loss of my honor and maybe even bring me a new ally.
there is much to be said about verity, though it seems it's rather hard to place my thoughts on him in order. it is nice that i finally got the chance to sit down and talk to him, even if it was just about my own concerns. he seems rather... understanding. i know he will only stay around for his brother, and that bard perhaps, but i am getting the sense that maybe he actually likes us awful lot. as more than just endearing entertainment, i mean. i overheard him mention that the cave we took refuge in was mystra's- the patron in which he draws his wizardry from? obviously not the in same way as a warlock such as myself does, but i see the connection there. it's what gives him his ability to see through the eyes of others... and leaving me to entertain the notion that sibil is not entirely dead. which, by the way, i am surely not fond of.
recent events have made me regret judging him so quickly, as he was able to avoid his fate and earn the good will of skully himself. of course, there is no guarantee this fate is any less adverse than the former, but having skully as a guardian certainly helps his chances. i remember that having saved me many times in our youth... it is pointless to reminisce, as it is now neuvieh who seems to be able to reach him. i hope he grows to understand what a tremendous feat this is, and that he doesn't take that responsibility lightly. but perhaps it is no longer my place to say. i only hope that he helps free my brother's tortured soul.
we are traveling to people that are the remnants of tabby's life prior to this one, of missing souls and adventures. i will be watching for her reaction upon reuniting with these people. she mentioned not having had contact with them in decades, which leaves me curious if she sees them as her people at all. they might be druids like her, but they don't seem to be home. i suppose i can relate to that- my high elf people have never felt like home either. ah, regardless. though tabby and i have not spoken much, i do hope to aid her the best i can in whatever ghosts of the past we come to face.
there is not much to say about the cat. i do wonder what his thoughts are on what has happened to us- and more importantly, if he will continue to travel with us. now that he has his soul back, i can't imagine him sticking around much longer despite everything. but maybe he will surprise me- he has already done such prior, in the short time we have known one another.
i feel bad for him after the events with Skully, though his brothers death must also certainly be hard for him. i wonder a little if this is his comeuppance for being born an elf and living in the lap of luxury, looking down on everyone else his whole life from his daddys throne. though Yalkar mentioned his family are bad people, so maybe his life hasnt been quite as soft and cushy as ive suspected. we'll see. i want to go to the elf city with him and figure it out
there is a sharp pang that resonates within me when i watch the way noone interacts with skully, though i can't say for certain what it is. i've never been all that good at identifying my own emotions, unfortunately. something of envy, or jealousy, maybe, though for what i have no idea. anyway, regardless of that, it brings me relief to see the gnoll girl cured them of the dragon ailment- or, mostly, maybe? not in it's entirety, since they didn't go through the same grueling procedure of removing scales from their skin like the owl did. it makes me wonder if something bad will happen to them, which i certainly am not a fan of. i wonder if they would listen to my reasoning for why keeping a part of tiamat's dragon plague within him would be a bad idea. even if it isn't killing them anymore... it does not sit well with me. it remains to be seen what happens with them, i suppose.
When Lolth warned me of Neuvieh’s fate I wasn’t thinking if I could’ve stopped it, or rather stop him from killing his own father, but moreso if I could save him from the consequences. I guess in a way now I didn’t have to, Yalkar having stolen that fate for himself, but I can’t imagine this bodes well for Neuvieh either. He’s lost his patron as well as most of his family now. I suppose in a way I know what that’s like, I just hope he knows he’s not alone, that there are still those of us who are choosing to be by his side.
never in my life did i imagine id catch inari fraternizing with verity- and in the library, of all places! i was not aware she could read... regardless, i think i have been too harsh in my judgements of her. there is a particular air about her that is clueless, but i have realized she is very genuine and caring despite her inability to see the bigger picture. she... she is a good person. maybe one of the best among us pack of fiends and heathens. one thing i have been stuck on, she brought up how she see doesn't see my father in me- he was a horrible person, and in that, i should disregard all he has said to me and ingrained in me. particularly, in regards to what she called a "complex," and how the way i assess people in terms of usefulness is "weird," apparently. i am not sure what to think. i've never had anyone be so... honest with me. inari is an enigma. maybe i... am fond of her for that.