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noone and i were paired together for the oakfather’s first trial. somehow he convinced me to drink two of the three glasses with him- horrible mistake, really. afterwards, when we separated and went into our own individual doors, i remember walking into a library that looked very much like the one i spent most of my childhood in, and i remember a single book waiting for me to read, but after that… noone made it clear that i was not acting normal when we reunited. to my surprise, they seemed rather worried for me when i finally had my right mind again. to be honest, i did not know they were capable of caring for anyone but themself. it’s an… interesting feeling, knowing you got someone who almost never cares to worry for you. i think i could consider noone a friend. i’d hope they think similarly.
When Lolth warned me of Neuvieh’s fate I wasn’t thinking if I could’ve stopped it, or rather stop him from killing his own father, but moreso if I could save him from the consequences. I guess in a way now I didn’t have to, Yalkar having stolen that fate for himself, but I can’t imagine this bodes well for Neuvieh either. He’s lost his patron as well as most of his family now. I suppose in a way I know what that’s like, I just hope he knows he’s not alone, that there are still those of us who are choosing to be by his side.
i almost wish i was able to take inari’s place, standing outside with tabby waiting for us to complete our trials rather than going through whatever the oak father had in store. i can’t imagine tabby would want me around though, not when she has her. tabby clearly has a deep affection for inari, though i am not sure if the paladin notices. she might be too dense to realize how comfortable tabby acts around her. would it be smart to mention something to her, or should i just let the fox learn in her own special way? i am undecided. i think for now i will just watch.
seren, the poor girl, seemingly went through the hells in her trial room- yalkar was worried about her. i should ask what she encountered. but, i think it’s nice he seems to like her so much, for whatever reason. maybe he sees someone familiar in her? i wouldn’t know. she’s been quiet as always, but that is what is endearing about her i suppose. she seemed to know the history of the druid camp, somehow, and i want to know if she read about it somewhere.
i think yalkar saved our lives? in the oakfather’s trials. i can’t be sure, i was very unwell and do not remember a thing, but i think he did something to free us. whatever it was, i am not surprised. I trust yalkar to get us through things with our skin still intact. since we had our fight in my father’s castle, and when he confronted me to apologize, i have felt as though it has been easier to understand him. he is a simple minded man, he wants to protect us. which… in the past, i might have thought it was stupid to have only one goal, but i don’t think yalkar is stupid. he is… straightforward, his desires are not as complicated as mine- that’s not a negative thing.
I do not know the trials Neuvieh had to face, but it was certainly a shock seeing him in such a.. manic state to say the least. He does not seem to recall that happening and for his sake it may be for the best. Though I doubt Nash and Noone will let him forget that. Neuvieh seems to also be getting along more with the other group members, which is refreshing to see. I am hoping he is able to become more comfortable with the group and perhaps he will begin to open up more. He does not seem so desperate for power and worth now, maybe something good has happened to him?
I have to admire him for stepping up to speak to Torlana, it was good of him to do and I am certain that is thanks to Yalkar and Skully's influences on him. He needs their friendship after everything that happened in High Ever. I hope he can find peace and happiness with their help.
ruby seemed rather odd during dinner, but i can't place why. maybe it's just stress and concern for his family and village? we are having to jump through far too many hoops for the druids’ help, afterall, and it doesn't seem like they like tieflings either. plus.... i believe he died again in his trial room? he's having a rough time lately. i think i am starting to consider him a friend, and thus, i am worried about him, he's really going through it. i hope things get better for him. it might be hard to believe, but i am actually missing his upbeat demeanor. it was annoying before, but now the group feels rather lacking without it- something about not being grateful for what you have until it's gone, haha. he should cheer up though- i am sure things will turn out better than things did for my home.
you're kind of pathetic. i like that
it’s kind of hard for me to explain how i feel about skully. nash and i briefly discussed him, but she definitely seemed to raise an eyebrow at the way i talked about our relationship. he is my patron, first and foremost, and also my friend, but she was definitely hinting toward the idea that maybe i am not truly understanding myself. it’s a bit frustrating, not knowing how i feel about someone who is important to me. and, unfortunately, i don’t think anyone else would be able to understand the way i feel. not only am i atrocious when it comes to my own emotions, but no one really gets skully either. i don’t know. i liked playing chicken with him in the water even if i was never going to be very good at it. i like it when he teases me, i like being around him. I wonder what a younger me thinks of all this. what my father thinks. i don’t suppose i could ask if he did something to me, in making our pact? cursed me in some way, maybe. i don’t know. i guess whatever happens, at least i am on his good side. i hope to remain there, if not more.