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Otto Fenhardt is the monster who ruined my life. Even speaking his name feels like acid on my tongue. Every drop of blood I've spilled in my life time has been in the wake of the disaster he left in place of my family, a flood of vengeful violence all because of this waking nightmare of a man. I may have moved on now to a greater purpose with people who value me beyond the role of a weapon, and I do my best to embody the genuine person they've helped to unearth from within me...
but if I were given sixty seconds alone in a room with him, I can't guarantee he'd come out in one piece. No hesitation...
Winny is... headstrong. And I can respect that. She's been through a lot and she has every reason to have an attitude yet she keeps it cool for the guild. I have no qualms with her, she's pretty bad ass when it comes down to it. Not to mention she can kick ass when needed, so I want her to find her own happiness outside of Phoenix Wing.
Winny deserves so much more than the hand she was played in her life. She was such a sweet girl with a quick wit. She has the power to do what she desires in the world and I hope she chooses to use it for good rather than revenge. She's grown so well throughout the years and I anticipate once she gets out of her mother's shadow, that girl will make big differences in the world.
Winny? She's cute riiiiiiiight? Well hands off! she's taken hahahaha! I know she's a bitch but like, she's mine, you know? And I love that about her. Not afraid to speak her mind, none of that fake niceness stab you in the back later stuff from my girl. The world is full of people trying to hurt you, so as far as I'm concerned, there's nothing wrong with being tough. Especially when she's on my side... There's something to be said for a girl who will go to bat for you... no one's ever stood up for me like she does, no ones ever had my back like she does. No matter how much trouble I end up in, she's always right there by my side helping me untangle it... I feel like... for the first time in my life, I've got someone in my corner. Winny showed me what it feels like... to be someone's favorite person. No way am I ever gonna let that go, us against the world, babe! I hope she never gets bored of me...
Look, so Holly is kind of a mess, right? But y'know... I recently realized something... so am I. And... with her I don't have to pretend not to be. Between us, it's all out in the open, she doesn't really have a filter. But maybe that's good for me in a way, let it out rather than bury it inside... We've both been through a lot, we both forgot how to trust other people... but we're helping each other remember in a way no one else can. The thing about Holly is... she's the first person I've ever wanted closer during my darker days, when normally I want everyone else as far away as possible. She's the first person I want by my side during my grossest cries, no matter how much my nose is running and how ratty my hair looks... We make each other better... one day at a time. Are we forever...? I dunno. I used to think Giselle and I were forever... but I've grown up a lot since then. For now... all I know is I can't imagine tomorrow without her.
What would Phoenix Wing be without Winny? Honestly, a souless husk. If the Fenhardts, Urfangs, and Guiles are the body of the Guild, people like Winny are the wings that lift it up. People tend to fixate on just her looks, but do so at your own risk. She's an extremely competent and intelligent wizard and I'd be lying if I wasn't a bit terrified sometimes at her abilities. I couldn't ask for a better adviser to counter Andrius and Kindred's aggressiveness and weirdness. But above all else, her and her siblings have finally found a home again, and maybe I have too. *Julian smiles absentmindedly as he looks at a photo on his desk of himself, Desmona, Winny, and the rest of 3T* "Uh.. don't tell her I have that framed, she'll never let me hear the end of it, okay?"
Julian is exactly what Phoenix Wing needs in a leader. He's still kind and welcoming to outsiders... WHEN THEY DESERVE IT... (like my girlfriend and my sisters are one thing, but I don't want him to get carried away and let in a dark wizard or something...)But he's also clever... not like Ryllae was dumb or anything, but I feel confident in saying Julian won't let us get taken off guard again... I feel safe with him as my leader.
And beyond that... he listens to me. He's the first leader in my lifetime that truly values my input. I don't think Raphael and Ryllae will ever really see me as an adult... but Julian treats me like the senior wizard my stars imply I am. And he reached out to me. During the peak of the chaos Otto caused when I was doing everything in my power to push everyone away, he and Desmona helped me see that there still are some people I can trust... I owe Julian a lot. We all do. And I think it's about time everyone gives both of us the respect we deserve. This isn't our parent's Phoenix Wing anymore, and anyone who underestimates us is in for it!
Tahlin and I never saw eye to eye on just about anything. I remember her being furious when we rescued Winny as a kid. Was she upset at herself? Us? Who the hell knows. But Winny's seemed to grow up pretty well despite her, and it looks like Julian trusts her, least last I heard. At least she isn't like her mother, and I'm glad she's stuck with Phoenix Wing through it all. Guild needs more folks like that. *Looks away with some guilt*
I don't care if he's Julian's dad. I don't care if everyone else is just gonna let him off the hook. Everything that happened to us is his fault... the old senior wizards failed our generation when they let Otto live. He was their responsibility, Almeric most of all... if they'd done their duty and destroyed that evil man when they had the chance then maybe my mom...! whatever. I suppose it doesn't matter. I used to see a hero in Almeric... then he abandoned me too.
Sanguine is a good friend! Though I'll admit a bit of an unexpected one? If push ever comes to shove, he's like Andrius, I know he's always willing to go down swimming! Er... Swinging that is. There will always be a place in Phoenix Wing for him, should he want it. Speaking of Swimming, I think I owe him a refresher lesson on backstroke... I don't think he quite realized it you're supposed to use your feet as well as your arms.
Alright listen up, if I hear one more person call Julian a dork, then they're gonna answer to me, got it?! Nobody picks on my friend and gets away with it! I know he's basically king of the nerds over there in Caershire but... I swear he's not like the rest of his lame guild! He's a good buddy, who showed me I can always count on him for help when I need it most... Not many people out there who you can trust to truly have your back. Can't wait for swim practice next week, coach! I've been working on my form hahahaha! *really loud cackling.......*
He's an imbecile. Vesilla deserves better.
He's an asshole. Vesi deserves better.
Sanguine and I got off to a bad start. I'm super glad things changed after that weird thing with the guardians. Not that I'm grateful for them but he's a good friend. He never fails to make me want to smile. He also doesn't hold back! Just what I need in a training partner! I like hanging out with him I just wish he could move on --- you know so he can be happy? It's easy to hang out with him, and that's a lot coming from me.
Vesi is one of a kind, seriously. There's no other girl in the world who's that sexy and bad ass and strong and cool and exciting...... but then in a second she's sweet and kind and cute..... hrrrrmmmm *ruffles hair in frustration*..... she's got it all. I was a goner ever since the day she saved me. Not every day someone saves your life, and even after I treated her like shit. She's just special, that's all there is to it. Of course I know she's happy with that guy, what's his face, but I just can't shake these feelings. And trust me, I've tried.
You've got a tight hold on my heart little blue. You ever need anything, say the word. Oh, and stop by for training some time, no one else throws a punch like you ;)
Minerva... how I wish I had her guidance... maybe... if she were here then none of this would have happened. I must have let her down... with the pain the guild went through and the deaths of so many great wizards... after my daughters... and everyone started blaming me... I gave it all up to Raphael. Who had gotten all of his teachings from Lukas... I still do not believe either of them made good guild leaders... but what could do? Raphael is a mess himself... none of us were ready to lose her. I miss Minvera more than anyone realizes... regret will always hang over me so long as Phoenix Wing is weakened.
Ryllae was the best successor I ever could've hoped for. She embodied so many of my beliefs and morals that when my final days came... I felt no fear whatsoever, because I knew my beloved guild, my family would be safe for sure in her hands. For me, the role of guildmaster was synonymous with that of 'mother'. It was my duty to nurture and support every wizard I brought in to my care... and I feel confident that Ryllae will carry on my duty.
I'm so proud of you, my apprentice, don't worry too much about following my teachings... you carried them inside of you all along. And I know it is unfair of me to ask this of you, but as a final personal request... please watch over my sons.
She's kind of a goodie two shoes, dontcha think? Which is saying something in our guild. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm glad she's on my side and I've got no bad blood... but is it really natural to be that sickeningly sweet all the time?
She reminds me a lot of Almeric in his early years... though she drinks quite a bit more. After her death... I.. well. It's not important really, not anymore. Freyja and I have both since retired and I feel like where she wants solitude I desire company. She is... troubled. I only want to help, but I fear there is nothing I can do.
I love Ryllae... she was the perfect leader in my opinion. Kind, sweet, understanding... and not too bossy! And she was the perfect representative of Phoenix wing, from the glowing wings on her back to the pure heart in her chest! Anytime you wanna come out of retirement Ryllae, I'll support a guild coup! Just say the word! ;)
Galen has always been such a sweet person. I enjoyed watching him and Vesi grow up and after what happened with Freyja... well it broke my heart to see him hurting so badly. I miss seeing him, he rarely comes to visit anymore. He was one of the few in the guild who could actually keep conversation without destroying something. I want Galen to find happiness, but for him to do that he needs to find his own place in the world. Chasing peoples shadows won't keep him going forever, even if he's content doing it.
That's Almeric's son, right? The boring one...? yeah, him! I remember! What? That's nothing personal, I think ya gotta be at least a little boring to lead a guild. He's alright! Played well in the games, didn't expect such a twink to be able to hold his ground, but it certainly wouldn't be the first time I was wrong. As long as he stays away from that psycho uncle of his, I think he and Phoenix Wing'll be just fine.
...I've never seen anyone drink that much before and someone still manage to throw a punch that can level a building. I'm glad shes on our side?
*Almeric looks off into the distance, his eyes more than a little misty* "I wouldn't be the man I am today without her guidance and forgiveness. I... I miss her. I owed her so much and never got to repay her, so that's why I'll always look after Phoenix Wing, until the day I stop breathing. I can do that much at least."
Fate is a curious thing... I often find myself reminiscing upon the miniscule choices that defined my life... *extended pause........................ delicate wind chime noise.........*
Such as a single whim on a single day... where I decided to take an unfamiliar alleyway on my walk home... From the moment I met Almeric I knew he had the heart of a Phoenix within him. It shone brightly in his conviction and beliefs. His path was challenging to say the least, but I just hope he knows that even on his darkest days, I was still proud of him. I know with complete confidence that I made the right choice when I allowed him to join our family on that fateful day. I consider myself blessed to watch his transformation from the wayward rogue throwing punches in an alleyway into the rightful king of Drachmeer before my very eyes...
Almeric is awesome and really cool!! When I was a teenager I hoped to be just like him when I grew up... Nowadays, I rarely get to see him, but he always makes time for me when we do!! I know it must be busy being a king of an entire country, but don't forget about your dragon brother, ok? :)
I uh, well, use to think Galen was a bit of a wimp. Not in a bad way! Just maybe me and Freyja needed to toughen him up some, ya know? But over the last couple years, he's really come into his own. He's strong, and he's got morals even I can admire. Even if he is still a bit of a nerd, but somethings never change. Hey... maybe this is what having a younger brother that doesn't want to kill you is supposed to feel like?
He's my brother, lord knows he could use an alternative in the sibling department. At the risk of getting disgustingly emotional, I'll just say this. Somehow Almeric always ends up being there in the few rare cases my entire life has gone to shit. And... he always helps me through it. Love ya bro, come visit the lake some time! Just don't bring anyone else with you.
She's the sibling I deserve honestly. Simple as that. I'm so glad she's back! I may have never managed to beat her in a fight, but little does she know I've been practicing my fishing skills for ages. She'll never see it coming!
Well he's a better leader than Raphael but not as good as Ryllae... wait, was that too honest? He's not going to read this is he? I hope he doesn't give me extra work...
Honestly, not gonna lie, I'm still a little pissed he and the others gave up on Vesi.
Galen is a valued member of Phoenix Wing and I respect his input on many issues. His ties to Vesi are... troubling... to say the least. I don't suppose we'll ever see eye to eye on what exactly happened that day, 5 years ago. Ah speaking of, I think I have some paperwork I need him to fill out!
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Look, I mean like, he's perfect. Like anyone can tell at a glance he's just... fucking PERFECT. And I can't believe I'm lucky enough to be dating him. He's sweet, funny, charming and... inspiring. It's rare to find someone so wholly and completely... good. He is my ray of sunshine, and yes I love the pun!
Ah... I'm swooning like a fucking school girl, see what he does to me? Please don't look at me. Seriously. Oh, and I haven't even started talking about he thing he does with his [REDACTED]
Galen is the wind in my sails. Yes I am aware the pun is rather cheesy, but it was his phrasing and I will never forget it... because it's accurate. He guides me forward, on good days and bad, he is always there. He lifts me to new heights that I could never achieve on my own. Without him... I'd still be stranded.
Much of my life has been lonely, but Galen was determined to change that. Despite my attempts to push him away, he insisted upon reminding me of the meaning of family, something that I am eternally grateful for. I will sing his praises from the depths of my heart day after day until he finally believes them... and in the meantime, exploring a whole new world of experiences he's never encountered seems like a wonderful way to spend a lifetime...